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    Unrelated one shots about Ilya being sad. Check tags and author’s notes for any trigger warnings 💜

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    “I’m sorry to hear that it has been getting worse, Ilya,” Galina said, a line between her brows. “Do you think something has…triggered your depressive feelings to get worse?”

    Ilya had wondered the same, had tried to track down the exact moment his brain had decided to slowly suffocate him to death, but he had no answer. It was like the question of which came first: the chicken or the egg. He didn’t know which came first; his depression or simply his awareness of it.

    He felt as if he had always had it—he just didn’t recognize it for what it was until he became aware of its name through the Irina Foundation’s work.

    “Isn’t it just genetic?” Ilya asked. “The trigger was my birth, I think.”

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    23 Jun 2026

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    Ilya's depression medication wasn't working. Again.

    Ilya thought were only three options for him. If he was being completely objective, three options. He could continue on as is. He could die. Or he could confess his feelings and detonate a bomb onto his entire life.

    Every day Ilya kept picking the first option. Sometimes he chose it multiple times a day. Multiple times a night. He would continue on. He would. He didn’t have any other choices. Unless he died like his mother.

    Ilya was caught.

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    20 Jun 2026

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    Ilya rubbed at his face with both hands, trying to knead the heaviness away. It didn’t budge.

    Probably just caught something from the kids, he thought to himself. Some kind of virus.

    Except he'd been feeling like this for weeks now. Maybe longer. It was hard to tell. The days blurred when you were tired, and he’d been tired for longer than he wanted to admit.

    Maybe it was something still lingering in his system. That happened sometimes, right? Viruses could hang around. He'd read that somewhere. Post-viral fatigue.

    Yeah. That was probably it.

    Some dormant virus still working its way out of him.

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    Ilya and Shane are married with kids, living the life they fought for. But Ilya's depression is rearing its ugly head again.

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    18 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov is in love, closeted, catastrophically lonely, and apparently incapable of referring to Shane Hollander in present tense.

    The Centaurs come to a- given the circumstances- reasonable conclusion.

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    Five times the Centaurs thought Ilya Rozanov was mourning his dead wife, and the one time they discovered his wife was actually Shane Hollander.
    Shane, for the record, is alive and really confused.

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    17 Jun 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 82

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    Ilya had never thought being on the same team as Shane would turn out to be more complicated than being rivals.

    Or: Ilya tries to have one difficult conversation as Shane’s captain. Shane tries to fix the entire problem by fixing himself.

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    15 Jun 2026