IHaveASecret



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    Shane: So, what is this we’re doing again? 

    Harris: It’s called 36 Questions That Lead to Love. They’re questions that a psychologist developed back in the nineties that are supposed to help couples move past the awkward stage and get more personal. It’ll be fun!

    Shane: You always say that it’ll be fun, and I don’t think it ever ends up being much fun. 

    Ilya: I always have fun. I do not know what your problem is. 

    [Harris lets out his signature booming laugh, and Ilya grins widely.]

    Harris: You maybe have a little too much fun. 

    Ilya: There is no such thing. 

    Shane: But what’s the point of the questions if we’re already in love? Like, we’re married. You were there when it happened.

    Harris: Yes, but they can help you deepen your connection, and it makes for good content. People love your love. 

    Ilya: I think we had a pretty deep connection last night, am I right?

    [Ilya holds his hand up for a high-five from Shane, but Shane only glares, and Harris looks slightly horrified. Ilya looks back expectantly, but when Shane doesn’t move, Ilya high-fives himself. With the sound of the clap, the screen goes black.]

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    11 Jul 2026

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    In 2016, Shane walks out of Ilya’s house, ending their years-long situationship.
    In 2024, Ilya watches ESPN as hockey legend and 5-time Stanley Cup winner Shane Hollander comes out and retires.
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    It has been sixteen years since they met as teenagers in that cold, grey parking lot. It has been eight years since they last kissed. It has been four years since his phone last buzzed with a message notification from Jane.

    Ilya is 33 years old, he has only been in love once, with the man who is currently on his television screen, and he still has no idea how to be fucking normal when it comes to Shane Hollander.

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    09 Jul 2026

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    "Hi, solnyshko.”
    The Russian pet name set a firework off inside Shane's mind as he heard it cooed from behind him. The intonation was just as he remembered, but the voice was much deeper.

    He turned and felt himself short circuit. It took every ounce of willpower to not let his jaw drop cartoonishly to the floor. Shane would recognize his individual features anywhere, even after 5 years. But it was as if someone had snapped their fingers and the smug, silly Russian boy who had been attached to Shane's hip for 3 summers was transformed into some sort of fucking Adonis right before his eyes.

    “Ilya-” was all Shane managed before strong arms were wrapped around his waist and lifting him off the ground in a greeting all too familiar from years ago.

     

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    When Shane Hollander & Ilya Rozanov spent their summers as teens in an elite hockey camp, they quickly became inseparable friends. But they lose touch when Shane moves on as a prospect for the NHL and Ilya for the KHL.

    Years later, Montreal makes a bold move to take the hottest player in the KHL. After hearing of the Russian's reputation, the Montreal Captain is tasked with keeping his old best friend and new teammate out of trouble.

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    09 Jul 2026

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    Shane get's drunk on a night out in Boston with the Metro's, and Ilya is the only one who can get him to leave the club.

    "Hollander, no.” Ilya says as he pulls Shane's head to his chest. He begins stroking his cheek, wiping away the tears while he's there. “I don't hate you. I could never hate you. Never. Okay?”

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    07 Jul 2026

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    Most people wouldn’t hop in the car and drive for three hours in the middle of the night because of a couple drunk texts from their partner.

    Ilya Rozanov is not most people.

    Or: Shane calls, Ilya comes.

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    07 Jul 2026