Introverted_Goldheart



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    Ilya Rozanov is in love, closeted, catastrophically lonely, and apparently incapable of referring to Shane Hollander in present tense.

    The Centaurs come to a- given the circumstances- reasonable conclusion.

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    Five times the Centaurs thought Ilya Rozanov was mourning his dead wife, and the one time they discovered his wife was actually Shane Hollander.
    Shane, for the record, is alive and really confused.

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    10 Jun 2026

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    Shane’s best birthday wasn't the first birthday as Ilya’s official boyfriend. It wasn’t the birthday when he and Ilya were engaged. Nor the ones that came shortly before a Stanley Cup win and celebrated a month after.

    Shane's best birthday is the first one where he’s a parent.

    or Shane spends a quiet birthday at the cottage with Ilya and their baby.

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    25 May 2026

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    “Yeah, well, they’re not even such great tits, as far as I can see.” Hollander laughs, only small but Ilya thinks maybe genuine. “I can’t believe I was going to offer to—”

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    17 Apr 2026

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    Lately, playing hockey wasn't even as much fun as it used to be. Games were always the highlight, but even that, it didn’t feel as good since his team had been falling apart.

    And all that because he came out as gay.

    He didn’t really fault them for taking some time to accept it, so Shane let them talk. If that helped them digest the news, so be it.
    He let them distance themselves from him, let them gossip around to other teams, let them make him the butt of jokes he didn’t understand.

    Shane didn’t mind, all things considered.

    Everything was fine.

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    15 Apr 2026

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    Shane doesn’t realize he’s braced for silent eyes until he feels the absence of it — the weight of teammates immediately finding him and going quiet, waiting for him to fuck up, to say the wrong thing, to exist wrong. He expects the chatter of a room to drop when he enters and its disconcerting to find it doesn't yet in Ottawa.

    He stands at the entrance a beat too long.

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    It’s the start of Shane Hollander’s first season in Ottawa and he should be settled. The Centaurs are friendly, the room is easy, and Ilya is finally close enough to touch. But, as Shane is intimately aware of, old habits learned the hard way will linger.

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    30 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    This whole thing makes me feel like my heart is being carved out of my chest. 10/10.