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Ilya returns to Moscow on short notice to care for his father, whose mind is being erased by dementia. Ilya watches the man who once raised him become confused, afraid, and unrecognizable. His father forgets where he is, forgets how to eat, forgets his own home, and sometimes forgets Ilya entirely.
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Hayden accidentally infects the entire team with head lice from his kids. Shane passes it on to Ilya, who has no idea what “lice” means in English and completely freaks out. A short, cute story set before the cottage, full of love, fluff, and a little reflection on what it would be like if they were actually together.
PS: You most likely don’t have lice, so don’t panic if your head starts itching after reading this! Mine definitely did
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Dean, a familiar, and Cas, a witch, get stuck on Earth after Cas throws some heavy magic to save their lives when they were kids. Now both 20 years old, they live peacefully as normal human citizens with some secrets. One random day, they are both kidnapped by angels who want to experiment and do research on Dean because he is in control of his wolf, which is not normal among werewolves. Professor Chuck Shurley, an angel, unfortunately, is not the ethical researcher he claims to be. This directly affects Dean's next few weeks in captivity, and it's Cas' job again to save their lives from the evil Shurley family.
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When feeling lonely Dean often turns to strangers at the bar to seek love and comfort. He has never reached fourth base, or not before Nickolas.
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collateral by anincompletelist (soldouthaz)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
04 May 2026
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His mother’s eyes darken with weariness Shane recognizes instinctually, a grief separate but not wholly unlike his own. A tear makes its way down her cheek, but Shane’s stay put, stubborn, cradled in his lashline like if he doesn’t cry, maybe none of this is as bad as he thinks it is.
“Just—I just have to ask,” she says. Her voice lowers to a whisper, that ever-steady corner of her mouth wavering as her palm envelopes his cheek. “How long have you been hurting?”
My whole life, probably, Shane thinks. I'm sorry. I just didn’t know.
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[Or: Shane learns that skill, passion, and meticulous control aren't necessarily immunity, and that rest isn't something he's owed so much as he has to carve out for himself; sometimes with a whisper, sometimes with his pride on the line, sometimes on his hands and knees. And still, regardless, despite—he refuses to give up on this either, even if this time it means believing in himself instead of familiar schedules or rituals. Even if it means his whole life has to change to do it.
Even if it means having to believe that he's worth that much in the first place.]
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- Part 7 of the chronic illness club
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22 Jan 2026
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"Rozy," Brian, the team doctor says, "talk to me, buddy. That puck clipped you pretty good, how’s the pain?"
Ilya blinks. He clenches his jaw against a wave of nausea. He rests his cheek on the ice, and the cold helps a little.
"Bad. Very bad." He swallows. "Is Shane here?"
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or, in the final MTL/BOS game of the year, ilya takes a puck to the head.
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16 Jan 2026
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“I don’t know what’s wrong with me, Rozy.” That was a lie; he knew perfectly well what was wrong with him, he just wouldn’t admit it to himself. “I thought therapy would help, and I also thought winning the cup would help, but I guess we’re both just too fucked in the head for that.” Ilya laughs softly, nodding.
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Shane Hollander studied through conversations, interactions, and therapy.
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Shane accidentally gets diagnosed with autism
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14 Jan 2026