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The Dark Lady does not arrive like a storm.

She arrives like the moment before one. That held, breathless pause when the air changes and every living thing goes still, waiting.

Her followers come first, as they always do. They spill through the quiet of Godric's Hollow like ink through water, dark-robed and silent, and the village does not stir. It is Halloween and the living are occupied with their small mortal celebrations, their candles and their costumes, their cheerful pantomime of the things that should frighten them. They have no idea what has just walked among them.

James Potter meets them at the door.

He is braver than she anticipated, she will give him that. He faces her in the doorway of his little cottage without a wand, which is either extraordinary courage or extraordinary foolishness, and she has lived long enough to know the two are rarely distinguishable. He tells his wife to run. He buys seconds with his body that he must know will not be enough.

She does not kill him herself. She does not need to.

She steps over his lifeless body and walks inside.

Lily Potter is at the top of the stairs, her red hair wild, her wand raised. Her eyes are very bright, not with fear, Voldemort notes, but with something fiercer than fear. The particular brightness of someone who has already decided.

"Move aside," she says. A courtesy, of sorts. "I have no quarrel with you tonight. Move aside and you will live."

She means it. She had promised Severus this much, and whatever else she is, she does not make promises she intends to break. It costs her nothing to spare the woman. The child is all she came for.

"Give her to me," she says. "Walk away. That is all I am asking."

Lily Potter looks at her across the landing and does not move.

"You know I can’t do that," she says.

The voice is steady. Voldemort studies her, the set of her jaw, the way she has placed herself in front of the nursery door with the absolute, immovable certainty of something that has decided to be a wall. She is not shaking. She is terrified, Voldemort can see that plainly, and she is not shaking.

Interesting, some part of her thinks, distantly. What a waste.

"Then this is your choice," Voldemort says.

"Yes," Lily Potter says. "It is."

She nods to the follower at her left.

She does not watch it happen. She goes toward the nursery door and she opens it.

She had come to finish it, this small, fragile life before it had a chance to properly begin. A mercy killing. Prophecy made it necessary, and she has never wasted a necessity in her long, long life.

But then the child looks up at her.

Green eyes. Impossibly green.

The Dark Lady is very old and very difficult to move. She has trained herself out of impulse and sentiment methodically, repeatedly, until the reflex simply stops firing. Empathy is a useless tool for a ruler. She is not moved by beauty or grief or the soft animal vulnerability of a creature that doesn't yet know it should be afraid of her.

And yet, she hesitates.

The child does not cry. Every child cries, in her experience, from pain, from the wrongness in the air, from the simple mammalian distress of a disrupted world. This one looks at her like she is familiar, as if she is greeting a friend.

The Dark Lady bends down. She is graceful even doing this, the black fall of her robes pooling on the floor. She extends one pale hand and the child reaches for it immediately — grabs her index finger with a grip that is, frankly, remarkable for something this small.

She does not finish it.

She wraps the child in her cloak, tucks her against her chest and walks back out, past her confused followers. 

She will analyze this decision later. She will find a hundred rational justifications for it. The child is the prophecy's instrument. Better to hold the instrument than let it fall into someone else's hands. The child is a variable. Controlled variables are preferable. The child's power even now is a living, breathing thing, and she does not waste power.

All of this is true.

None of it is why she takes her.

She takes her because the child grabbed her finger and did not let go.

Severus has been watching them for years now and he still cannot find the word for what they are to each other.

He has tried. 

It is unsettling and he has no reasonable explanation for Dumbledore.

The Dark Lady is not maternal. He would laugh at the word if it crossed his mind seriously. She is meticulous. She is deliberate. She does not love, he has always believed — she claims, the way a dragon claims a territory, and what she claims she shapes according to her will.

He watches her shape the girl.

He watches her teach, and this is what unnerves him most. She is patient. The Dark Lady, who has obliterated followers for lesser failures, who has never in his memory suffered inadequacy without consequence — with this child she will repeat a lesson seventeen times. She will wait. She will tilt her head, birdlike and cold, and she will wait for the girl to find it on her own, and when Harriet does there is something in those red-dark eyes that he cannot name.

Pride is too small a word. It is something closer to recognition.

That is the thing that keeps him awake.

They recognize each other. He doesn't know how or why — they are nothing alike on the surface, the dark ancient serpent and this raw, volatile girl who burns too bright and grabs at everything. But beneath the surface there is some terrible resonance, and the older Harriet gets, the louder it becomes.

He writes to Dumbledore.

I believe the plan is already compromised.

Dumbledore writes back, slower than he used to.

Keep watching.

He keeps watching. He is not sure it is doing either of them any good.

She already knows, by the time she is eleven, that she would burn the world for her Lady.

She knows this the way she knows her own name — not because anyone told her, but because it is simply the shape of the truth inside her. Some children are told they are loved and spend their whole lives trying to feel it. Harriet has never needed telling. She is known. She is seen. But more than that — more than the love, more than the claiming — there is her Lady herself, and Harriet has no word large enough for what she is.

She has tried to find one.

Her Lady is the oldest thing she has ever stood beside. Not old the way ruins are old, crumbling — old the way the dark is old, the way deep water is old, the way magic itself is old, permanent, foundational, prior to everything else. When she watches her Lady work, when she feels the magic move through a room at her Lady's calling, she thinks of something the old texts describe but never quite capture — the moment before creation, the held breath before the word is spoken, the dark that existed before light named itself.

Her Lady is not a witch who does magic.

Her Lady is magic. The shadow side of it. The secret, hidden parts. The locked door and the key worn around the throat of night itself.

Harriet would follow her into ruin not because she has been told to but because following her Lady feels like following the axis the world turns on.

So when she hears the prophecy in pieces, in whispers, in half-sentences that go quiet when she rounds corners.

The one with the power to vanquish the Dark Lady—

She turns the words over for days. Weeks. She examines them the way her Lady has taught her to examine difficult things, without flinching, without rushing toward a conclusion she prefers. She is patient about most things when she applies herself this way.

She cannot be patient about this.

Because the prophecy is wrong. It must be wrong, or she is misunderstanding it, because what it implies is impossible. That she and her Lady are equal. That she could — she could vanquish — the thought breaks apart before she can finish it. You do not vanquish the dark. You do not vanquish magic itself. You do not vanquish the thing that was there before you arrived and will be there long after.

You do not vanquish a goddess. It is forbidden, sacrilegious.

She does not wish to vanquish her Lady. 

She wants, desperately, to be her Lady's equal. She has wanted this for as long as she has understood what the distance between them means — that ache, that reaching. To stand beside her and not beneath her, to be the thing that meets her like two twin stars formed from the destruction of everything around them. 

But this is not that.

This is something else, and she doesn't understand it, and not understanding things her Lady has not yet explained to her is one of the few feelings she genuinely cannot tolerate.

She goes to her Lady's study and lets herself in without knocking, which she is the only person alive permitted to do, and she climbs onto the end of the long chair where her Lady is reading and sits cross-legged at her feet and says,

"Tell me about the prophecy."

The Dark Lady does not look up from her book immediately. This is a thing she does — makes you wait a moment before she acknowledges you, so you feel the difference between her attention and the lack of it. Harriet has stopped finding it aggravating. She has started finding it, shamefully, like the anticipation one might feel before something wonderful happens. 

"What about it," her Lady says. It is not a question.

"All of it."

Now she looks up. Those eyes, red-dark and bottomless, and Harriet feels that familiar presence, slipping into her mind the way water finds the shape of whatever holds it. Her Lady has never needed to force her way in. This is simply what they do, what they have always done, and there is nothing violent in it. It is the most intimate thing she knows, to feel another consciousness move through hers like it belongs there.

"You already know the relevant parts," she says.

"Then tell me the irrelevant parts." Harriet holds her gaze, which most people cannot do. "I want to know everything between us."

Something moves in those eyes. Not surprise, her Lady does not surprise easily. Something slower, and deeper. Recognition, perhaps. Or the particular satisfaction of a thing she has been waiting for.

She closes her book.

"Come here," she says.

And Harriet moves up the chair toward her, because she always will, because she cannot imagine a version of herself that wouldn't. Her Lady commands and Harriet will always comply.

Harriet tries to manage it herself, at first.

She is stubborn, a part of her nature she has accepted, grinding through by sheer will, refusing to name what her body is making undeniable. She has read everything she can find on alpha physiology. She knows what is happening. She knows what she needs and she has no intention of needing it.

Because what she needs and what she wants are not analogous. 

Because what she wants is her Lady. Has only ever wanted her Lady. And she has made a private, silent peace with the impossibility of that, or she believed she had. She had told herself it was enough to be beside her, to be known by her, to be the thing her Lady chose above all others without the wanting ever needing to be spoken. She had swallowed the rest of it down and praised herself for her discipline.

Ignorant and arrogant.

Beneath the wanting lives something more tender she has been mourning for longer than she cares to admit. She is an alpha. Her Lady is an alpha. And some nights, in the dark before sleep, she has wished with a shameful ferocity that she could be otherwise. That she could be what her Lady needs, a true counterpart, a complement, someone who could offer softness where her Lady is iron, yielding where her Lady commands. An omega to her Lady's alpha. First and second, light and dark, the perfect, complete union of them.

The wizard Lamprias had claimed that the first articulate sound made is alpha — plain and simple, the air coming off the mouth requiring no motion of the tongue — and therefore the first sound that children make. Before she had known what it meant, Harriet had come into the world already claiming the designation. She did not choose it any more than she chose to breathe.

There is no one she has ever wanted to submit to. There is no one she has ever wanted to claim.

Except.

Except her Lady.

She locks herself in her rooms for two days. On the third, she can no longer delude herself into thinking she is in control. The rut is punishing, absolute and indifferent to her preferences. Her body is a country under siege. Every instinct she possesses has narrowed to a single, furious point, and the point has a face with red-dark eyes, and she is on the cold floor against the bed, losing the remaining parts of her mind.

The door opens.

She doesn't hear a knock. Her Lady simply opens the door and steps inside and looks at her and addresses her without preamble.

"You are not going to manage it."

"I'm fine," Harriet says. One of the more obvious lies she has ever told. Her voice is wrecked. She is sweat-damp and hollow-eyed and her hands are shaking with the effort of holding herself still.

Her Lady crosses the room, gliding just above the air as she always does with supernatural grace. She lowers herself, crouches down in front of her, and takes Harriet's burning face in her cool hands.

There is quiet again.

The clawing stops.

Something in her miserable body recognizes something in her Lady and settles.

“I know what you are afraid of,” her Lady says, very quietly.

"I'm not afraid," Harriet says.

"No." Those eyes are very close. "You're grieving."

Harriet laughs. It’s a broken, undignified sound. Her Lady waits.

"I wished," she says, very quietly, and this is the most honest thing she has ever said. "I wished I was something else, something deserving of you."

There is no magic for this wretched incompatibility of theirs. If it existed, Harriet is certain her Lady would have fulfilled her wish long ago. 

Her Lady is silent for a while. In the dark of her eyes, she sees herself reflected back, and sees that her Lady has always known this. Has held this knowledge of her for years.

"What you are," her Lady says finally, "is exactly what I want." It is that certainty again that has always steadied her more than any tenderness could. "Let me give you some relief, beloved. I would not do this for any living soul but you. No one could be more deserving."

Harriet stares at her.

An alpha of her Lady's dominion does not yield or submit. The entirety of what she is in the world, what she has always been, is the very first, the beginning, the brightest star, the one that does not bend. And she is here, in this room, on her knees in front of Harriet, offering herself.

The sweetness of it breaks something open in her chest.

When Harriet finally, finally lets go of the last three days of willpower and pulls her Lady close, the rut rises like a wave that has been held back too long. It possesses her completely. It is merciless and she takes her Lady hard, harder than she intended, the alpha in her finally given what it has been screaming for and her Lady receives it. Opens to it. Does not flinch or give in defeat but chooses, moment by moment, to be this for her, and the distinction is everything.

Her Lady’s submission is the rarest thing Harriet has ever seen. Like a flower that blooms once in a century for her and no one else. Her elegant pale throat tipped back, marred with various bites, her dark hair spread across the floor where they have ended up, nothing of the untouchable goddess left in her now except the eyes, still hers, holding Harriet's gaze through all of it with that absolute and consuming attention. Harriet presses her face to the inside of her Lady's thigh — milky soft, impossibly soft — and breathes her in and feels herself come apart.

She has only ever known her Lady’s body in a limited way, reserved quietly to the spaces she was allowed access to. She had not known there were rooms like this. She had not known softness like this lived inside her — beneath the strong, ancient dark, this warmth, this surrender, this gift. She commits it to memory and maps it reverently with her hands and mouth. The rut recedes like a tide pulling back and what's underneath it is something quieter and just as consuming. She falls against soft breasts and feels her Lady's hand come to rest in her hair, and she could die here, she thinks.

She is unmade.

She is remade.

She lies in the dark afterward with her Lady's heartbeat under her ear, steadier and slower than the average person, and she feels that fragment in her own chest pulse in answer. Two things that were always going to find each other. Two alphas and somehow between them, against all logic and precedent and the laws governing what their natures are supposed to permit, they have made a whole.

"You are mine," her Lady says, into her hair. She has not spoken. She didn't need to.

"I know," Harriet says back.

They lie in the dark, and the dark holds them, and outside the world stops.

Harriet is very good at this.

She is better than she wanted to be.

She had worried, at first, that grief would show through her like light through thin paper. That someone would look at her and see the shape of what she was carrying. But she is her Lady's student, and her Lady has spent decades teaching her that the self is a performance, that the face you offer the world is a choice, and that the most powerful thing you can do is make them believe you are exactly what you wish them to see.

Harriet makes them believe.

She gives them the prophecy, what her Lady has permitted. She gives them visible cracks, a girl wrestling with loyalty, not too sudden or too perfect. She gives Dumbledore's little network just enough truth wrapped around the lie that they cannot see the seam. She watches them take hope like a coal to breathe on, desperate for warmth, and she tends that hope carefully, precisely, the way her Lady would.

She becomes one of them. She lets them love her.

It is, in some ways, the worst thing she has ever done.

Because they are good. Some of them. They are fighting for something real. And she is standing in the middle of their hope like a hollow idol, and every day she does this she carves a little more of herself out and hands it to them to believe in.

At night she goes back.

She doesn't always go directly. Sometimes she can't because she is too raw, too torn, and she knows if her Lady sees her this way the look in those dark eyes will be too much like judgement. But she always returns to her. And her Lady is always there, and she opens her arms — not soft, never soft, it is always like being gathered into something vast and still and dark — and Harriet puts her face against her neck and does not cry for approximately thirty seconds before she cries.

"I hate it," she says, every time.

"I know," her Lady says, every time.

"I hate them," which is not entirely true. "I hate that I don't hate them more."

"That is because you are better than I am," her Lady says, without any particular emotion, as though this is simply a known fact, like weather.

Harriet pulls back and looks at her. 

"Don't."

"It's accurate. I’m not being sentimental."

"Don't make this about—" She stops. Her throat is doing something she doesn't want it to do. "I am destroying parts of you. I am — every time I do what you ask, I am hurting you, I can feel it, and you stand there and let me because you decided—"

"Harriet."

"—because you decided, without asking me—"

"Harriet."

The voice is quiet. Just quiet, and absolute, the way a wall is absolute, and she stops.

Her Lady cups her face. Tips it up. Studies her the way she always does and it damns her.

"What I carry," she says, "I carry willingly. That was never your weight to bear." A pause. "And you are not destroying me. You could not destroy me. That is rather the point."

Harriet laughs through what is embarrassingly close to a sob.

"You are impossible," she says.

"Yes," her Lady agrees. "That has always been true."

The plan is proceeding exactly as she designed it.

Voldemort runs through it in the quiet of late night, as she often does. Harriet has embedded herself so thoroughly in the Order's trust that even Severus, she suspects, has moments of genuine doubt. The contingencies for the birth are in place. The working that sustains the new body is holding, deepening, becoming more itself with every passing week. She can feel it the way she feels all her magic, like a thread pulled taut between her and something waiting.

She has accounted for everything.

She is, by any reasonable measure, satisfied.

Harriet's hand moves slowly over the curve of her stomach, and she looks up at her with that expression she has never been able to fully categorize, too many things in it at once.

"You're beautiful, like this," Harriet says almost shyly.

"I should be saying that to you, beloved. I find myself quite inspired by the way you severed a tongue today."

Harriet's mouth curves into a sharp smirk.

"He was thinking very loudly."

"He was," she agrees. Fenrir Greyback had always been loud in the particular way of men who believe their ugliest thoughts are private. She had felt the shape of his contempt from across the room — weak, bitched by the girl at her side — and she had watched Harriet feel it too, watched the temperature behind those green eyes drop several degrees in the space of a breath.

He was suddenly spitting blood and his tongue had been on the floor before she had formed the intention to intervene herself.

She had found it, she will admit privately, enormously satisfying.

"I should have cut off his cock, I think," Harriet says, with the mild, musing air of someone reconsidering.

"Well," she says. "There's still time."

"Barely."

The word comes out soft, and the softness is where the fracture is, she feels it immediately, the shift beneath the humor, the thing Harriet is pressing down. Her eyes have gone complicated again.

She reaches up and touches her face. Just her fingertips, along the jaw.

"You have me always and forever," she says quietly.

"Not as you are now. Not fully." But her voice is unsteady at the edges. "You're asking me to kill you."

"I am asking you to finish what we started. Together." She lets her thumb trace the line of her cheekbone, unhurried. "What I am now, what the world knows me as, it is a skin I have worn too long. It has served its purpose and it is time to shed it."

"Don't make it sound simple."

"It is simple. It is only painful." A pause. "Those are not the same thing."

Harriet's jaw tightens. She is fighting herself, as she always does when she cannot argue with the logic but refuses to accept the cost. She has always been this way — her mind and her heart running in opposite directions, tearing at each other. It is one of the things she loves most about her.

"The world does not need me," she continues, quiet and even. "Not anymore. It never needed me the way it will need you. I was necessary in the way a fire is necessary.” She lets her hand fall to rest over Harriet's, still warm against her stomach. "You are what comes after. You have always been what comes after."

"You planned this from the beginning," Harriet says.

"Not from the beginning," she says honestly. "From the moment I understood what you were. What you were becoming." She watches Harriet's face. "I have spent a very long time building toward something worthy of the effort. I have not always been — good. I know that. But you and I, what you will make of the world when I have stepped out of its way, this is the worthiest thing I have ever done."

Harriet is quiet for a long moment.

"You trust me," she says finally. "With all of it."

"I have trusted no one in a very long time," she says. "I trust you with everything I am and everything I will be. The least you can do," and here the faintest trace of something dry and warm enters her voice, "is extend me the same courtesy."

Harriet laughs despite herself, that small, helpless sound she makes when she has lost an argument she wanted to win. She turns her face into her hand.

"It's not the same," she murmurs into her palm.

"No," she agrees. "It never is, when you love someone." She smooths the hair back from her face, gentle, deliberate. "Put your faith in me as you always have."

She looks at her — this volatile, luminous, impossible thing she has made into the most dangerous person alive — and she feels something move through her that she has no appropriate name for.

"If you love me so well like this," she says, and there is something almost idle in her tone, a thought she is following to its end with genuine curiosity, "perhaps one day, if you want it — I would give you a child of your own."

Harriet goes very still.

"I have never," she continues, "had that particular inclination before. You inspire me in so many new ways, beloved." She considers it honestly, that possible future — something of theirs, entirely, made from them and no one else. Strong and dark-haired and furious, probably. She finds the image, unexpectedly, lovely.

Harriet stares at her. A slow flush has risen along her cheekbones, which is remarkable given everything, given that this woman has faced down a room full of Death Eaters without blinking, has kept her nerve through things that would unmake most people. And here she is, undone by a hypothetical.

"You can't just say things like that," Harriet says.

"I just did."

"You—" She laughs, small and helpless, and ducks her head, and she is blushing, genuinely, and it is one of the finest things she has ever seen.

She draws her down. Harriet comes willingly, carefully, always so careful with her now, and she tips her chin up and kisses her slowly, savoring the moment.

Harriet kisses her back, soft and aching and there, entirely there, and she keeps her hand spread warm over the curve of her stomach where her greatest work sleeps and waits.

Severus has stopped writing to Dumbledore.

Dumbledore is dying, has been dying for some time now, half of him already necrotic. Severus sits with him sometimes, in the long evenings that the old man seems to need less sleep to fill. He sits and sometimes he speaks and sometimes he does not, and Dumbledore looks at the fire like he’s quietly reviewing all of his life’s decisions.

"She'll do it," Dumbledore says, one evening. Not looking at him.

"Yes," Severus says.

"The girl."

"Yes." He pauses. "She'll do it because Voldemort wants her to."

Silence.

"You don't know that," Dumbledore says, but there is something tired in it now, the resistance of a man who suspects he does.

"I know them," Severus says. "Better than I wanted to. Better than you did." He is not kind about this. He has never been able to be kind about it. "You helped design a weapon, Albus, and she made it into something else entirely. Something you never planned for. And now we are all, us living, going to watch the final act of a very clever play written by Voldemort."

Dumbledore is quiet for a very long time.

Severus stares into the fire. He hasn’t stopped thinking about the pregnancy. The rumors have been multiplying for months now, spreading through both sides like fiendfyre. That the Dark Lady has grown frail. That her magic is failing her, her immortality finally proving itself a lie now during this pregnancy. Those against her call the child an abomination and there is no polite way to disagree, because there is no recorded history of an alpha woman carrying a child.

It should not be possible.

Their Lady does not believe in the limits of should.

But she does look diminished. That is the word he keeps returning to, reluctantly. The woman who wields magic the way other people breathe air has not cast a single spell since the pregnancy began. He has confirmed this through three separate sources. She stands back and lets it happen around her, and Harriet Potter, the golden girl of light and the Order's last hope, never leaves her side. Doting. Hovering. Performing every task her Lady once performed herself, with an almost aggressive consideration that is, to Severus's eye, unmistakably territorial.

Like an alpha mate. Like the only alpha mate that woman would ever have accepted.

The rumors that followed were inevitable. Some believed that the young alpha witch had ensnared her. That Harriet Potter had demanded this of her — carrying her child as physical proof of her submission. Fenrir Greyback had believed this and had his tongue summarily cut from his mouth by the girl.

He does not believe their theories, which is somehow worse.

"The child," Dumbledore says finally.

Severus goes still.

"She has done something that shouldn't be possible." Dumbledore says. His voice is very even. A pause. "She rarely does only what is possible."

"No," Severus agrees.

"Then you understand what the child is."

He doesn’t. He has no way of confirming any suspicion. All that he is certain of is that it doesn’t bode well for them.

"Albus." He keeps his voice careful. "Whatever you are about to ask me—"

"I need you to end it," Dumbledore says. Simply. Quietly. The way he says all the things he has decided. "Before it is born, or shortly after. It cannot be allowed to—"

"No."

The word lands flat and final between them.

Dumbledore turns from the fire to look at him, and Severus holds his gaze.

"I have done," Severus says, "a great many things in service of this war. You know what I have done. You know what it has cost." He pauses. "I will not do that. Not an infant. Not for any reason you could give me."

Dumbledore looks at him for a long moment, like a man recalculating a sum that isn't coming out the way he needs it to.

"Then it won't end," he says, very softly.

"No," Severus says. "I don't think it will."

He thinks about those familiar green eyes that don't flinch. He thinks about a girl who cried in private and killed in public and let a room full of desperate people believe they had saved her. He thinks about what he had seen briefly, through the sliver of a door, and the alien tenderness in Voldemort’s gaze as she stood by the girl’s bedside and watched her sleep.

He stares at the fire and says nothing else and they wait for it all to unravel before them. Merlin preserve them.

There are a hundred people watching.

She is aware of all of them, the Order in their ranks, some weeping already, some hard-faced with the weight of what they've spent years building toward. She is aware of the light, cold and flat, the early morning sky the color of blood. She is aware of her own heartbeat, which is steadier than it has any right to be.

Her Lady stands across the courtyard.

She looks — magnificent. That is the only word. This is the thing about her that no one who has not stood this close to her will ever truly understand. She is not frightening because she is monstrous. She is frightening because she is beautiful in a way that the word was not built for, a beauty that belongs to something beyond. She stands in the morning light with her black robes and her red-dark eyes, matching the sky above, and she is the most real thing in the world.

There is a slight narrowing of her frame after giving birth, the way the robes hang differently, the body that gave something of itself and has not yet fully reclaimed its former severity. The Order will read it as weakness. They will tell themselves the Dark Lady is already halfway defeated before the killing blow lands. They will be wrong in every way that matters.

The baby is safe. Hidden, warded, in the care of the one person Harriet trusts above everyone else in this performance. She will go to her the moment this is done. She had made certain the Order understood, in the weeks leading up to this, that no harm would come to the child. They had taken it as empathy. As the instinct of a girl who had once been a baby under a death sentence herself, unable to extend that fate to another.

They had no idea who she was really protecting. 

She looks at Harriet.

Harriet looks back.

There is a conversation in it — enormous, and complete, and invisible to every living soul in this courtyard. It says everything they have already said and everything they will never need to say again. It is the whole of them, compressed into the space of a breath.

You are mine, Harriet says, without speaking.

I know, her Lady says back.

She raises her wand.

Her Lady does not run. She does not dodge, does not raise her own magic in true defense. There is a performance of it, there must be, for the watching eyes, but Harriet knows the difference. She has always known the difference.

She casts.

The light is green, and her Lady falls, and Harriet does not let herself close her eyes.

She will not run to her.

She will not kneel beside her and gather what's left and hold it until the last of the warmth goes, that warmth that has sustained her own life longer than she can measure, that she has slept against and pressed her face to and memorized in the dark. She will not do that.

The Killing Curse is painless. Instant. Her Lady felt nothing.

Her Lady is not that beautiful corpse she has left behind.

She stands in the roar of sound that breaks around her — voices, crying, someone nearby collapsing with relief — and she feels the horcrux inside her shift and settle, a deep structural thing, like a keystone bearing weight. She feels it.

She is still here.

She is still here.

Harriet stares at the red sky above the place where her Lady fell and breathes.

The child is very small, and has dark hair, and does not cry.

Harriet sits in a chair by the window in the early morning, which is when she likes to hold her before the world gets loud with its new shape, before the work of being what everyone now needs her to be. In the early morning it is just the two of them, and the light is soft, and she can be honest.

"You don't remember yet," she says. "That's alright."

Lili looks at her. The eyes are dark now, newborn-dark, but there is something in the attention — that total, unblinking focus — that she knows. Has always known. Would know across any distance or time, in any face.

"You'll remember," she says. "I'm not going anywhere."

She is the most powerful witch alive. She is the head of something that doesn't have a name yet, the shape of a new world still being decided. People write to her, defer to her, fear her a little in the way they feared her Lady. She has noticed this and she does not mind it. She understands power now in a way she perhaps did not when she was young, before she understood what it costs.

She adjusts Lili against her chest.

The baby grabs her finger.

Harriet stares down at that tiny grip and her breath goes strange and still, and she has to close her eyes for a moment.

"There you are," she whispers.

The serpent swallows its own tail.

The wheel turns.

Another cycle completed.

Somewhere in a quiet room, morning light peaks through the window, a child wakes from dreams she does not yet have words for, and Harriet keeps watch, and waits for the world to return.