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    “Jesus, I’ve never seen Hollander this pale. Look at his lips, they’re fucking white —”

    “Whoa, dude, are you okay?”

    “Roz, I would get that bag ready if I were you…”

    “Is he even awake? It looks like he’s lights out, or about to be —”

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    Or, Shane has an ear infection and is stuck on a plane. His willpower will get him through it. (No it won't.)

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    17 Jun 2026

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    After leaving Ilya to his own devices for too long, Shane finally gets back in the picture and tries to help fix what he broke.

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    07 Feb 2026

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    Play was called and medics from Boston and Montreal rushed on. Shane could feel his heart beating out of his chest.

    Get up Ilya, come on baby, get up.

    He was stood waiting, trying so desperately to just seem like a concerned opposing player. When in reality Shane felt like his heart was being ripped in two. He had just about convinced himself to sit down, that Ilya would be back up with his cocky smirk in no time; then he saw the blood splattered on the ice.

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    Ilya gets injured in a game against the Voyagers, and our poor anxious baby Shane goes to pieces. Everything is exposed on the ice and nothing will ever be the same again.

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    30 Jan 2026

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    Playing through a brutal fever against Boston was Shane’s first mistake. Not calling his parents after leaving mid-game was his second. So when they rush to his apartment out of sheer panic, they expect to find their sick son. Instead, they find Ilya Rozanov in Shane’s living room. By the next morning, as the fever finally clears, Shane is left wishing that everything he did the night before had just been a crazy fever dream.

     

     Or Yuna and David have to use their emergency keys to check on Shane, only to find their son's arch-rival playing nurse.

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    01 Jun 2026

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    In the beginning, suggesting Ilya move to Ottawa seemed to be a bridge over a previously unpassable body of water. It felt like a lifeline, a breath of air after drowning for years upon years. Maybe it was, at first. Shane got to have it all, everything he wanted. But despite his willingness to go along with whatever Shane wants, he can tell it’s been weighing on Ilya. He’d given up everything, and Shane can feel how lonely he is. He can see his bright eyes dimming, his laugh growing hollow; he’s withering away while Shane is emptying everything he has into a sport that can never love him back the way Ilya does.
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    Two years after Ilya moves to Ottawa, Shane decides he's worth more than anything Montreal can give him. He won't let Ilya be the only one who makes sacrifices for their relationship. But he doesn't know that Ilya has been struggling, secretly and in silence. And now the only question is if Shane is too late.
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    An alternative version of Shane changing teams and deciding to move to Ottawa willingly, on his own accord, without being outed. He and Ilya are honest with each other - but not before a bit of angst ensues.
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