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    Every Boston Raider knows that although their captain has a girl in every port, he’s got a soft spot for the one in Montreal. Dr. Shane Hollander knows it’s better to have a semi-regular source of casual sex than try to make a relationship work during residency. Ilya Rozanov knows that the doctor he’s fucking in Montreal is unaware that he plays hockey, and in fact probably thinks he’s Bratva.

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    18 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 33

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    It was almost funny, if you thought about it – Ilya’s mother had pushed him off to a foreign countryside to punish him for the sin of homosexuality, and he’d landed directly in the lap of the devil.

    He just hadn't been expecting the devil to take the form of a pretty priest named Shane Hollander.

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    14 Jun 2026

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    "Have you ever gotten someone pregnant?"

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    13 Jun 2026

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    After they came out, Shane was ready for people to be weird.

    It was weird with other guys in the league, weird with reporters, weird with angry fans who thought his relationship had tanked their fantasy teams and their sports betting parlays, weird with sponsors and their very enthusiastic pride campaign pitches, weird on all the social media that he avoided like the plague.

    What he hadn't expected was for things to be so fucking weird with other gay people.

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    22 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander doesn’t do cheat days.
    Not with his training. Not with his diet. Not with his life.
    Then a ridiculously attractive Russian-Italian chef in Milano force-feeds him the best ravioli he’s ever had and calls him a good boy and things spiral from there.
    Between Olympic pressure, impossible expectations, and a connection neither of them is ready to name, Shane finds himself unraveling in ways he doesn’t understand.

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    20 May 2026

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    Shane and Ilya had mutually agreed to keep their whatever-they’re-doing out of Sochi. It was an easy decision to make: this was bigger than any MLH rivalry and definitely bigger than a few hotel hook-ups. There was no room for distractions, not with Olympic gold on the line.

    So it’d be really fucking great if their daemons could get on the same page and stop trying to cause an international fucking incident.

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    19 May 2026

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    Shane is heavier than he used to be; his weight bears down on Ilya in a new way. He’s put on pounds of muscle since Ilya last touched him like this. Ilya flattens his palms, skims them under Shane’s undershirt, feels the flat solidity of his abs, the bulk of his lats, the swell of his chest. It’s the same and it’s new, this body; it’s the boy he couldn’t stop thinking about when he was 18 and the man he loved enough to let go at 26 and the person who somehow always comes to find him when he’s lost.

    A stranger, and the love of his life.

     

    or, Ilya's father doesn't die in 2017; Ilya breaks up with Shane instead of confessing his love. They get older, but not any less stupid about each other. Shane gets a boyfriend; Ilya gets on medication; they work on becoming whole people. And they always find their way back to each other.

    OR a story for those who love Shane and Ilya's baby love but ALSO think it's hot when people in their thirties make active choices about who they are and what they want in their partner!!

    Note: the "cheating" tag refers to the relationship between Shane and his aforementioned BF, not to Shane and Ilya cheating on each other.

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    18 May 2026

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    15 May 2026

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    JJ didn't think the others saw it. Hayden, maybe, but Jackie was the only WAGs's name Shane had committed to memory so Hayden never brought it up. JJ didn't have a wife or girlfriend. He had his hookups and the names of the best restaurants in each city they player in. If JJ had a dog, Shane would probably mix its name up with Drapeau's. The others didn't get that however pathetic or sad they might think Shane, Shane thought the same of them tenfold when they missed shots at practice or ate fast food on weekdays. Shane wasn't being prissy or funny when he said, don't embarass me—JJ still doesn't know exactly what it was, but he doesn't care to find out.

    Shane had poured everything into his team (possessively: it was his team) and he asked them to give it back that day, so they delivered. When Shane smiled at them afterwards, it felt like love.

    Character study on neurotic batshit hardass Captain Shane Hollander. The awe-inspiring and aloof Canadian Hockey Jesus Shane Hollander. Unwilling MLH sex icon Shane Hollander, the face on many mens' dart boards.

    or, JJ on the enigma of (his feelings for) Shane Hollander over the years.

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    04 May 2026

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    Ilya hadn’t known the video existed. If he had known, he would have paid someone to have it destroyed. Would have paid someone to murder Kuznetsov, maybe, just for redundancy's sake. But it was peak stupidity, to keep evidence of your homosexual perversion around in a country where that crime could get you sent to jail for several decades, and Ilya hadn’t thought that Kuznetsov would be that dumb.

    Now here Ilya was, watching a video of his fourteen-year-old self on Twitter getting fucked by his former hockey coach.

    So. There go the plans for the rest of his life.

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    Or: in 2018, during Ilya's last year with the Raiders, an old video is leaked on Twitter. Ilya reacts, or overreacts. Shane does, too.

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    25 Apr 2026

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    Vlada sees unexpected news about her uncle Ilya, whom she hasn't seen in years. This awakens some long lost memories, and she decides to check on him.

    She hit Send. Her hands were shaking. So stupid. He won't see it anyway. God knows how many dms from fans he gets daily. 
    But she felt a weird sense of accomplishment. 
    Did she miss him? Can you miss a person you barely remember? Or did she do it solely out of spite?
    Well, at least it made her feel a little better.

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    19 Apr 2026

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    Shane cups her cheek in his hand, running his thumb over the plush of her bottom lip. She looks at him through her fawnish lashes. He roves his eyes over her body. Her shoulders and biceps, her abs… She's so strong, so…

    Incredible.

    "I've never done that before," he admits, "Not with... with a woman, at least."

    "Right, well," she rolls her eyes, "Would probably be better with a real man, yes?"

    He shakes his head, "No. It wouldn't have been the same at all."

    - - -

    or, Shane comes to terms with his sexuality only to get thrown right back into confusion by Rozanov.

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    19 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander struggles to reconcile his faith with his undeniable attraction to a man.

    Or a case study in Lust.

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    07 Apr 2026

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    Lily: need a bedtime story?

    Jane: Fuck you.

    Jane: Yes.

    Lily: why don’t you ask your girlfriend this time?

    Shane’s typing bubble pops in and out again, the way he does when he’s overthinking a message. That alone is enough confirmation for Ilya to get half-hard.

    Jane: Maybe I will.

    Lily: say hi for me

    Rose is Hollywood’s favourite doll. Shane likes to organize his toys by shape and colour. And Ilya’s never been good at sharing.

    (Or: Instead of breaking up, Shane and Rose become each other’s beards.)

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    29 Mar 2026

  15. Public Bookmark 531

    Mystery Work

    Part of Unreveal Me
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    This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!

    24 Mar 2026

  16. Public Bookmark 19

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    He won't let his life be only a tragedy until Shane came into it. That isn't fair: to his mother, to Svetlana, to himself. There was joy for him before Shane. Maybe some of it was because he didn't understand how shitty things were, but not all of it.

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    17 Mar 2026

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    When Andrew and Neil begin hooking up, their relationship is based on a single, murky agreement; they don't objectify or use one another, but there are to be no real feelings involved, either. It works. At least, until Neil develops feelings too strong for his own good.

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    17 Dec 2025

  18. Public Bookmark 25

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    Neil Josten made history at twenty-four as the youngest and the third person to ever walk on the Moon.

    At twenty-five, he answers a newspaper ad and makes a deal.

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    Or Andrew Minyard and Neil Josten make a deal. Nothing goes according to plan.

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    15 Nov 2025

  19. Public Bookmark 22

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    He looked ahead to watch Xie Lian and almost stumbled. A gap in the trees allowed the dying twilight to hit the stone path. As the other man stepped into the way, he faded. He wasn’t just pale, he was translucent.
    He suspected Xie Lian was an old god. And the old gods were fading. It was the usual way of things. Yet, the idea of Xie Lian disappearing was unbearable. Xie Lian paused mid-step and turned, his serene expression softening.
    “Just a little tired, don’t worry.”

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    The age of gods and ghosts passed into the age of modern man. When a young ghost stumbles across a forgotten god of trash, he also stumbles upon a buried tragedy.

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    13 Oct 2025

  20. Public Bookmark 47

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    Making a deal with the devil wasn’t so bad. As long as Neil didn’t ask him to sign over his soul on a notarized letterhead, Andrew figured he could keep doing this.

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    06 Jul 2025

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