12 Bookmarks by Maris21

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    Shane Hollander has been in love with Ilya Rozanov for twenty-eight years and has never said it once.

    When Ilya's nineteen-year-old son Nicholas - same face, same body, same cock, same ruinous Rozanov gravity - drops to his knees in a locker room shower and says "I've wanted you since I was fourteen," Shane doesn't stop him. He closes his eyes and pretends.

    This is not a love story. This is a sin repeated across two generations, and Shane is the altar. All characters are adults (19+).

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    While Ilya is in therapy in 'The Long Game' we learn that he tells Shane he can sleep with other people while they are apart during hockey season. It is mentioned briefly that this leads to a fight and three days of Shane ignoring him. Only then does Ilya realize how devastated he would be if Shane took him up on that offer. This is one way it could have played out.

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    07 Mar 2026

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    Shane Hollander has built his life around discipline, legacy, and winning—on the ice and off it. A secret relationship with his rival, Ilya Rozanov, was never meant to become more than stolen nights and unspoken promises. It was never meant to leave Shane staring at a positive pregnancy test in a hotel bathroom.

    When Ilya chooses to end things for what he believes is the greater good, Shane is left carrying a secret that could change everything, and a love that refuses to die quietly. As the season presses on and the ice becomes the only place they’re allowed to meet, both men must live with the cost of a decision made in grief, fear, and love.

    Some endings are clean. This one is anything but.

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    07 Mar 2026

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    “There’s something you’re not telling me,” Shane says firmly, as firm as someone high on painkillers can go. “Mom, what is going on?”

    Yuna Hollander finally stops her fidgeting and catches his gaze quickly, before they fall to the ground.

    On many levels, Shane knew he was unconventional. Tall, broad and muscular for an omega. Barely big enough to pass for an alpha. That he was a god on the ice, on par with Rozanov and sometimes better, is a testament to his skills, and not a biological advantage. He knew how to take advantage of his deficiencies, his coaches have said, as though he wasn’t in the room with them.

    “Honey,” Yuna says quietly. “Have you had a… special someone?”

     
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    Set in 2017 after the All-Star Game in Tampa.

    In which the cottage does not happen. Shane does not ask. Ilya's resolve pushes through and they break it off.

    But then the internet explodes after a photo of a very pregnant Shane Hollander goes viral.

    It all sort of works out in the end.

    Or, Hollanov find out the hard way what happens when you separate an (accidentally) bonded pair.

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    07 Mar 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 84

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    Instead of Marleau, Rozanov's the one to viciously hit Hollander during their game, breaking his collarbone and giving him a concussion. When the trainers pull off Shane's helmet, every person on the ice learns a secret that Shane and Ilya didn't even know they were keeping.

    An outpour of angst and love follows - but all that comes to a devastating conclusion where Ilya destroys everything he has ever loved.

    (If you're looking for a happ-ier ending, check out Part 1 of the series)

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    07 Mar 2026

  6. Public Bookmark 49

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    In which Shane and Ilya are expecting.

    There's just one teeny tiny problem:

    The baby doesn't exist.

    And the milk has nowhere to go.

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    “We're sorry, Mr. Rozanov-Hollander. But there is no baby.”

    “Are you fucking with us?”

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    07 Mar 2026

  7. Public Bookmark 7869

    Mystery Work

    Part of AZRAELRIEGO
    Summary

    This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!

    07 Mar 2026

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    “Shane, what is wrong?” Ilya continued after a few more moments. “Please tell me.”

    “I….” Shane hiccuped. “I…just…really…fucking…. missed…you.”

    He felt Ilya's body shake with laughter then and Shane’s face scrunched up indignantly.

    “Don’t…laugh…at…me.” He cried through each word. He knew he sounded crazy, but he also didn’t really have a lot of control over it at the moment— his hormones were just too wild for him to handle right now.

    “Oh sweetheart.” Ilya eased him back so they could look at each other, and if Shane had been in a right state of mind, he might have thought to wipe away the tears and snot. But he didn’t, instead snivelling all pathetically in his husband's arms. “I missed you so much too.”

     

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    Ilya has been on the road with the team for far longer than Shane, who is almost 9 months pregnant, is able to stand. So he does something about it.

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    07 Mar 2026

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    The term, he’s told, is temporary retrograde amnesia. Ilya doesn’t need the direct translation to understand: he forgot things. Ten years of things.

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    07 Mar 2026

  10. Public Bookmark 37

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    After the battle, the heir to the Throne meets Lord Cregan Stark in his tent.

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    07 Mar 2026

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    “Perfect, I have many plans for –” Ilya turns back to face the bed and everything stops. Every thought he’s ever had leaves his brain. The world stops, his breathing stops. Has his heart stopped too? It feels like it. Fuck, did he just die, is this heaven? With the sight in front of him it has to be.

    Ilya can’t speak. He’s trying to but all he can manage is incoherent sounds.

    His beautiful, gorgeous, magnificent husband is on display for him – in the most sinful outfit Ilya has ever laid his eyes on. Such pretty panties on his pretty boy.

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    Shane catches Ilya staring at something on his phone. He says it's nothing, but Ilya's blushing, so Shane needs to know. He finds himself staring at a photo of some man in panties and Shane discovers he doesn't handle jealousy well. Or maybe he handles it very well? Depends on who you ask.

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    07 Mar 2026

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    After four years of silence and a thousand unanswered questions, Ilya finally gives voice to the one that has been tearing him apart. In a quiet room thick with tension, he asks in a raw, fragile whisper,

    "Is she mine?"

    Ilya didn't need the words. He could already smell the truth in the sudden spike of Shane's scent, the sharp, tangy fear of a cornered animal, layered with the deep, unwavering love of a parent. He could see it in the way Shane's shoulders slumped, the fight draining out of him, replaced by a profound, bone-deep weariness. Shane looked at Ilya, his eyes glistening with unshed tears, and took a shaky breath, the admission ripped from him by a force stronger than his own fear.

    "Yes," he whispered, the word a surrender. "She's yours."

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    07 Mar 2026

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