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"i don't wanna go."
The whimper slips from his lips as ḧ̸̢̢̢̢̛̛̛̙͖̘̬͖͈̩̟̤̗͈̥̥̬̥̹͍͇͚̦̪̯̼͖͇̜́̋̂́̒̽̍͂͑̈̒̇̂́̈́͐̋̇̈̾̉͌̈́̏̏̃̑̇͛̐̆̏͘͠͝͝ͅe̷͓̼̖̩̲̜̠̎̒͑͂̈̽͂̈́̏̑̕͝ clutches Pomni closer. Tears stream down his face as h̸̢͙̟̞̺̽̑̋̇͜ẻ̴̘̍ comes to the realization that h̸̤̮̣͎͙̖̽̈́͌̐̿̑̈͗̓͐̉̀͋̔ȇ̴͉͖̭̺̼͕̿͊̅͂̔̃̏̾̈́̽͘͜͝͝ doesn't want to hide anymore. H̸̨̢̹̟̿̈̑͌̈̇̃̑̂͊̃̉͗͝e̸̡̞̼̫̩̠̪͖̺̹̻̼͑͊̐̇͑̓͒̂̚͜ doesn't want to give up.
H̸̨̦̳̼̳̔e̴̲͍̝͙͌̃͠ feels Pomni's grip tighten as she desperately says "Stay with me!"
And h̶̡͈̙̖̪̠̀͘ȇ̶̗͐̒̅̑̕̕ really wants to. H̸̨̦̳̼̳̔e̴̲͍̝͙͌̃͠ wants to stay and apologize for being so stupid and such a jerk.
No.
How could they ever forgive H̷̨̹̤̗͍̼̘̺̦̣͍̰̾̿̐̊͒̎̀̈́̄̚͘͝͝͝ī̴̡̺͋͛̉̽͛̋̀̋͌̒͌̕͝͝͠m̸̡̧̰̩͔̼͖̱̝̼̘͔̰͙͔̰͈̣̰̲̠͗͗̔͜.
They won't. They can't know.
He'll never be accepted. H̸̨̦̳̼̳̔e̴̲͍̝͙͌̃͠ deserves this.
H̸̨̢̹̟̿̈̑͌̈̇̃̑̂͊̃̉͗͝e̸̡̞̼̫̩̠̪͖̺̹̻̼͑͊̐̇͑̓͒̂̚͜ could feel himself unraveling. She really is making this harder. Her presence was almost grounding
"Jax please- i- we want to help you! We can all get through this together, you're not alone. Please, please try-"
Try.
Just try.
Jax took a shuddering breath "Pomni- i- i want to stay, really. But i'm too far gone. Just- go. Leave. like everyone else." The words somehow make their way from h̴͖̘͈̲̺̼͑͐̎̀́̽̀̔̈̅͘͜͠͝i̷̛̻̥̪͑̄͂͂͊̽̆̑̋̄́͝ś̵͚͒͗̅͝ strained vocal cords. Fuck is ḧ̴̡̜̳͔̲́̾͐̌ę̴̏͝ glowing?
"No!" ḧ̴̡̜̳͔̲́̾͐̌ę̴̏͝ almost flinched at how loud she was, "No, please- please talk to me Jax! Just talk to me, tell me why, please. Before it's to late." She hiccupped "I just want to understand-" Her eyes were squeezed shut, from the harsh white brightness that was radiating off Jax.
There's no point in hiding anymore. H̶̢̝͚̘̞̮̯͚̓̓͂͜ĕ̷̛̙̠͓͙̺̪̙͉̤̘̳͇̻̝̩͗̓̈́͝ͅ'̷̡̡͎̟̘̦̟̫͖̙̼̼͓̬̹̽̾̔͆͂̿̓̉̈́͋̆͘͝s̶̨̻̜͕̐́͐͌ about to abstract anyways. But... H̴̨̨̛̩̘͕͚̙̫͕̪̗̱̘̦͈̱͊̅̽̍̅̓͗̌̍͘̕ͅę̴̨̫̺̻͇̮̝͔̊̍̈́̌͝ really wants to tell her.
"Jax-" Pomni started saying something but Jax interrupted her before she could finish whatever stuff she was going to say.
"I'm a girl!" Jax bursts out before she can rethink it.
The burning white light shifted into a warm rose gold.
Then everything exploded.