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  1. Public Bookmark 85

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    It started as a simple conversation a little while after their wedding. It was only because things were going so well for the two of them- because Ilya had finally found a medication that worked for him and a therapy treatment plan that was effective - that he even thought to broach the topic of perhaps, maybe, if he wanted, Shane giving therapy a go himself.

    It was going well at first. Shane seemed more introspective, more thoughtful about himself, more communicative with Ilya.

    But within the last few weeks, there had been a shift.

    Something was wrong with Shane, and Ilya had no idea what to do.

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    (Takes place after the events of 'The Long Game')

    Ilya convinces Shane to try therapy, but it ends up bringing things to the surface Shane has spent a lifetime keeping buried. Ilya helps him through it.

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    No AI Used. Fuck AI

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    16 Jun 2026

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    “You are very particular with when you eat,” Ilya says, finally.

    Shane tilts his head, moderately offended as he scrambles to say, “No, I’m not.”

    “You are.”

    “I’m not–”

    “It is not question, Hollander,” Ilya says, and there’s no room for discussion. He’s moving on, popping another chip into his mouth. “It is fact.”

     

    or, Ilya making observations about Shane's eating habits.

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    16 Jun 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 1

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    Mind the tags!

    “Look, just give me a couple of months. I swear I can fix it. I just need some time, that’s all,” Anthony replied.

    “I don’t have a couple of months to give. Serpentine is a big deal right now, Anthony, and I can’t have dead weight. I’m sorry. Until you can figure something out, bookings are going to stop.”

    “What? You can’t do that! I—I rely on that money. You know I do—”

    OR:

    Anthony J. Crowley is a failing artist; Astra Fell is a priest. Neither have ever met, but fate brings them together when Anthony is at his lowest point. Can Astra show Anthony that life is worth living again? Will Anthony get his spark back?

    An angsty human AU fic.

    [This fic is a WIP and will be updated weekly.]

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    16 Jun 2026

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    When Ilya Rozanov shows up to a routine job assignment, he has no idea that a simple mistake will change the trajectory of his life, forever.

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    Sex trafficking victim Ilya is saved by the Hollanders.

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    12 Jun 2026

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    After Vegas, Shane decided that to get over Rozanov, he needed to get under someone new. That decision ends up costing him more than he could have ever known.

    After Vegas, Ilya decided that getting over Hollander was a useless task, and saying fuck it and jumping all in was the way to go. That decision ends up costing him more than he could have ever known.

     

    NOTE: None of the Rape/Non-Con is between Shane & Ilya

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    12 Jun 2026

  6. Public Bookmark 13

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    Ten years ago, Ilya and Shane were abducted in the parking lot after a late night practice. Shane was able to get away, but Ilya was not. Now ten years later, Shane is retired and is now an assistant coach for the Ottawa Centaurs, and Ilya is still missing. Shane is on his way to practice one day when he gets a call from a panicked Luca that completely changes Shane's life.

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    12 Jun 2026

  7. Public Bookmark 12

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    Because it's good news, right? That no one has told him that Ilya is— There probably would have been headlines. Or a press release. A photo of him in his jersey, smiling, two dates only twenty-eight years apart, a few lines about his career, and no listed survivors. Supportive tweets from a bunch of people in the league. Shane's team would put out a press release about the foundation and probably get a flood of donations. There would be something, if he were—

    But there's nothing. There's just this void. Nothing, nothing, no sign of him. It's like Ilya has disappeared off the face of the earth.

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    Shane's point of view on the events of lonely i came, and i depart alone

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    12 Jun 2026

  8. Public Bookmark 40

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    Lieutenants Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov are rivals on the clock and something far hotter behind closed doors. But in a department where reputations are everything, and the Commissioner is watching, love is the ultimate liability. When the pressure mounts and the stakes turn deadly, Shane makes the impossible choice to walk away to protect Ilya’s future. But how do you stay in the same room as the person who owns your heart when you’re forced to act like strangers?

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    05 Jun 2026

  9. Public Bookmark 6

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    They have talked about mental health issues and Grigoryeevich’s illness many times and Shane knows almost everything Ilya has been able to recall about the day of Irina’s death. Even about the shoes.
    He also knows how Ilya has never bought a single pair of Air Force 1 ever since.

    Or: set during The Long Game, Ilya has a depressive episode triggered by the idea of inheriting dementia from his father and a stupid Nike’s billboard.
    Shane puts him first.

    TW: depression, suicidal thoughts and memories from the day of Irina’s death.
    The Long Game spoilers and possible inaccuracies.
    Happy ending and smut scenes.

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    29 May 2026

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    Ilya loves when Shane gets like this. Needy, unabashed, all for Ilya’s taking. 

    Shane, so fucking pretty like this with his glossed-over eyes and slick lips and flushed cheeks, begging for anything Ilya is willing to give.

    And, oh, is Ilya willing to give.

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    Shane loves belonging to Ilya, and Ilya loves taking care of Shane

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    27 May 2026

  11. Public Bookmark 41

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    Wyll Ravengard is in love. Unfortunately, the man he loves is only interested in something casual, preferring to stay out of the blinding spotlight that is Wyll's life now that he's taken on the mantle of Grand Duke.
     

    Astarion is in love. Unfortunately, the man he's in love with is:
    1. The Grand Duke
    2. Unaware he's a vampire
    3. Going to get him killed if Cazador finds out

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    24 May 2026

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    “Rozanov,” Crowell begins, his voice finally dropping its casual flair. He snorts out something like a laugh. “Is Hollander blackmailing you?”

    “What?” Shane says to his muted phone at the same time Ilya says “Excuse me?”

    “A charity really?” Crowell huffs like this was a joke. Shane feels his blood go cold as he realizes this isn’t a friendly little meeting.
    Crowell lets out a soft hum, and Shane can hear his chair creek like he’s leaning forward. “Ilya level with me, you’re a bad person.”

    No. No! No!

    or: Crowell tells Ilya he can't start the Irina Foundation because it messes with his 'Bad Boy' persona. Too bad Shane Hollander is listening in on his phone and disagrees.

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    19 May 2026

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    “You handled it well. You flunked a bit the questions we had prepared, but you did well.”
    Flunked?” Shane asked, voice pitching up as the words salted over the open wound, the infected gutting from the top of his throat down to his stomach.
    “You should have rectified and make your position clear about Scott Hunter. We don’t want you to sound like you’re antagonizing him,” Yuna added, matter-of-factly, her eyes narrowing on the knot of his tie, adjusting it like it still mattered.

    Shane’s body shook violently against his will, dislodging from under her touch. Yuna looked up, surprised by his reaction.
    Surprise that shifted to horror immediately.

    “No, that’s not what I meant–”
    “I need to–” he gasped, bringing a hand to cover his mouth, while Yuna tried to grab his arm. Any other time, he could have avoided her, but Shane was falling.

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    19 May 2026

  14. Public Bookmark *

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    On June 17th, 2017, Ilya Rozanov is declared dead following the crash of Air Canada Flight 11040.

    On June 24th, he comes back to life.

    Shane spends the intervening week on a silent retreat, more or less.

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    19 May 2026

  15. Public Bookmark 16

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    Something Shane did hear, though, were –

    “Skates?” he mumbled, confused as to why he could hear the scratch of blades on the ice. He followed the sound to a more a secluded section of the lake, hidden behind some trees, and couldn’t believe his eyes.

    Ilya, his curls mostly covered by a woolen beanie, in long, comfortable-looking leggings and a training jacket, which was a lot less bulky than Shane’s cotton-lined coat. He was doing some beautiful spins out on the ice. Shane also noticed the skates Ilya wore were definitely not hockey skates but proper figure skating ones!

    Still mostly obscured by the trees, Shane kept watching his boyfriend effortlessly sliding across the ice. Ilya executed some spins, step sequences and even a few jumps, like he had never done anything else. Even if Shane had never been able to distinguish all the different types of jumps just from watching...

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    Ilya did figure skating, when he was younger. Now, he rarely finds the time to do so, but once he finally did, he embarrasses himself in front of Shane.

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    15 May 2026

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    10 May 2026

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    He answered with no preface, no pretense, just the bare facts. “I'm at the hospital with Shane. He wasn't waking up for me.”

    The line was quiet for a bit, almost long enough for Hayden to start thinking she'd put the phone down. When she spoke, her tone was serious.

    “What do you mean, not waking up?”

    “I got to Drapeau's place and tried to wake him up to get him in the car, but he wouldn't wake up. It was like he couldn't. And then,” he trailed off, unsure what to even say about what he found to his wife.

    “And then what?”

    He took a deep breath, reluctant to say it out loud, but he had to tell her. “I think something bad happened to him, Jacks. Like, really bad.”

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    Shane is sexually assaulted at a house party in Montreal. He, Hayden, and Ilya make their attempts to recover in the aftermath.

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    30 Apr 2026

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    "It's nothing..." Shane mumbles again

    "Is something" Ilya states like it's the most obvious thing known to mankind. Shane will never understand how he's so easy to read.

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    Shane feels insecure about how loud and responsive he is in bed when he’s with Ilya.

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    26 Apr 2026

  19. Public Bookmark 26

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    Grief is a weird thing, sometimes it sneaks up to you and swallows you whole.
    Shane and Ilya lose their unborn baby and it hits Ilya hard.

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    25 Apr 2026

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    Shane is still learning that he doesn't have to be perfect in his own relationship. Ilya is still learning the rules of Shane's bad days. So when Shane tries to push him away after a crushing loss, it leads to a tense argument. But ten years of rivalry are no match for Shane’s tears; the second he starts to cry, Ilya folds like a house of cards.

    Or: Shane tries to starve himself as punishment for losing, Ilya tries to feed him, and it turns into a very soft night of pampering because Ilya is legally incapable of staying angry at a crying Shane.

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    25 Apr 2026

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