JCMadGirl
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After the kidnapping, Buck comes home alive, but not whole, because somewhere in that basement, the line between him and Derek dissolved, and now Buck can’t quite tell where he ends and where Derek begins anymore. Eddie is there to help him figure it out.
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[How fucking crazy and pathetic is it? To be jealous of Derek? Derek who’s in a coma and likely won’t ever wake up.
(Evan’s mother never cut his sandwiches diagonally, she never put cold compresses on his forehead when he was sick, she never cradled his face between her hands when he was upset, she never-
She’d never kidnap someone else to impersonate her kid.
(No, God no, his mother would just make another kid to use as a donor for the kid she did want.)
(Spare parts, defective parts, love me anyway, an endless list of broken bones and the same bike that killed Derek.)
Christ.
His mother would never do what Bonnie did.
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[“You’d fuck any stranger, if they only looked your way, wouldn’t you?” Eddie says.
(It’s how the game goes.)
“Don’t know, Eds.” He exhales, looking Eddie dead in the eyes. “She was pretty fucking good.”
Eddie scoffs, his fingers squeeze on Buck’s knee, and then higher, on his thigh.
“Maybe.” Eddie concedes. “Maybe she fucked you and made you come, but you didn’t like it, did you?”
“Eddie.”
“No one’s as good as me, is it, Buck? No one knows you like I do.”
“But you’re not jealous?”]
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After Bobby’s death, Buck falls back into old habits he swore he’d outgrown. Eddie notices, and pretends he's not burning with a feeling he refuses to name.
But grief has a way of pulling at the cracks, and love has a way of making it worse. -
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[He knows it doesn’t mean anything, and he knows there are rules, and he knows it’ll break his heart when Eddie finally gets tired of it, of him, and finds a nice girl to marry and settle down with. He knows all that and it’s fine.
It has to be fine.]
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When Bobby dies, Buck doesn't quite know how to make sense of it. Eddie doesn't either. They try to survive by clinging to each other.
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[He feels untethered, feverish, Eddie’s fingers a burning point on his skin, third degree burns. He doesn’t pull back, leaning in closer instead. Just a bit, the smallest of the movements, he craves the contact, always has, since he was four and begging his parents to look at him, it’s his oldest memory.
“Stay?” Eddie asks, and Buck feels it on his lips. “Just for tonight.”
“Yeah.” He breathes out in return. “Anything.” ] -
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[When Eddie leaves it’s not grandiose or dramatic. Eddie hugs him and Buck hugs him back, of course.
He hides his face in the curve of Eddie’s neck and breathes in the scent of him, of pinewood and soap.
Eddie’s fingers dig in his back, and he prays they might leave marks behind, scratch Eddie’s signature right into his skin, prays they might leave bruises on his very bones, let him keep Eddie right here, in his arms, forever.
But eventually, gone as all good things do, Eddie pulls back. He smiles, and his eyes are a storm, warm honey clouded with lightning and thunder, and the only thing Buck can do is smile back. He’s never been good at goodbyes, he should be used to them. He isn’t.
And then, just like that, Eddie’s gone, taking with him half of Buck’s heart and all the oxygen in his lungs.]OR Eddie leaves, and Buck sinks and sinks and then, eventually, he remembers how to swim
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give me a sign (a sign that you want me) by ver_lia
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
17 Jul 2026
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Neil accidentally discovers that Andrew and Kevin used to kiss. Things spiral from there.
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23 Jul 2026
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The notion is like an annoyingly unpredictable rebound, ricocheting around Kevin's brainspace too quickly for him to actually catch. He can't help but think of the uncountable times he's shared the locker room with his teammates, about the way Neil steadfastedly refused to change in the same room as anyone else at first but slowly became more and more trusting over time. He thinks about the glimpses of tanned flesh he's caught, toned in a way Kevin knows is from intense workouts and staggering amounts of cardio, and he wonders if Neil runs warm. If his hands would scorch a path across Kevin's body, if the trails they leave would cool in the wake of Andrew's stare.
Or: Kevin Day freaks out about his crush on Neil, then learns he doesn't have anything to worry about.
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09 Jul 2026
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Kevin joins the New York Leviathans. Luckily for him, Neil and Andrew have a spare room he can stay in.
Or: Kevin has always been a little bit in love with his friends. It's about time he finds out.
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- Part 1 of tell the world i'm coming home
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08 Jul 2026
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it takes three, you and him and me by orphan_account
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
27 Feb 2019
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Nicky asks, “are you…I mean, what’s happening, Andrew? Are you okay? Because Kevin and Neil were just-”
“I know,” Andrew cuts him off. The flat, bored intonation of his voice makes it inexplicably funnier when he adds, “I have unfortunately saddled myself with two idiots who cannot keep it in their pants for more than five minutes at a time”
“Well,” Kevin huffs, indignant. “You don’t usually have any complaints”
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08 Jul 2026
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“Have you considered the possibility that Neil has chosen you, but believes you have not chosen him?” Renee says. "Have you ever explicitly told him what you want?”
“Neil knows what I want,” Andrew snaps. This is not Andrew’s fault.
“How do you know?”
Because Neil always knows. He is as fluent in Andrew’s micro-expressions as he is in German and French. He knows which head tilts mean “go on” and which ones mean “shut up.” Without ever asking, he learned what it meant to see Andrew wearing double layers of long sleeves, or taking multiple showers in a day, and learned to hand Andrew the car keys.
That has always been the most terrifying thing about Neil — his patience to wait, watch, listen, learn. The prospect that if Neil were given enough time, there would be no part of Andrew that was just Andrew’s anymore.
“He has to know,” Andrew says.
“Does he?” Renee says. “Have you ever known Neil to assume that he is wanted?”
Five times Neil tells someone that he and Andrew aren’t dating, and one time Andrew uses his words to set the record straight.
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30 Jun 2026