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  1. Public Bookmark 65

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    Luca once joked you should never meet your heroes. Maybe it’s because he wasn't fucking them yet.

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    Hollanov invite Luca into their bedroom.

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    10 Jul 2026

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    “This is hard to talk about,” is all he says, though he knows it will amount to nothing.

    Shane’s fingertips are feather-soft on his chest. “You have to.”

    He has to, because Shane and Ilya have this thing, now, this agreement. Nothing is too hard to talk about. Nothing is off limits. They have to be bare, have to surrender the deepest crevice of their soul to one another. And Ilya, for whom this is easier said than done, whose chest carries a perpetual weight, an immovable mass, it’s all worth it – worth the relief smoothing over Shane’s features, the reassurance that he’s not worried anymore, that Ilya can give him this peace, albeit only a fragment of what Shane gives him by just being there when he wakes up. He would never say it, but he thinks that what he has to offer to Shane amounts to nothing – nothing compared to what Shane does, what Shane is, by simply nuzzling into his chest and sighing into his sleep, late at night when all Ilya can do is lay awake and just feel.

    “I need more,” Ilya says. “And is nothing you can do. I need you inside me, and it feels terrible.” He swallows, with great difficulty. God. “I need to– I need to eat you.”

    or, Ilya never knew love can hurt this good

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    16 May 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 12

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    If Shane had seen what had happened, he’d have a million and one questions. Where did the truck come from? Why didn’t it stop? Why had he and Ilya decided on the scenic route up to the cottage instead of the direct path via highway?

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    23 Apr 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 50

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    Shane shook his head, “No, no. It’s not something that you can buy. I was just thinking,” he paused before continuing, “It would be really nice for me to turn off my brain for that day.”

    Ilya gave him a puzzled look, “Turn off your brain...how, exactly?”

    “I mean, it would be a lot of work on your end, so no pressure to agree or anything. You really do not have to.”

    Story is complete, second chapter is just Shane's POV and the first is Ilya's!

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    21 Apr 2026

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    Saving to see Shane's POV

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    Shane had agreed readily. Yes, he wanted. To be hunted by a stranger with twenty dogs and a knife on his belt. To see him again. To find the source of the squirming thing in his chest and bring it to light.

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    19 Apr 2026