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They roast marshmallows after dinner and Ilya makes Shane's into s'mores so he doesn't have to risk getting his fingers sticky. Ilya is warm and solid in a way that Shane knows he hasn't been since last summer. There are still pieces of blankness in him that Shane will catch in the corner of his eye—Ilya staring off at a fixed point over breakfast, a missed laugh, a sudden silence here and there—but they are rapidly decreasing in frequency. I don't think I want to play hockey anymore.
Okay, Shane finally tells this truth. Okay, I hear you. It's killing you. I get it.
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- Part 17 of See you next season, Stupid
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18 Jun 2026
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Fall Apart by Sparkleshudson
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
26 Jan 2026
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The night of Shane and Rose’s infamous restaurant breakup is the same night that happens to be the final breaking point for Ilya. For weeks, the memory of that night at the club has replayed on a relentless loop—every look, every word, every implication gnawing at him. No matter how hard he tries, his thoughts keep circling back to Shane Hollander, inescapable and consuming, until the weight of it all becomes unbearable. Grief, jealousy, alcohol, and longing blur together, leaving Ilya exhausted and unraveling. With his judgment clouded and his emotions spiraling out of control, he makes a devastating, irreversible choice. In the early hours of the morning, alone and overwhelmed, Ilya Rozanov drives his car straight off the Boston docks.
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- Part 1 of Fall Apart
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17 Jun 2026
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Ilya gets to the bench. He takes off his helmet. He watches his team win. He holds the cup above his head. He is nowhere in this moment. Time slips every second. He only remembers where he is because he keeps being reminded of it by all the men in hockey gear. He closes his eyes.
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- Part 16 of See you next season, Stupid
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17 Jun 2026
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Hollander Hazing by The_Archetypist
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
16 Jun 2026
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Ilya is pretty sure Hollander only agreed to the bet so he could lose it
Smutty one shot where alpha Ilya gets to ‘play’ with beta Hollander when he wins - but is good boy Hollander actually guarding a lil secret?
Just a bit of fun.
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16 Jun 2026
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(16. Morning, 742 words) TW: depression
--Mornings are sometimes particularly hard for Ilya. He’s never explained why to Shane, but the longer they’re together, the more Shane sees without asking.
He sees the way Ilya sometimes lies there, unmoving, staring at the ceiling long before the alarm goes off. He sees the distance in his gaze. The longing. The slight trembling in his hands. He sees the way Ilya will turn away from him so he doesn’t notice the sheen to his eyes, that he’s starting to cry. That his chest is heavy and that he’s carrying a weight that’s not his to bear. That Ilya doesn’t know how to fix it; that he thinks something is wrong with him.
Shane sees every crack in his armor and loves him all the same.
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- Part 29 of hollanov microfics collection
Bookmarked by Ditzyone
16 Jun 2026