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think twice (and come back for a third time) by lipsticktraces
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
10 May 2026
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Shane is heavier than he used to be; his weight bears down on Ilya in a new way. He’s put on pounds of muscle since Ilya last touched him like this. Ilya flattens his palms, skims them under Shane’s undershirt, feels the flat solidity of his abs, the bulk of his lats, the swell of his chest. It’s the same and it’s new, this body; it’s the boy he couldn’t stop thinking about when he was 18 and the man he loved enough to let go at 26 and the person who somehow always comes to find him when he’s lost.
A stranger, and the love of his life.
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or, Ilya's father doesn't die in 2017; Ilya breaks up with Shane instead of confessing his love. They get older, but not any less stupid about each other. Shane gets a boyfriend; Ilya gets on medication; they work on becoming whole people. And they always find their way back to each other.
OR a story for those who love Shane and Ilya's baby love but ALSO think it's hot when people in their thirties make active choices about who they are and what they want in their partner!!
Note: the "cheating" tag refers to the relationship between Shane and his aforementioned BF, not to Shane and Ilya cheating on each other.
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10 Jun 2026
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frequently, secretly fond of each other. by milominderbinder
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
14 May 2026
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Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”
“Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.
He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.
A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.
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- Part 1 of frequently, secretly.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 222,222
- Chapters:
- 28/28
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31 May 2026
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The Modern Age by tunamelts
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
25 May 2026
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“Oh my god, oh my god. Seriously, this is the best. I can’t believe you’re my neighbour. I’m calling it now, Hollander. This right here is the beginning of a friendship that will go down in history.”
Ilya is 10 years old when his family moves from Jacksonville, Florida to small town Ontario. There, he forms an unexpected friendship with Shane, the boy living on the ginseng farm across the street.
As they grow up and grow apart, their paths continue to cross at high school hockey games, in tabloid articles, and at one particular intimate Muskoka cottage.
OR: A childhood friends to strangers to lovers AU in which Shane Hollander (up and coming indie rock star) and Ilya Rozanov (brooding artist) take nearly fifteen years to figure their shit out.
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- 33/33
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31 May 2026
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Jaw Man flicked his middle finger up at Ilya, who didn’t seem to mind, and gestured towards Shane and Hayden with raised eyebrows. “The f*** are you even doing right now, man.”
Ilya said briefly, “Orgy.”
“Uh,” said Shane, “no, that’s not—”
Ilya grinned at him. It was a mean-edged grin but something about it seemed to suggest that he was joking with Shane, rather than about him. “Oh, he speaks.”
“We’re not here for an orgy,” Shane said to Jaw Man. “We’re missionaries with the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.”
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31 May 2026
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First Claim by Buttonsmutton
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
29 May 2026
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After their on-ice brawl, cocky virgin rookie Ilya Rozanov drags captain Shane Hollander back to his hotel room to "shut him up" once and for all.
Too bad Ilya has no idea what he's doing.
Too bad Shane finds that incredibly hot.
or
Ilya losing his virginity
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30 May 2026
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prettiest virgin by kitabf
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
29 May 2026
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"Have you ever done this before?" Shane asked, his thumb tracing Ilya's cheekbone.
Ilya blinked—processing for a moment—and shook his head. “No. Not.. not with a guy. Not with anyone, really. I'm—" He swallowed hard, embarrassed. "I'm a virgin."
His words sent a thrill straight to Shane's cock. Ilya Rozanov, who talked so much about girls, was a virgin. His to teach. His to guide.
"That's okay," Shane said softly, his voice a whisper. "That's more than okay. I'll take care of you, Ilya. I'll show you everything. But only if you want me to. Can I?”
or — Virgin Ilya Rozanov gets a taste of his beloved captain: Shane Hollander, and is made aware of just how good sex can really be.
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30 May 2026
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Tampa, Florida. Room 1217.
In between fade out and fade in, Ilya Rozanov lets the fire burn and Shane Hollander lets the storm surge.
A few hours in a hotel room can change you.
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- Part 1 of Hollanov, 2017
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- English
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29 May 2026
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I Keep You Safe by ShutUpGwen
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
16 Apr 2026
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How did he let this happen?
Shane's not sure.
One moment, he was on the gym floor not staring at Rozanov's
gorgeoussweaty body. Then Shane was standing up, but his legs were weak for some god forsaken reason and Rozanov was there, just an arm around his waist to keep him upright, and now...Well.
Now Shane's on his knees on the floor of Ilya Rozanov's shower.
Or
Heated Rivalry, but the boys are forced to have an honest conversation around 8 years earlier than they do in canon.
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- Part 1 of Finding Family
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- English
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- 40,018
- Chapters:
- 25/25
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19 May 2026
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breaking point. by steelatoms
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
21 Apr 2026
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Shane Hollander has left the Metros and is starting afresh with the Centaurs, he's finally married to the love of his life -- he should be happy, but an upcoming game against his old team alongside a leaked private groupchat revealing their true thoughts on him send him down a self-destructive spiral.
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- English
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- 15,664
- Chapters:
- 5/5
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- 108
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05 May 2026
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The White Hat Situation by MinaLogan
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
27 Apr 2026
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Ilya really likes Shane’s backwards hat.
This is NSFW Fanart.Bookmarked by InsecureVirgin
02 May 2026
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Mama's Boy, Mama's Boy by WhimperSoldier
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
15 Feb 2026
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Shane's first mistake was going to talk to Ilya Rozanov before their game. His second was immediately, stupidly, meeting the eyes of Rozanov’s very much dead mother hovering at his side.
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- Part 6 of Heated Rivalry AUs
- Part 1 of Ghost Irina AU
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 68,348
- Chapters:
- 5/5
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- 1,766
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- 19,891
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- 248,802
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30 Apr 2026
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Change Your Win Conditions by Vee (Vera_DragonMuse)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
05 Feb 2026
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Sometimes life came at you with a clenched fist and Ilya had never figured out how to duck.
So here he was, twenty-eight years old, single, dealing with the fallout from injuries given to him by the game he loved, and the second youngest assistant coach in the league to one of the worst teams. Stability was hard to come by, but he was managing.
Then along came Shane Hollander to knock him on his ass, one more time.
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- Part 1 of win conditions
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- English
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- Chapters:
- 10/10
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19 Apr 2026
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courage [it couldn't come at a worse time] by veilofimagination
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
22 Feb 2026
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"Why are you not scared?"
"I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."
"Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.
"Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.
Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov, love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."
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Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.
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- English
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- 9/9
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- 4,489
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15 Apr 2026
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“Can you still stay the night?”
“Yes,” Ilya says quickly, nodding into Shane’s neck. “I will stay the night.”
I will stay forever, he doesn’t say. Just ask me, and I will do it.
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- Part 2 of Мой сладкий мальчик
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- 6,011
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- 1/1
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10 Apr 2026
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In Our Bedroom After The War by paocai
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
24 Mar 2026
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“How old were you the first time you had sex?”
“Fourteen," Ilya says.
Shane’s eyebrows fly toward his hairline. “Really?”
“It’s not that young.”
“It’s a kid.”
Ilya tries not to bristle. His mother had died two years earlier. He didn’t feel too young for anything after that.
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- Part 2 of Metamorphoses
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07 Apr 2026
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And Darling It’ll Eat You Alive (jealousy is a disease and Ilya Rozanov is patient zero) by SageGreenSadness
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
13 Mar 2026
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Shane's face and body are plastered across the internet, and Ilya has to sit with the uncomfortable truth that jealousy means nothing when you don't possess anything at all.
In which the Wonderland photoshoot takes place in the HR universe, and Ilya has to confront all his demons
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04 Apr 2026
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oh god i think i'm falling by lucy_in_the_sky
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
30 Mar 2026
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Encouraged by the knot stuffing him full and the warm alpha rumbling behind him, Shane manages to feel sleepy again, giving into his omega’s desire to bask in the comforting presence of his alpha. Well. His for the weekend, at least.
Shane doesn’t want to think about what comes after his rut is over until later. He’ll cross that bridge when he’s forced to.
Or: Shane spends Ilya’s rut with him for the first time
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- Part 2 of Tongue tied over three words
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 32,350
- Chapters:
- 3/3
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- 162
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- 2,008
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- 37,246
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01 Apr 2026
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so it's gonna be forever by Lila_Mac
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
31 Mar 2026
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Ilya is plummeting to his death when he closes his eyes, heart full of regret.
When he opens them in what feels like just a second later, he is standing outside a rink in Regina, Saskatchewan. There’s a banner on the building across the street:
World Junior Hockey Championship 2009.
What?
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- 8,556
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- 32,613
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- 1,103,221
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29 Mar 2026
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Late Bloomer, Bloody Valentine by AdiosPendejo
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
13 Mar 2026
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Shane Hollander is a beta. And he couldn’t be more happy with his designation. It keeps things simple. No stupid alpha territorial bullshit or omega pheromones to disrupt his routine. He has more room to focus on hockey, rather than worry about silly inconvenient things like ruts or heat cycles. While his teammates have to take medical leave a few times a season and wear things like scent blockers or take suppressants, he just gets to play the sport he loves and call it a day.
Yes, being a beta kept life simple. And he spent 24 years of his life as a simple, hockey loving beta. Until he suddenly wasn’t. And of course, because fate loved to fuck with him, he finds out in the middle of a game against fucking Boston.
Or, a beta Shane Hollander accidentally presents as an Omega and goes into heat during a game, sending everyone in a frenzy. Thankfully, Ilya is right there with him.
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- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 60,101
- Chapters:
- 10/10
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- 417
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- 1,403
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22 Mar 2026
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Based on That Clip which essentially re-wired my brain; Shane living his best sex-starved life in yet another hotel room with Ilya, as all the while their plausible deniability wears gossamer thin.
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- Part 1 of between the lines, between the sheets
Bookmarked by InsecureVirgin
16 Mar 2026