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the heart is hard to translate (it has a language of its own) by pageandpetals
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
17 Mar 2026
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“Hey,” Hollander says softly, settling a hand on Ilya’s back.
Ilya turns away and fixes his gaze on a spot of chipped paint on the wall, trying to will the moisture trailing down his cheeks back into his tear ducts. “Sorry,” he whispers, shaking his head.
He can’t actually remember the last time he felt so utterly mortified. This is not at all what he’d envisioned happening when Hollander asked for his room number. He’d guessed that a conversation was on the horizon; Ilya had just imagined it happening after he reminded Hollander exactly what he’d been missing while he was off being Rose Landry’s boyfriend. But no, Hollander always wants to clear the air, always needs to fucking talk, even though Ilya never has the right words for him.
“Hey,” Hollander says again, somehow even more tenderly.
The bed shifts, and suddenly Hollander is crawling into Ilya’s lap and cradling Ilya’s face in his hands and kissing him.
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(or, filling in the blanks between Ilya crying in Shane's arms and the bed being absolutely wrecked in the last shot of that scene)
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- Part 3 of hr/gc hollanov fics
Bookmarked by ColorMeParanoid
13 Apr 2026
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the heart is hard to translate (it has a language of its own) by pageandpetals
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loving you's my only house by probablylily for fiend-for-culture (caspian)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
01 Feb 2026
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"Always like this." Ilya doesn't know the best way to put this. English words clunky on his tongue. "Pretty eyes fill up with tears for me."
Shane's lips part in surprise. Ilya wants to push a finger between them, watch his cheeks hollow out around it, but Shane recovers quickly, mouth flattening before Ilya has a chance.
"It's—it's a normal response," he says, defensive. "Sometimes peoples' eyes water because of, because of the stimulation." Shane winces. "Or… you know what I mean."
"Oh, yes." Ilya grins. "The stimulation makes all parts of you wet."
"Oh, god, Rozanov. That's gross."
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Ilya's obsessed with seeing Shane cry.Bookmarked by ColorMeParanoid
31 Mar 2026
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loving you's my only house by probablylily
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The Favourite Everything by khaleesiofalicante
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
05 Mar 2026
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“You are not broken, Ilya,” Terry says, sounding a little stern now. “I told you to keep an eye on the side effects. How long have you been experiencing this?”
“Since last night.”
“What?”
“Since last night,” Ilya repeats. “Or afternoon, technically.”
And Terry…Terry fucking laughs.
Ilya is going to die, and Shane will be sad forever and Terry fucking laughs.
“It hasn’t even been a day?” Terry clarifies, still chuckling. “Well, this could have nothing to do with the medication. It could just be an off day—”
“Off day?” Ilya repeats incredulously. “Have you seen my husband? There are no off days with an ass like that.”
OR: Ilya starts taking antidepressants only to realise it's fucking up his sex life. And, he acts totally very chill about it.
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29 Mar 2026
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The Favourite Everything by khaleesiofalicante
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something you can fix by some1_around
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
27 Dec 2025
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Maybe if the video ended there, Shane thought, it would be okay. Okayish. Still incriminating. Still a fucking disaster. Still embarrassing, to have his breakup with this beautiful actress filmed and disseminated on Reddit of all fucking places, but not a nail in his coffin, burying him alive. But the video didn’t end there.
“Can I ask if you’ve ever been with another guy?” she had to ask.
And he, tears visible in his eyes, had to nod.
Just once. Just a single nod.
Why did he have to nod?
“Have you ever told anyone that before?” He shook his head. “Was it different? With a guy?”
“Of course.”
Of course.
“Was it better?”
“Yes.”
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Shane’s conversation with Rose is secretly recorded. Months later, after the All-Star game and Ilya’s confession in Russian, the video gets leaked online. Shane is outed to the world while Ilya is in Russia, and must now finish the 2016-2017 season with the entire world in on his secret.
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- Part 1 of something you can fix
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Dying Is an Art (I Do It Exceptionally Well) by cawthraven for trevino
Fandoms: Buffy the Vampire Slayer (TV)
17 Dec 2022
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After Buffy crawls out of her grave, she finds a familiar place to rest. It's quiet and safe, and the vampire who lives there can take care of her.
Bookmarked by ColorMeParanoid
28 Jul 2025
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Dying Is an Art (I Do It Exceptionally Well) by cawthraven
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After Jason’s death, Dick finds himself in Blüdhaven, trying, for just a moment, to take a break from the world.
His new neighbors don’t make that easy for him.
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- Part 9 of slade + dick
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Bookmarked by ColorMeParanoid
09 Jul 2025
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and i’ll pull your hedge down by wingdingery
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summer falling through our fingers by wingdingery for Unrepentantly_Fallen
Fandoms: Batman - All Media Types
13 Mar 2024
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The moment Bruce’s parents died, he knew his life had been completely reshaped—and, as he grew older, he knew that new shape had no room for a soulmate. For years he convinced himself that was for the best—that finding his soulmate now would only lead to far more trouble than it would be worth.
Then his soulmate reveals himself, and Bruce realizes that he has never been more wrong.
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- Part 2 of love (from the other side)
- Part 9 of bruce + dick
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09 Jul 2025
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summer falling through our fingers by wingdingery
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Slade’s presence should be unsettling, and it is—don’t get him wrong. But it’s also finally something happening, a chance for Dick to work off some of this tension. He’d be lying if he said a part of him wasn’t itching for the fight he knows is coming.
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It usually goes like this: Slade teasing him, Dick responding in kind, until one of them backs down from the ledge they always seem to be teetering on. But today Dick is so not in the mood to be teased, still a bit prickly from his mission’s failure. Still trying not to think about how many bodies must be outside this room.
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Dick's failing his mission, can't get out of his handcuffs, and guess who walks in the door. Just fucking guess. -
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“You’d like that, wouldn’t you?” Slade murmurs back absentmindedly, still focused on the knots at Grayson’s wrist.
Grayson makes another one of those sounds, somewhere between a gasp and a cough, like he’s trying to simultaneously swallow and eject something stuck in the back of his throat. “Jesus, kid, what the fuck is it this time?” Slade says.
“Yes,” Grayson chokes out. “What the fuck it is is yes, I’d like that, and stop asking me questions.”
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Dick gets truth serum’d. Slade does not, in fact, stop asking him questions. -
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It’s just Cal’s luck that he’s on guard duty when Deathstroke the freakin’ Terminator comes to rescue their prime hostage. But Richard Grayson doesn’t exactly seem happy to be rescued. In fact, he’s being... snippy? And Deathstroke... isn’t shooting his brains out for it?
Who the hell are these people?
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Outsidethefox: Ah, is this your first time here? Welcome to Grindr, where the dick pictures are plentiful and unwanted, and the spelling and grammar are generally atrocious.
AC/DC: it’s true, i’m a grindr virgin, i’ve mostly dated girls before and y'all are… wild here.
Outsidethefox: It is certainly an experience. I have only signed in once before myself, but so far the second time seems to be much of the same.
Outsidethefox: With the exception of this conversion of course.
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OR: Alex waits until he’s been living in England for an entire week before he finally downloads Grindr.
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After the game, the two groups meet up at the bar and Jake continues to flirt with Bradley making his intentions well known, but Bradley has never been good at doing what others want him to do. Not even when they're attractive pilots Bradley can't help but find himself drawn to.
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- Part 2 of strike out
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"Sorry," Buck says, with an exaggerated wince. "Sorry, sorry, that's not—that's not a proposal, for the record, don't freak out. I was just wondering."
Something about the way he says it makes Eddie wonder if maybe it would be a proposal, if he'd reacted differently just now. He dismisses the thought immediately. Buck is a grand romantic gestures kind of guy. He wouldn't ask Eddie to marry him out of the blue, on the couch, halfway through a Lakers game. Eddie is sure of it.
Mostly sure of it.
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Or: Buck asks a question. Eddie dithers.
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- Part 3 of homeward bound
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Bookmarked by ColorMeParanoid
09 Jul 2025
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Flash Mobs and Jumbotron Proposals by glorious_spoon
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portrait of my heart by foxflowering
Fandoms: Dragon Age: The Veilguard (Video Game), Dragon Age (Video Games)
03 Jun 2025
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“I know you,” Emmrich says, stupidly, backing away from the bed.
The boy, Rook, regards him alertly. “Where is this?”
“You’re —” Dead, Emmrich wishes to say, but why state the obvious?
(In which Emmrich assists in a murder investigation, gets himself haunted by a ghost, and falls head-over-heels.)
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Cucumbers can be planted any time in May, after the danger of frost is past. Folklore has it that, to protect them from insects, they should be planted on May 1st (the old pagan holiday of Beltane) before sunup — for best results, they should be planted by a naked young man.
Some incredibly cracky smut based on this prompt from the Malec Discord Server. Now a multi-chapter fic because I have no chill.
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Buffy's been dissatisfied for a long time now. When Spike explodes back into her life, she sees a chance to change that.
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09 Jul 2025
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(I Can't Get No) Satisfaction by cawthraven
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Originally a standalone fic, the first installment has now spawned a trilogy because I've lost control of my life! Part 1 is a season 4 era slow burn; parts 2 and 3 explore AU versions of s5 and s6, respectively, where spuffy are in an established relationship throughout.
Parts 2 and 3 are planned/mostly written! Other fics in this universe, including missing scenes, bonus content, and possibly an AU s7 (but don't hold me to it) may be to come.
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Buffy’s finally on the verge of ending things with Spike. Then she finds out he’s dead.
Starts from an alternate version of s06e15 “As You Were”. Buffy thinks some of Riley’s military boys killed Spike. Her reaction surprises everyone, most of all herself.
Turns out Spike’s as alive as ever, but when he gets back, it’s Buffy who isn't quite the same.
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Buffy knew there was a chance Spike could take her out one day. She just thought it would be more death than date.
aka: As You Were ends a bit differently.