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as the sunwarmed earth is longed for by a swimmer by birdie_kwiat
Fandoms: Heartstopper (TV), Heartstopper (Webcomic)
19 Jan 2025
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Once the room clears, Nick takes a deep breath. “So, half-term. How have your exams been going?”
“Can I suck you off?”
Charlie is patient as Nick does a double-take at his request, staggering back and knocking over a bottle of tequila. He sips his vodka lemonade and waits.
“What, er—now?!” Nick splutters.
“Why not?” He’s emboldened now. This loop is quickly becoming hell on earth, but maybe it doesn’t have to be, not all the time. There are no consequences for him in the loop. Anything he does is forgotten the next day. Nick could scream at him, punch him in the nose, do whatever he wants—tomorrow, he’ll still be here, serving him a vodka lemonade with a shy smile. What has he got to lose?
__________________The time loop AU no one asked for.
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You know how many masterpieces have flowed forth quickly from people's inspired, creative brains with little need for revision? You know how Handel wrote the music for Messiah in 24 days? And Van Gogh painted The Starry Night in a few days? That's what I imagine happened with as the sunwarmed earth is longed for by a swimmer — a light of inspiration blinked on in birdie_kwiat's brain, fingers were deftly put to a keyboard, and nothing in the universe could stop this treasure from being born. (And if it was a more difficult wrestle of a birth, that's totally understandable, too, I just really needed to stress how inspired this work felt.)
The story reflecting The Odyssey and their growth over time made this a work of art. I was reminded of one of my favorite books, Life After Life. When the most depressing part ended with Nick getting a call, I felt so anxious, I both wanted to devour the next chapter and avoid it, so I did both, but in the other order. Along with the characters, I . . .
- Questioned everything about myself:
"I never acknowledged who I was, or what Levi and I were. I just wanted to be one of the lads again, because that was the one thing I knew and felt safe being. But it all felt so wrong, so fake. I felt like I didn’t even have a personality or interests beyond what I thought people wanted from me. I didn’t like what I was studying in school. I wasn’t even sure if I liked rugby or just the idea of rugby. I started dissecting every little thing, like, how did I really know my favourite colour is blue? How did I know I really liked Marvel movies? What if I only liked those things because my other friends liked them?”
- Learned to understand my feelings and draw boundaries:
The exercise started as a worksheet Priya gave him. He’s asked for it in a few sessions and has the basics committed to memory. When someone asks him to do something—or he has an idea to do something for someone else—he has to ask what he gets out of it. It feels a little mercenary, but the idea is, if the main thing Nick gets out of any fulfilled request is the sense that someone will like and appreciate him, he should pump the brakes. What do you get out of it? How will doing this make you feel? How will it make others feel? Would you agree to do it if the other person never acknowledged it or knew about it?
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“I dunno.” Nick’s embrace tightens, crushing Charlie to his chest. “Maybe we just don’t love each other enough yet.” Charlie barks out a laugh. “If you loved me any harder, my dick would fall off.”
I can only dream of writing something this amazing someday. My heart was shattered into a thousand shards, and then stitched together stronger than before.
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We all know Hot Priest from Fleabag. We might know Hot Rabbi from Nobody Wants This.
But in this fandom, dear readers, we go where no AU has ever gone before...
Hot Priest/Hot Rabbi.
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I am seriously impressed by the amount of thoughtfulness and research that must have been required to make this deep, gorgeous work of art.
Some excerpts that I still think about:
“Maybe the plan was—maybe God always intended for Adam and Eve to fail, to be tempted. Maybe God planned an initial failure to set the conditions for redemption through Jesus Christ. It was a long game.” It’s an answer Father Gonzalez would be proud of, that any of the theologians at his seminary would accept. It stings a bit when it doesn’t pass muster with Rabbi Spring. “That’s the plan you want to be part of, Nick?” he asks, and at least his volume level is down. “One where God’s allowed to set you up to fail?”
Charlie sighs, accepts it, tears open the wrapper, and breaks it in half to offer him some. It reminds Nick, inexplicably, of communion.
Charlie’s favorite prayer is the “Kavannah for Unexpected Intimacy.” It’s a beautiful, diplomatic title for what the prayer actually is: a blessing before a one night stand. An anonymous hook-up. Yet the liturgist finds a way to elevate what could be a messy, meaningless moment into something holy.
"When we open the door tonight for Elijah, to see if this is the year he returns and informs us that a better age is on its way, it’s not because we hope he’s announcing the Messiah. It’s because we hope that we’re the ones who will work together to make that better age come to pass” . . . And when Elijah elects not to make an appearance, as he has every year for millennia, Charlie shuts the door with a promise to himself that he’ll do the work a Messiah is supposed to do by redeeming his own small corner of the world.
“But you don’t think God expects you to do all those things. Why do them at all?” “Because it makes me feel connected to something bigger than myself, which makes me want to be the best version of myself. That’s what religion should do, Nick. Any religion that focuses on limiting connection, on limiting authenticity and happiness—it’s not about God, not anymore. It’s about control.”
If I break my promise to God, but God was never on the other end, does it even count as a broken promise? . . .Will my mother care? I’m not sure. I’m afraid to ask. Will some people at Bethesda House care? They’ve only known me a few months. Will people back at St. Francis Seraph care? Maybe for a little while, but they didn’t know me well enough for it to bother them for long. Will I care? I think part of me will. I think I’ll always be a little disappointed that I went down a path I couldn’t commit to. But I think I’d hate myself even more for continuing down this path when I know it doesn’t feel right anymore.
Even the notes were meaningful:
Religion isn't doing its job unless it makes you want to be the best version of yourself. Any religion that actively infringes on your happiness and authentic self—any PATH that doesn’t let you be that person—isn’t worth following. Whether or not God exists, whether or not there is a plan, we can never truly know. But we can know our own happiness and highest self, and we can be there for each other in this realm, regardless of whether or not there is another one coming.
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how to put a man in his planet by birdie_kwiat
Fandoms: Heartstopper (TV), Heartstopper (Webcomic)
26 Apr 2025
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buns_of_steel: Has anyone told you today how gorgeous you are?
pppatroclus: you’re incorrigible 😮💨
buns_of_steel: Genuinely asking.
buns_of_steel: Because you are. And I think you don’t get told that enough.pppatroclus: i hear it with increasing frequency since we started chatting
buns_of_steel: Oh God, should I stop?
buns_of_steel: I don’t mean to like, bore you or objectify you or make you feel bad.pppatroclus: don’t you dare stop
pppatroclus: objectify me more, please
__________________Chat, do we know Miklós László’s play Parfumerie? Do we know the 1940 film The Shop Around the Corner? Do we know the rom com You’ve Got Mail?
Yes? No? Maybe?
Fuck it, bakery AU.
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This quickly became addicting. I can't believe how amazing of a writer birdie_kwiat is, and the author notes are right: this is better than the way You've Got Mail has two people who are really mean to each other suddenly falling in love. I've always felt doubtful about the trope of enemies to lovers because it seems so unrealistic — I am certain those people will bug each other again at some point, and it won't be pretty. But this was SO, SO good.
And these parts made me laugh and cry:
"Well,” says Charlie after a while, “thanks for the smelly old coat and the scarf from your dead mum.” “Thanks for the scentless candle and the ice cream in a flavour you like.” Nick holds up the ice cream again and shrugs.
“I’ve, erm… I’ve been thinking that you’ve spent so much time helping me see that, that maybe you don’t see yourself that way. And I think sometimes, you think you’re a coward. Or a mess. Or—or someone who runs away. Someone who’s disappearing. But I need you to know,” he says, peering up at him, “that I’ve never seen you that way. Even when I didn’t really like you all that much, I’ve never thought that. And I’d like to be that person for you. Who sees you for who you are. Not who think you are, not who you’re afraid you’re becoming.”
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spells that drowse my soul by birdie_kwiat for properrugbynerd
Fandoms: Heartstopper (TV), Heartstopper (Webcomic)
17 Nov 2025
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A doctor steps in and blocks his way. “Sir, you can’t go in there!”
“No, no, no,” says Charlie, “you don’t understand—”
“Are you family?”
“No, but—”
“Family only,” he informs him sternly, disappearing behind the glass door. The doctor joins the throng of medical personnel surrounding the man’s body, and when they wheel the gurney out of sight, Charlie staggers back from the glass wall like he’s been punched.
Shock and helplessness coalesce within him. Inexplicably, he finds himself laughing, his trembling fingers lifting to his lips to contain the mirthless giggles that spill forth. “Oh, God,” he whispers. “I was going to marry that man.”
The nurse at the desk drops her jaw. “Oh, luv.”
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While You Were Sleeping AU- Language:
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Every fic by birdie_kwiat is well-written and meaningful. This one really does fix While You Were Sleeping, and the way their retry at a relationship follows Charlie's expressed imagined journey is lovely. 💗
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Nick is 30 years old and coming to terms with his bisexuality for the first time in his life. He decides it might be time to go to therapy only he finds himself in the situation of meeting the man of his dream in the form of his therapist.
A story about what happens when you love someone you're not allowed to - and the mistakes made along the way.
It's in the tags but - please be aware it's not my intention to produce a morality free fic, where we are fetishizing a patient therapist relationship - it's about what happens when you meet the right person in entirely the wrong circumstances and if there is ever a way to redefine a relationship as something new. Much more on this topic in the notes!!
"He looks to the source of the soft, kindly voice from the doorway in the corner of the waiting room. He swallows thickly. This wasn’t what therapists were meant to look like. Not that he needed an old man in tweed with a beard, or a grey haired lady in her 50s wearing tie die and sandals but.... surely therapists weren’t allowed to be this ... hot. Fuck."
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I loved watching Nick grow and really felt this:
Everyone had always said things like you could “read him like a book” or that he “wore his heart on his sleeve”. Only that wasn’t the whole truth. A lifetime of suppressing certain aspects of his character, of hiding who he really was; of playing a role, meant that while he found actively lying hard, and certainly was expressive when it came to big emotions, the reality was more nuanced than that.
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This could’ve been the best thing that ever happened to me, but instead it’s the absolute worst. When I heard that we were going to have vertical form groups at the start of the new term, I never imagined that the universe had a fucked up sense of humour.
See the thing is, the guy who just sat down next to me with the dark curls and the stormy eyes, his name is Charlie Spring. I’ve had a massive crush on him for the better part of a year… and I’m pretty sure he has no idea who I even am. Or if he does then he probably doesn’t have a good opinion of me. And now not only is he in my form group, but he’s been assigned to sit right next to me.
This could’ve been a great way for us to finally actually meet; I wouldn’t have to think up some elaborate reason to get to talk to him, I could just strike up casual conversations and we could get to know each other. Then when I finally got the courage to confess, I wouldn’t be some random stranger.
It could’ve been the best thing… except…
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I wrote this right after reading this the first time in 2024: "This may be the best, cutest, most wholesome Heartstopper fan fic I've read. I loved getting Nick's perspective, and it's so pure. The author brilliantly reused tidbits and lines in different ways and even with the story and timeline slightly changed, it was super true to the characters. Blasphemy, I know, but this might be BETTER than the show. For example, the fact that Otis, Sai, and Christian stand up for Nick and Charlie and help Nick through his panic attack warms my heart like no other. And the reader learning that Sarah already suspected? Priceless. And Charlie kicking the ball Harry threw "into oblivion" in front of Nick? The best. I felt all the things, like the heartbreak of younger Nick going to Paris only for his dad to forget to pick him up. 💔 I turned into a melty puddle at Charlie kissing up Nick's neck to his ear and whispering that he was still his best friend. I can NOT wait to read more by this author. I'm literally smiling so big that my cheeks hurt a little, and how am I supposed to fall asleep now with this level of joy making my heart into a supernova? 💗"
There are just so many good parts, but here are some favorites:
Well, he’s always scowling but I think that’s just his face at this point.
It’s so far from just a crush at this point and it really sucks. It feels like my chest has been cracking open just a bit more and more for the past few minutes. I think if I open my mouth shards of my heart will come spewing up and cut me from the inside.
“Or…” she continues, “It could not have much to do with Ben at all.” My forehead wrinkles. I’m not sure I’m following now. “How do you mean?” “What I mean is,” she pauses as if searching for the right words, “Sometimes we accept the love we think we deserve.”
We hurry and drink our milkshakes so fast that we get brain freeze. Then we rush towards Truham as fast as we can while not leaving Tao behind. I’ve never seen anything like it but he runs slower than some people walk. I don’t know if we’re close enough yet for me to poke fun at him though so I keep my opinions to myself.
“Oh, I love you,” she says and pulls me in for a hug. Charlie tells me I give the best hugs, but he’s never had a Sarah Nelson hug yet. I learned from the best.
Charlie grabs my hand and clears his throat dramatically before looking up at me and giving me a quick wink. “Nicholas Luke Nelson the First. Lord of all Golden Retrievers. King of Rugby in the Land of Truham,” I groan and cover my face with my hand as he continues. “Vanquisher of all bullies, annihilator of all exes, and my favourite Instagram stalker. There’s no one else I’d rather start off my mornings at school with. You’re the best and kindest person I’ve ever met and you’re not bad to look at either. From the moment I first saw you, I’ve always thought you were the most beautiful boy I’d ever laid eyes on… even when I thought you might be covered in blue ink forever.” I laugh and swipe at the tears which have suddenly appeared on my face. Charlie continues to beam up at me. “You’re the sunshine I look forward to each day. And I think I fall a little more in love with you with every moment I have the fortune of sharing with you. You’re kind of an idiot sometimes, but it—” “Oi!!” I interject. He giggles and squeezes my hand, rubbing his thumb across my knuckles. “But it’s okay, because I’m kind of an idiot sometimes, too. So I guess we’re just two idiots in love… couple goals if you ask me.”
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smooth water all our days by birdie_kwiat
Fandoms: Heartstopper (TV), Heartstopper (Webcomic)
21 Mar 2025
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“But you got me thinking last night,” says Nick. “I couldn’t stand that you thought I just wanted to throw you a—a—”
“Pity fuck?” Charlie smirks over his tea.
Nick shakes his head and digs into his own pastry. “Yes, that. You’ve been waiting all these years to meet someone who makes you feel safe and loved. And God, Charlie, you’re my best friend. Of course I want you to have that experience for your first time. So many people’s first times are utter shit. Mine was utter shit. I’d be an awful friend if I didn’t want you to have the best possible experience.”
Charlie has no idea where he’s going with this.
“So,” Nick says, a little nervous, “if you don’t want the first experience to be with me, then as your best friend, I feel it is my duty to help you find the person it will be with. If you want.”
_________________Blame Bridgerton Season 3 for this one. Wingman!Nick to Virgin!Charlie. What could possibly go wrong?
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- Part 1 of Persuapper-verse
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I love Nick's dedication to the Regency theme and the asexual subject.
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“You can be brave for me, can’t you, love? It’s just the next five minutes, okay? And when you’re done, you can have whatever you want.” He’s not above bribery. If Nick wants a dozen pizzas or designer pillows or even a bloody phone call from Kate Middleton, Charlie will make it happen.
Or even if one day, it feels like routine, something they’ve done together a hundred times in a familiar bed, it will still be new. Because Charlie is a slightly new person every day, altered by what he learns and how he grows, and so is Nick.
“This is so cool!” he says again, squeezing Charlie’s hand tight, and God, he wishes he could say something more intelligent and profound. But it is cool! They’re in a blacksmith shop in Scotland! No one knows they’re here! And he’s marrying Charlie! His brain is essentially only exclamation marks at this point!
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where the light comes through by glaspen
Fandoms: Heartstopper (TV), Heartstopper (Webcomic)
07 Sep 2024
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“I just want to be around you,” Nick admits. Charlie recognises the sentiment - after all, he’s watched Nick fall in love once before.
Love, like time, is a strange loop.
Title from 'Creatures in Heaven', Glass Animals
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- Part 2 of raised in the institution of dreaming
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Love the contrasting impossibility and inevitability of the Nick and Charlie in this magical realist treat. 💖
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My bonnie lies over the ocean by chocolatefreckle
Fandoms: Heartstopper (TV), Heartstopper (Webcomic)
20 Apr 2025
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From the Scots word for ‘seal’, a selkie was a seal who could take on human form. A common element in all the selkie-folk tales, and perhaps the most important, is that in order to shapeshift, they had to cast off their sealskins. Within these magical skins lay the power to return to seal form, and therefore the sea. If this sealskin was lost, or stolen, the creature was doomed to remain in human form until it could be recovered. The most common theme in selkie folklore is one in which a cunning young man acquires, either by trickery or theft, a selkie’s sealskin. This prevents her from returning to the sea, leaving the selkie with no choice but to marry her captor.
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In which Nick, a Scottish fisherman, develops an all-consuming crush on Ben Hope’s beautiful and mysterious new boyfriend, Charlie.
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This was super dreamy and made my heart ache alongside funny parts and absolute hotness. 💗
For example, check out these favorite parts:
Charlie looked at him like he was tying a bicycle to his waist.
“I canna believe a fae creature of legend got caught in a trap baited with Doritos,” Nick giggled. “Shut up,” protested Charlie. “There’s nothing under the sea that crunchy except lobster shells, and while I’m not against lobster shells, they are not a carb-laden salty corn treat.”
It was a long kiss, and a good kiss. It was the kind of kiss so deep you could swim down into it until you couldn’t see the sunlight any more. It was the kind of kiss you could build a house on, that you could use to navigate through stormy seas in a rocky ocean, that was wide and broad enough to fill with all the best things in the world and still leave room for more.
Nick, his eyes locked on Charlie’s, draped the sealskin over his lover’s shoulders. Absolutely nothing happened. Charlie laughed. "It's upside down, ye great eejit," he snorted.
The day after you get your heart broken, you realise that you still have to get up and feed the dog. You still have to make your mortgage payments. You still have to do your taxes, go to the doctor, renew the insurance on your car. The world doesn’t care that your heart is smashed into pieces on the flagstones of your kitchen, and you don’t have the first clue how to put it back together. The next day, Nick got up and fed the dog.
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The Campsite Rule by chocolatefreckle for isto4u
Fandoms: Heartstopper (TV), Heartstopper (Webcomic)
24 Nov 2025
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An Absurdism/Dollyverse AU.
What if our favourite closeted bisexual, David Nelson, hadn’t grown up into the self-assured mature adult of Absurdism – just stayed the exact same homophobic, malicious douchebro of canon – but still ran into the business end of our hero, the best snarky twenty-one-year-old bisexual brat ever, Olly Spring?
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- Part 1 of The Ignorant Art School
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I'll never forget this Dolly fic because of the way David grows and Olly's amazing wit. 💗
Some favorite parts:
She does a masterful job of not sounding like she’s setting him on fire with her mind.
"The guy is the human embodiment of manspreading."
“So what do you do, Pierce?” David asks, before I can stop him. The tape deck restarts. Welp, this is your punishment for being predictable, David. I smother a snigger and quietly stand up, waiting til I’m behind Pierce to give David a big pair of thumbs up and mouth ‘Good luck’ as I walk backwards into the house. It’s times like this I sorely regret that I’ve never invested the time to learn to moonwalk.
“What the fuck happened to you?” I snort. “Did you travel here by waterslide?”
“You’re about 20% mud. There’s literally a leaf in your hair right now.” I reach over and pull it out, showing him his new leafy son.
“And non-binary people can have enbyfriends!” I add. “What’s a non-birey?” asks Purple Child. “That means not a boy or a girl, just a person!” I explain. “Turns out you don’t actually have to pick one if you don’t want to.” “Does that mean you have to have half short hair and half long?” asks Pink Child. “No—” I start. Then I think about Fox’s mullet and CJ’s asymmetrical half-shave. “Whoah. Maybe you do. Let me get back to you on that one.”
Remember that time when Mum was having a go at Tori for not going to uni, and you just twirled your fork and told her to leave her class prejudice in the twentieth century with Nanna’s wallpaper? Iconic.
“If you’ll accept some advice from a crusty old lady who was basically born in the eighteenth century,” she says – I laugh again – “In any relationship, at some point, you’ve got to pop love down on the floor for a minute, and give the other person a good hard look, and ask yourself – despite all their flaws, because everyone has flaws – is this someone who makes my life better, not harder? Is this someone who supports me, who helps me to be a better person? Who wants to be a better person themselves? Is this someone who cares about my wellbeing, and the wellbeing of the people I love? Do we want the same things in life? Do we genuinely enjoy each other’s company? And if the answer to any of those things is ‘no’, well – sometimes love just has to stay on the floor where you put it.”
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After losing his husband four years ago, Charlie Spring has worked hard to build a comfortable new life for himself: two adorable dogs, a cozy cabin in his hometown, and a rewarding job archiving the works of local gay poet Finn Bryson. But when a film company decides to adapt Bryson's life into a movie, Charlie is hired to help prepare the lead actor. Nick Nelson is a stunningly handsome, wildly popular film star—but as far as Charlie can tell, he's also a world-class snob.
AU with fluff, flirting, karaoke, hayrides, Taco Bell, and a lot of bad disguises.
Also some angst! But always a happy ending.**Complete at Chapter 36, anything beyond is a deleted scene**
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This writer is seriously so strong. They clearly know their spelling and grammar, and they know how to build tension and move the plot along and make characters and places real. I loved the way both characters have full pasts and grow because of their relationship. And it was so fun catching the lines from the show used in new ways.
Here are some favorite parts:
I fight to arch closer, but he anticipates the move and holds me steady. He’s too strong and it’s all perfect because he’s giving me what I need, not what I want. Being so careful not to hurt or rush, gentle and present. He’s giving me time for my body and my brain to sync up, and it makes me love him even more because he is selfless and kind and trying to take care of me even when I have so clearly lost control.
“Was that worth riding on a plane for?” he asks, mischief in his voice. I swallow hard. “I would cling to the fucking landing gear for that.”
He barks out a humorless laugh. “I don’t feel brave sometimes. I just feel depressed.” “I think it’s possible to be both, you know, at the same time.”
Nick tells me about the destruction he saw yesterday from the air, and I feel a strange flash of gratitude to the dead. My great-grandparents, who probably chose this building site based on the protective fold of the hillside. My grandma, who didn’t scrimp on the construction of the addition. And my late husband, who happily chopped down every single tree on the windward side of our house. It’s a strange thing, the way love and care can continue, even after people are gone.
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This is all too much. The snow, the lost luggage, the jetlag, the entire last year with Ben. I want to sit here, flat on my ass in the middle of the concrete, and cry. But the big mitten is already in front of my face.
“Up you go.” The hand inside the mitten is strong and I’m back on my feet easily.
I try to steady myself. Physically and mentally.
“Take this,” I hear, and the next moment, his coat clamps around me, the hood spilling over my forehead. I’m immediately enveloped in blissful warmth.
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Really strong writing.
This part is so cute:
The beginning? What even was the beginning with Charlie? When did this person, this adorable, precious, perfect boy, go from stranger to friend to best friend to crush to love to everything in my whole entire universe? My brain melts into memories of pineapple pizza and straw in his curls and Lord of the Rings and Japanese tourists and a post-it note “HI” and the yellow kite and his mouth on my neck and marshmallow Peeps and Charlie and Charlie and Charlie.
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Charlie was desperately in love with his best friend Nick Nelson when they were at school together but that was ten years ago and they're no longer part of each other's life. Until a chance encounter at a farmer's market throws them back together and Charlie realises there was more to his straight boy crush than met the eye.
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Nick Nelson has to consider what kind of man he wants to be, is love a choice and a commitment to be honoured or is he willing to choose another life even if it means hurting those around him.
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- Part 1 of Lay Down with me
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I felt the yearning viscerally.
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Charlie Spring is concentrating on his running when a handsome face appears at the adjacent treadmill. Will this chance encounter be the opportunity to realise an old teenage dream?
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Nick Nelson tries really hard not to come on too strong - I wonder how that worked out?
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Even though time-wise they jump into being together, this feels deliciously like a slow burn. I love their banter, and the sex is hot.
Love this:
I‘m kissing him again because why, if you had the chance, would you ever stop kissing Charlie Spring?
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If Charlie is right about the timeline, then Nick only has an hour or two to live. Nick thinks that if all he does in that time is sit here, petting Daisy and admiring Charlie as he works, then he will die a happy man.
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Nick is living with the aftermath of a traumatic brain injury and Charlie loves him. These are snapshots from their life together.
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This was so painfully lovely. I want 100 more chapters of this.
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Another Tomorrow With You by Bi_panic_actually
Fandoms: Heartstopper (Webcomic), Heartstopper (TV)
08 May 2024
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Based on Alice's mini-comic of Nick and Charlie planning to propose to each other, posted on Tapas during a 2019 Q&A. Nick and Charlie both had rings for each other and Alice wrote "Nick and Charlie discuss getting married...then each secretly plans to propose to the other. Who do you think does it first...(I have no idea)"
With that, my idea was born! Here is a sweet, sexy, six chapter story of Nick and Charlie trying to propose to each other in their late twenties. Full of bi-panic and a little chaos.
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This was written so well, and the loving smut is totally my jam. 🔥
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In this aged-up AU, Charlie never told Nick that he'd been in love with him for a decade, until it blew up in their faces during a fight. After thirteen months of not speaking, Tori calls Nick to tell him Charlie needs him, and Nick drops everything to care for an injured Charlie.
Charlie broke his ankle and can't put any weight on it for five more weeks, which means needing help. Something he would rather die than ask for. Then, as if he's dreaming, Nick shows up when he's falling apart and vows to take care of him. It doesn't matter that they haven't spoken in over a year, all that matters is that Nick is there and holding him close.
But the feelings that nearly destroyed them are boiling under the surface. They need to figure out how to navigate the new them--even if that means reopening healed wounds. (This has a very happy ending don't worry!)
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SO INCREDIBLY GOOD. And the shaving scene was the best smut foreplay ever.
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24-year old Nick Nelson is working as a massage therapist, adrift in his life. 22-year-old Charlie Spring is in a terrible relationship he doesn’t know how to escape. Their worlds collide during a couple’s massage, an earthquake moment that will transform them both.
Or, an AU where Charlie and Nick meet at a couple’s massage, and Nick needs to figure out how to help Charlie escape that awful human, Ben Hope.
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Strong writing, a very long growth arc, great loving sex at the end
Favorite parts:
“Ouch, Charlie, that really hurt,” Isaac says in a little kid’s voice. “You did not just make that joke,” Charlie groans. “It’s been years since I’ve made that joke!”
All three of them wear sunglasses. Nick’s are cheap, black frames he picked up at a pharmacy, Tara’s a much more fashionable, designer pair, and Darcy’s a giant green monstrosity that was possibly designed for a child or a clown.
“Sit!” Nick orders again, and this time his voice is more forceful. Charlie is tempted to sit himself.
Something about Charlie using his full name is a thrill, like a finger running along piano keys up his spine, ending on the highest note.
“Have you been consulting with Isaac or something?” Charlie asked, irritated. “He’s the only one of you with any sense,” Tori muttered. “Being allo clearly destroys all reason.”
And then. Then that first, deceptively simple message, a single word, the exact opposite of a novel really, appeared in all its blue-bubbled glory. It felt like the clouds parting to sunlight, the crescendo of the most beautiful symphony, and every other cheesy metaphor Charlie could think of. But Charlie played it cool, as if he hadn’t spent the day in emotional turmoil waiting for Nick’s one word message. They texted back and forth, the first trickle of conversation like a small stream of water gathering speed and force, opening into a raging river, unstoppable, untameable. And Charlie, who was definitely, 100% no longer having a heart attack, asked Nick to attend movie night before he could think properly about it, before he could allow his brain to stop him from asking.
“That’s not legally viable footage, I didn’t know I was being recorded!” Dan sounds outraged. “We’re not talking about a courtroom, Dan. We’re talking about the court of public opinion.”
“I used to think I’d done something wrong in life to deserve what happened to me. But sometimes…sometimes being with you makes me think I must have done something a little bit right too.”
“I just wanted to document this moment as proof that the human face can actually turn that shade. Can I borrow your phone?”
He sort of stumbles towards Nick, who crushes him into another hug, two souls reminding themselves that the other is there now, that they’re together, and the agony of loss only a remembered echo. Two beings, starting to understand what its like to find a home not in a place, but in a person.
What do I love about having my heart trampled on by a book? That it allows me to feel, so deeply.
Great description of anhedonia:
I so rarely feel anything but sad. Once in awhile I feel something. I think of it like breaking the surface. Seeing Olly. I’m not even sure they’re real emotions but maybe the mimicry of them? But it’s more than just being dead inside. The rest of the time is just floating underwater. Like when you sink under the surface and all the colours are muted and you can hardly hear anymore. And the deeper you get the less you see or hear. That’s what it feels like. It’s just a struggle to care.
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Charlie is a bartender at Pony, one of Seattle’s most popular queer bars in the Capitol Hill neighborhood. Nick moved to the area recently to be a teacher at an all boys school and can’t believe he happens to run into someone from back home in Kent. They knew each other at Truham, but their paths rarely crossed despite both having harbored secret crushes on one another.
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- Part 1 of Pony Boys in the PNW
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Love that their relationship is just so natural and free of conflict.
Cute:
Charlie woke the next day in a bubble of pure contentment. He was very warm under the blankets, both the one made of cloth and the one made of Nick Nelson.
HILARIOUS:
“Darlings, are you shagging in there? I certainly don’t mind but I could step out for a walk if you need some privacy!” Sarah’s teasing tone broke the seriousness of the moment and both men burst out laughing and broke their embrace. “MUM! We’re coming, I mean we’re done, I mean we-we’re finished. Fuck. We’ll be right out, you menace!” Nick was stumbling over his words as his face was aflame.
Awww:
Nick pulled her into his chest and giggled, “Daisyyyyy, nooooo. Where’d Daddy go?” he hadn’t opened his eyes yet but was smiling hugely. “Daddy is watching Papa replace him with their fur baby,” Charlie called from his vantage point next to the nightstand. Nick opened one eye at that and smiled up at Charlie. “Shhhhh Daisy, don’t listen to him, he knows love doesn’t divide, it multiplies.”
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To Immortal Beloved by shootingforthestars for NellieSayzBork
Fandoms: Heartstopper (Webcomic), Heartstopper (TV)
02 May 2023
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Nick wants Nick and Charlie to get together. Charlie wants Nick and Charlie to get together. Isaac wants Nick and Charlie to get together. Great love letters of authors and poets throughout the ages want Nick and Charlie to get together?? Apparently....(as well as libraries and librarians, siblings, clubs, holidays, power points, museums, and guest bedrooms. The entire universe and everything in it, turns out.)
(Note Chapter 1 here actually includes the prologue and the first chapter because....I couldn't figure out how to post the prologue separately. So it's like a twofer!)
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The author selected some really gorgeous writing about love for Charlie's magical book. And Nick's written love is so heartfelt. Love the part where Charlie says he needs Nick to take him home.
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He somehow didn’t notice Charlie Spring until a couple of months into term, which he now finds insane. The fact that their one shared class is large and that they live nowhere near each other on campus and that they share no extra-curricular activities–these excuses don’t fly with Nick and he still doesn’t forgive himself for losing out on all that time . All that time they could have been snuggling in front of a movie or Charlie cheering from the sides of a rugby game wearing his sweater or playing Mario Kart side by side until the wee hours. Or, you know, literally anything together. It makes Nick’s heart speed up and cheeks warm just thinking about spending time with Charlie.
Mostly the result of him trying to moderate his emotions has simply meant not publicly squeeing at any particular person’s texts, not grabbing crushes to inflict spontaneous hugs on them, not sending over-the-top birthday presents after knowing someone for like, 10 days. And where has that gotten him? That’s right–single town! Lonelyville! Early-Friday-night-bedtime syndrome!
“To me it’s about wanting the person, needing the person, feeling safe and comforted in the person’s company and feeling that I understand myself even better thanks to that person. Now,” he raised a finger at the group, “I want to be clear about this. I mean, that’s why I included definitions,” he chuckles. “I don’t mean to imply co-dependency by the use of the word ‘need.’ I don’t mean to imply that I can’t be my own person by the use of the word ‘identity.’ I want to be my own person and I want Charlie to be his own person, and sometimes we rely on each other for things and sometimes we do our own thing.”
Nick reads the written text again silently, while he repeats aloud Charlie’s last sentence with a slight twist: “me and you, making it work together, the beautiful center surrounded by, and surviving, the ragged shifting edges.”
Ok, yes, his original instinct years ago might have been to follow Charlie around the house, desperately trying to resolve whatever conflict was happening, convinced that if he just said the right thing, everything would snap back into place and there would be rainbows and butterflies in the world again. And maybe, maybe there’s still a little inner Nick Nelson who’s slightly tempted to do that. But he has also learned over time to actually appreciate Charlie’s need for space to cool down, to think, to see a way forward; to see the benefits it brings to both of them.
Darcy encouraging Charlie to pray to Timothee Chalamet made me laugh, but the sentiment and the little prayer Charlie sent up made my heart melt a little. ❤️🩹
The first few weeks there was even someone in bed with him every night, as everyone was afraid of what might happen in the case he turned over in the night and reached out for Nick and lost his fucking mind upon feeling no one there . . . Maybe he needed a time and a space to shout and cry and scream that he was in fact alone. His beloved had not, in fact, been immortal. Maybe Charlie needed to feel half the mattress empty and cold and fucking weep at that new reality. Oh, broken heart. Oh, emotions leaked out all over the floor and made a mess and left behind a great screaming horrors nothing.
Ah, I know what you’re thinking. You’re thinking about how I’m anxious about things ending; about how if I’m afraid of scary movies I’m probably afraid of the hereafter; about how when I say “I love the sun!” what I really mean is that I’m afraid of the dark and you’re trying to figure out how to put a nightlight in the cemetery with me the way the Egyptians used to send a whole staff of servants and cats and shit to the afterworld with the pharaohs. And you know I desperately love you for worrying about all that for me. I’ve felt that care all these years, felt understood, respected, surrounded by support and never judged and only snuggled. What I’m saying is: I see that you see me. And holy shit. Literally could not have asked for anything better than that.