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At the end of David Hollander's life, Shane and Ilya sit at his bedside and have an honest conversation about grief, love, and what it means to stand, devoted, by someone's side.
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‘Til our Fingers Decompose (Keep my Hand in Yours) by Baymax_13
Fandoms: The Last of Us (TV), The Last of Us (Video Games)
04 Jul 2023
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The next thing he sees and knows isn’t a dream is Ellie’s little hand reaching over his heart and balling up his shirt in her fist. Her head lays on his shoulder and her ear presses against his chest. He feels her small exhales and they bring fresh, unbidden tears to his eyes. She doesn’t notice his half-lidded gaze, but he sees just fine as she brings the hand still clutched around his flannel up to her nose and presses it to her face like it’s the only thing keeping her from floating away.
Almost on muscle memory alone, Joel aims to press a kiss to her hair where it’s up to his own nose, but he can’t quite get it right. Still, his cheek ends up against the soft tendrils of Ellie’s brown strands and he thinks it’s enough. He hopes it gives her some meager comfort.
It’s all he has to offer.
(Inspired by the famous picture of Ellie sleeping all curled up on the forest floor during episode 2 - essentially an exploration of how Ellie becomes more than cargo to Joel through Ellie's very cute sleeping habits)
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Nowhere Else I'd Rather Be (Than Here in Your Arms) by Baymax_13
Fandoms: Heartstopper (Webcomic), Heartstopper (TV)
29 Sep 2022
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Nick and Charlie decide to have a baby, but the beginning of the process brings up some complicated feelings.
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The S-Word Ban Still Applies by Baymax_13
Fandoms: Heartstopper (TV), Heartstopper (Webcomic)
08 Aug 2022
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It's the first quiet day since Charlie told Nick about them, and of course, it has to fall on date night.
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- Part 2 of Quiet Days
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Charlie's always been an eloquent kid. He can talk your ear off about any topic he's even mildly passionate about, and he especially loves talking to Nick.
There are some days though when the words seem impossible to reach. They struggle against him in a bitter, silent, fight.
Nick notices, because of course he does, and together they come up with a plan.
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Selectively nonverbal Charlie and supportive Nick <3
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- Part 1 of Quiet Days
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And Love... by Aoife_Faire
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
16 Jun 2026
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“Everywhere I go,” Ilya said in the smallest of voices, “I am always ready for a fight.”
Shane said nothing. He just nodded. I hear you. Speak out what you need to. I have you.
“Russia was a fight. My family was a fight. Being foreign in America is a fight. Trying not to love you, trying to make people hate me so they don’t see me…” Ilya let his head fall against Shane again, like he couldn’t bear the mass of all these things anymore. “I have been fighting my whole life. Everywhere, Shane.”
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Shane finds Ilya deep in the hurt of healing.
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03 Jul 2026
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“Uh,” he says, looking up from his screen and feeling his ears go hot, realizing for the first time that this habit of his hasn’t actually come up before until this exact moment.
“What?” Rozanov asks, sounding more amused than anything else. “You are one of the people who does Instagram for food now?”
“No,” Shane says, stalling between answering and finishing his Snap so he can send it to Melissa, “one sec.” He finishes typing out 'Tuna melt. Chips. Pickles. It smells really good. Swiss cheese, I think.' before he looks back to Rozanov, putting his phone facedown on the coffee table. “Just sending it to someone on the staff. She likes knowing what I’m eating.”
He doesn’t know if Melissa likes knowing what he’s eating, per se, but she also seems pleased when he talks about enjoying food for things beyond how many grams of protein it has in it.
“Ah,” Rozanov says, in a tone Shane can’t quite read. “You always send her your food then, this girl?”
(shane has a habit of sending his team's dietician his meals for approval) (the problem with this habit? he forgets to tell ilya exactly what it is that melissa does) (how the tuna meltdown is AVERTED through the power of miscommunication)
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03 Jul 2026
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Piece by Piece by Springhiller09
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
29 Jun 2026
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Ilya spent most of his life believing love was something he had to earn.
Shane spends years showing him that it never was.
Five moments where Shane loves Ilya in all the quiet ways that matter, and one moment where Ilya finally understands that, piece by piece, he was never as broken as he thought he was.
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01 Jul 2026
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“I am sorry,” he says. “I am not trying to fight. I just don’t like the idea of you not being okay and me not knowing, even when I am in the same place as you.”
That Shane can understand. He wouldn’t like it if their positions were reversed, after all, if he thought Ilya was potentially in danger and he was in the next room over drinking champagne and making smalltalk. He sees Ilya go somewhere in his head sometimes, sees him retreat inwards, sees him check out even if his body is still there, going so deep inside that he doesn’t even catch Shane’s eye for a bit even when something funny happens, too far away for Shane to reach him.
But it’s also not like he can just go up and grab Ilya by the arm and pull him away from the party, not without inviting speculation and a whisper storm. He doesn’t have that right, doesn’t have that privilege, to potentially need Ilya or be needed by Ilya and be able to just pull him away.
It’s moments like these that Shane feels the weight of their secret like a physical thing.
(5 times shane and ilya couldn't be openly together and 1 time they could)
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26 Jun 2026
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Small Serendipity by the_hemlocked
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
06 Feb 2026
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When he was seven years old, Shane Hollander was briefly lost at an airport. Luckily, the kindness of a stranger ensured he made it back to his parents safely, putting an end to a terrifying three hours for the Hollanders. It takes twenty years (and one heated rivalry) for Shane to learn the name of his rescuer. It takes twenty years for Ilya to learn his wish had already come true.
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23 Jun 2026