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    When a visit to his father turns violent, there's only one place Ilya wants to go.

    set post-rose breakup and pre-all stars game.

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    22 Jun 2026

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    He feels fizzy, fizzy, fizzy, like a soda can that’s been shaken and cracked open. There’s so much pressure building inside his chest that he can’t possibly keep it all inside. He laughs, just a quiet giggle at first, and then it becomes something louder. Something brighter. Something that bursts out of his chest and cracks through the echoing silence in the bathroom. He has to cover his mouth with his hand to stifle it.

    Shane feels happy. Truly, deep down to his bones, happy.

    He almost can’t believe it.

    (Or, the first night at the cottage.)

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    21 Jun 2026

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    He wasn’t ready for this.

    Maybe he never would have been, not in two, or five, or ten years. Maybe he would have spent the rest of his life holding this secret inside, not telling a single soul about the way his heart beats for his biggest rival. Or maybe, in a year or ten or once he’s retired, he might have come out publicly. Might have shared his truth with the world.

    But that was supposed to be his choice. To tell or not to tell, to hide in the shade or step out into the sunshine. It was supposed to be his decision, and now it’s been taken from him.

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    21 Jun 2026

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    "I’m sorry, I am just—” He drops his fork to wave his hand around, the way he does when he's searching for the proper word. He knows enough English words to describe what it is he’s feeling, but they don’t feel like adequate descriptors. My father, the man I loathe, is dying, and there is nothing I can do to save him. Everyone in my life expects so little of me, and I feel as though I may disappear. I feel like, if I did disappear, perhaps the world would be all the better for it. You are the only man in my life who has made me feel happy to take up space. Shane, tell me, what is the English word for this?

    Ilya Rozanov's okay, not good, probably bad day.

    Set during a liminal space of my design between the All-Star game and Ilya's father's death.

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    20 Jun 2026

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    His phone pinged five times in quick succession and he got as far as seeing that they were Instagram DMs from Ilya when from a seat somewhere behind him, J.J. said, "Holy shit. The Centaurs' plane crashed."

    "What?" Clearly, Shane hadn't heard him right. Maybe he hadn't said Centaurs. Or maybe he hadn't said crash. Because if he had said both of those words, then that meant Ilya—

    And Shane refused to accept that.

     

    or; the one where the plane actually crashes and shane doesn't handle it well

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    20 Jun 2026