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the belly of the whale by Michelle_Wheeler
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
27 Jan 2026
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He’s sleepy, and he knows in later hours that’s what he’ll chalk it up to, as he does everything else, just with varied, stupid excuses. He’s tired now, he’s exhausted, he’s just woke up, and he’s kissing him—peppering his cheeks and lips and neck with light pecks—he takes a backseat in the world around him, watches his own actions like a motion picture: he’s kissing him, he’s loving him, he doesn’t care if he’s not supposed to love him because right now he does and it doesn’t matter, he doesn’t care if this isn’t who he’s supposed to be.
He is distantly aware, as he finishes lavishing Rozanov’s face with kisses, that his eyes are wet and hurting, and he’s choking on a sniffle. He doesn’t cry often, but he cries easily, and it feels bad while tears slip down his cheeks and onto Ilya’s skin, and he hates himself for it, hates himself for being this weak, this pathetic, this completely unable to keep his shit together.
Please. Just a little longer.
Or: Shane has spent his whole life running forward, and Ilya Rozanov is the first time he's ever wanted to stay still.
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did you get enough love (my little dove, why do you cry?) by Michelle_Wheeler
Fandoms: Stranger Things (TV 2016)
30 Nov 2025
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Will’s hand lifted as though he might reach, eyes suddenly bright with unshed tears. “You think I haven’t tried to hate you?!”
That stopped Mike from saying the thing on the edge of his tongue, the thing they both knew very well here in this hospital room.
Will’s voice rose. “You think I haven’t tried? Every time you act like this, like you don’t even like me at all! Like, we haven’t been friends for almost our whole lives! When you throw me away! You don’t get to decide how I feel, Mike. You don’t get to make me the villain in whatever story you’ve made up in your head!”
Mike stared at him, jaw tight, throat constricted. He didn’t know what to say—only that whatever he managed would probably be inadequate.
Will was trembling, fists clenched at his sides. “I’ve spent years trying. You didn’t care. After what you did, I tried to convince myself our entire friendship was fake! And you know what? It didn’t work! Because I do care. I’ve cared my entire fucking life. And that doesn’t just stop, no matter what. I can’t hate you, no matter what you do.”
Mike’s throat felt like hot glass.
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“I… I used to be in love with you. I-I mean, of course, I'm not now, but-” he managed to whisper, almost so quietly that the steady patter of rain could easily drown him out. But Mike heard him—his slumped shoulders stiffened, and his wide eyes reflected Will. The message landed loud and clear between them.
His heart clenched, a tight ache in his chest growing through his body. Because those few simple words—saying with complete ease that he had simply moved on—were far from the truth.
He was still in love with Mike.
Hopelessly in love with that infuriatingly beautiful face, those soft pink lips that always seemed to invite a kiss. He was in love with the way Mike’s curly black hair would get tousled and messy whenever he ran his fingers through it. Those long lashes framing his stupidly adorable doe eyes—those were details that consumed his every thought, details that made his heart flutter and ache all at once.
“...Used to?”
Mike was still standing in the downpour, his hair and clothes soaked, face crumpled painfully. He looked cold and Will was surprised to find tears in his eyes, flowing out with the steady pour of rain.
“You mean you don’t have feelings for me anymore…?”
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“Troy, I don’t think that this is such a good idea-” James started, taking a tentative step forward, but Troy cut him off.
“Dentist’s office opens in three!” Troy hollered, making Mike cringe.
“Two!”
…A long pause spaced out his words. This was Mike’s last chance to step away from the edge. Still, he stayed.
“One!”
He heard Dustin yell his name again, cracking in a cry of desperation.
Mike only gazed down at the murky water before he took another step forward, off the edge, and into the depths below.
or: Mike thinks that he's over that day at the quarry, but after a fitful night's sleep he wakes up screaming. Luckily, his best friend/crush (he's still oblivious to that fact though) is there to help.
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Give You Up by Eigengrau (aussiebee)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
24 Mar 2026
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Shane watches Ilya shove a hand through his hair, waits for him to meet his eyes. “You pretend to want things, pretend I can have things that we both know you won’t let me have,” he says, his newfound self-esteem carrying him past the point of no return. He wishes he’d never discovered it, because it’s making Ilya’s face do something awful.
“Oh, you mean I hurt your feelings?”
Close enough, Shane supposes, his chest aching again. He goes to lift his hand again, sees Ilya zero in on the movement, doesn’t. “I guess so.”
Ilya scoffs, mean and sharp. “So sorry, Hollander, I didn’t mean to make you get so emotional about a casual fuck.”
Asshole. So many times he has lobbed the word at Ilya in exasperation, reluctant affection and disbelief, but now he thinks it with vitriolic anger. “I think you should go.”Shane finally decides that Ilya's ability to weaponise sex isn't enough for him anymore. Ilya doesn't take it well, but Shane holds firm. Then they start to text about it. Sort of.
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12 May 2026
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“I’m sorry,” Shane chokes, closing his eyes. Rozanov draws his hand, pulling Shane’s with it, to his face and wipes his cheeks.
“There is nothing to be sorry for, любовь моя, it is okay,” Rozanov murmurs, tugging at Shane’s hair again. Shane exhales, letting him clean his cheeks. “You got overwhelmed, yes? It happens.”
“I can’t be fucking normal,” Shane says quietly, whining, head falling back, pressing into Rozanov’s hand.
“No, if you were fucking normal, you would not be my Shane.”
// shane is a liar, and he's tired of it all. his life falls apart, and he finds that he doesn't actually mind.
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12 May 2026
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Out For The Count by sevenofsorrow
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
05 Apr 2026
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He moved to swing his legs out from under the blankets, only to feel one of them get snagged on something: Ilya’s ankle was wrapped around his own, knee pressing into Shane’s thigh. When he tried to wriggle it free, his boyfriend resisted and pulled his leg in closer. A taut arm reached out and sleepily tugged Shane back down onto the mattress. He gave in easily.
“I thought you were asleep.” Shane whispered, tersely.
He felt a small stab of irritation too. Once again, Ilya had gotten in the way of his workout routine and — even though he wasn’t doing it on purpose — it was hard not to be frustrated about it. Shane needed this. The only way he had been able to soothe his racing thoughts about flunking out of the NHL next season was by reminding himself of his plan to work out early in the morning. Now, his anxiety soared, but it felt like annoyance. Why didn’t Ilya understand that he needed to stay in shape? Didn’t he see how hard Shane had to work to keep up with everyone else?
“I woke up.” Ilya’s voice was husky with sleep, “Come back to bed, moya lyubov.”
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Five times Shane Hollander should've asked for help.
And one time he actually did.
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12 May 2026
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one day i'll watch as you're leaving (and life will lose all its meaning) by hollidayparty
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
24 Mar 2026
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“You want to talk to people about me?” Shane asked quietly.
There was something small and confused in the question. But Ilya was still furious and raw.
“Well I would,” he sneered, “if there was anything about you that was fucking interesting to talk about! It would be nice to not be so fucking bored and miserable!”
The second the words left his mouth, he watched the pain roll across Shane's features like a thousand fractures shattering through glass.
Ilya had seen Shane nearly break ribs. He had seen him miss game-winning shots, take hits that left bruises blooming purple and black across his skin. He had never seen this.
Shane closed his eyes for a long moment. He shook his head slightly, a tiny movement, then nodded once as if agreeing with something only he could hear. His face twisted briefly with a fresh wave of pain before he forced it to still.
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What if Shane and Ilya don't make up so easily after the Boxing Day fight? The Centaur's plane never malfunctions, so Shane never proposes. Instead, Ilya gives him an ultimatum on coming out and going public. It backfires spectacularly.
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12 May 2026
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a history by laundry (lovesjar)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
22 Dec 2025
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Shane opens his eyes and tears spill onto his pillow and into Ilya’s hand. He has that apologetic stare again. He says, “Love you.”
“Nothing in the world could make me stop loving you,” Ilya says. “Do you understand?”
With hesitation, his eyes darting around, Shane breathes out, “I understand.”
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12 May 2026