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You can never love anyone in this merciless world Phuwin.
Love represents weakness and in our family weakness stands for trash.
Love will always have lies, nothing can be 100% real.
Love won’t bring you anything more than Failure and Betrayal.
He kept walking, letting the light autumn’s wind hit his face while he kept walking, or more like escaping. He tried to focus on something, anything else, his legs slightly trembling from earlier events, or the sound of the crowd, loud but blurrier by own thoughts. “I love you” , those three words, alone can be so simple and careless but being put together can cause so many things. Joy, Excitement, shyness, but also way worse, Confusion, sadness and even worse for Phuwin, fear and weakness.
He was always taught one thing about Love ever since he could understand what was told to him. His mother, own flesh and blood, didn’t give him the love he should have got as a child. “Love will make you weak, depending on me will ruin you Phuwin” was the only thing he heard when he was only 8 years old asking for her love and care.
Later both of his parents focused on everything for him: food, clothes, education, training. He was born to take their empire reigns later, but love ? It was never on the list, they didn’t speak to him apart from asking about grades or performances, they never asked him how his day went by, if he wanted them to play with him or anything to actually could actually show some parental love toward him. The routine was the same again and again everyday.
Eat.School.Train.Study,Eat,Sleep.
Eat.School.Train.Study,Eat,Sleep.
Eat.School.Train.Study,Eat,Sleep.
Eat.School.Trai -
“Phuwin? Hey Phuwin can you hear me ??”
He jumped up, slowly raising his eyes toward the familiar voice.
”D-Dunk- I-” He said, feeling his own voice crack, tears building in his eyes.
“Hey hey hey what happened ? You don’t seem okay come on let’s go home-”
”NO, no please- I don’t–don’t you dare take me there” he screamed vocals cords shaking a little too much with anger. He didn’t recognize himself this instant, never before he had screamed that harshly at his cousin.
Dunk sighed, he didn’t understand what happened to Phuwin, just last night he saw him leave with Pond, a smile plastering his face, and now here he was in the streets, shaking and legs trembling. He hoped nothing bad happened to him in his heart before speaking again.
“I promise you I won't. I was talking about my place, it’s not too far from here and Joong left this morning to work, please I can't leave you here in this state.” He almost begged him to follow him, he knew how bad this place could be for him right now he didn’t need that. He carefully grabbed Phuwin's shoulders, trying to calm him down. “Come on, let's go.” He whispered, ignoring the glances they were getting.
After calming down a bit Phuwin nodded and took refuge in his arms, as they made their way to Dunk’s condo.
He let the droplet slide all across his body one by one, letting the hot water burn down all traces of what happened last night and this morning, either it was the dried cum of him or his words which brought doubts and fear in his mind, he still thought about it “I Love You”. How can someone say those words so easily and carelessly ? He didn’t understand and couldn’t, love is supposed to be a sign of weakness, he won’t accept it and even less return it, that was the one rule he got ever since he was born in this broken family.
Three knocks echoed in the bathroom, probably Dunk checking on him. He uttered an answer before turning off the water, drying himself and putting on Dunk’s change clothes. The same one who was waiting for him in the hallway.
He grabbed the door handle, opening it, he got out and looked around until his eyes landed on Dunk's one, dark pupils full of worry. He hated to be pitied like that, why was he so shaken up by some words ? And the worst was that they came from a stranger, someone that shouldn’t have so much effect on Phuwin. But it still did, leaving an imprint on him like a tattoo done with dark deep black ink.
He was still silent, looking at Dunk eyes pleading, but he would never verbally ask for what he really needed.
“Are you feeling better ?”
”Hmm” was all he could answer, he was too scared of his own voice right now, “love and need of affection is for the weak Phuwin” ‘shut up’ he internally cried, hands turning in fists for one second.
Dunk didn’t believe him one second, but the most important was to find a way to calm him down, ‘sorry auntie, the meeting will wait’ he thought, already cancelling what was scheduled for them mentally. He looked at Phuwin trying to search for an answer in his eyes, but he couldn’t.
Dunk sighed for the nth time today. “Come on, let's go lay down a bit” he said tenderly. The soft word worked because Phuwin made his way to the bed with Dunk, he needed that, even if he couldn’t accept it. He went under the cover immediately gluing himself to Dunk. Phuwin was all curled up on him, just like when they were a 9 years old and a 12 years old, hiding from the adults fighting. Dunk looked at the sleeping figure next to him, wondering whether to kill his friend without thinking or trying to understand what he could have done to bring his cousin to this point. With mixed emotion he grabbed his Phone, opening a chat.
Dunk: You better go see how your best friend is and find out what happened last night before I come and cut his dick off.
He clicks on send, before leaving his phone on the bedside table, pulling Phuwin closer to him, he will find what happened and will be sure to take care of that problem.
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Joong opened his phone, just after finishing his shift, hoping to find some good news, he was met with two texts clearly showing the opposite of what he was waiting for.
Baby⋆˙⟡♡: You better go see how your best friend is and find out what happened last night before I come and cut his dick off.
Oh.
Just to confirm his thought he read the text from Pond.
Pond: I fucked up Joong, I fucked up pretty bad you can yell at me later but please…please tell me he’s okay.
He quickly changed, grabbed his car key before running and sat in the car. He started the engine, already driving to his friend’s house.