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32 BBY
Coruscant’s Republic City was not a city, but a world that swallowed the stars.
The descent alone had stolen Mon’s breath—her first sight of skylanes tangled in glowing ribbons, towers piercing the clouds like blades. Even from orbit, there had been no trace of oceans or forests, no horizon that was not artificial. Chandrila’s rivers, rolling green hills, and staggering rock formations felt impossibly far away, already like something from a childhood long past.
Now, standing beneath the Chandrilan Embassy’s pale stone colonnade, she could barely hear her own thoughts above the constant roar of hovercars and speeders. Lights shimmered at every level of the endless canyon of buildings at all times of day and only burned more brightly when the sun set, as though night were merely another excuse for more spectacle.
She was sixteen years old, and the Republic called her Senator.
Her mother’s farewell had been firm, even proud. You will serve Chandrila well. You will prove that our traditions can withstand the galaxy’s whims. Her mother had not mentioned how dizzying it would be to carry the weight of that legacy in a place where everything moved too fast, too loud, too overwhelming. Even with all the physiotherapy and preparation she endured on Chandrila, she staggered under Coruscant's gravity and had to tamp down a rising sense of claustrophobia within her own skin.
Perrin seemed to adjust with enviable ease. He smiled at every new acquaintance, laughed readily at every banquet, fit himself to Coruscant’s excess as if born to it. Already he was fascinated by his role as senatorial consort, speaking excitedly of all the dinners they’d been invited to, clubs they should join, patronage they should extend. Mon was grateful for his confidence, but it only deepened her sense of dislocation. Their marriage had been solemnized on Chandrila mere months ago, a duty performed before she could truly understand it. What had been promised as partnership felt instead like another layer of expectation. Another script she must follow precisely, lest she stumble.
One of their first activities as newlyweds on the capital planet was a tour of Republic City. Their embassy attendants escorted them to all the highlights; the Federal District where the Republic Senate Building loomed large, the famed Jedi Temple, the myriad shops and restaurants surrounding Monument Plaza, and of course Mount Umate, the only mountain peak left on the planet that had not been built upon. Mon took a liking to the botanical gardens, but by the time she was able to catch her breath, it was time to move on. The capital boasted more beings than Mon had ever seen in one place at one time: Duro, Twi'leks, Rodians, Zabraks, Mon Calamari, Wookiees, Gungans, and other races she'd only ever read about in her studies.
In the perfectly climate controlled hovercar back to the Chandrilan Embassy, Mon reflected on all that she’d seen. What struck her most was the dichotomy that existed within the galactic capital, that the Republic’s seat of power could host such luxury while the mid and lower levels experienced rampant inequality and poverty. When she voiced this thought to her husband, he laughed it off, saying, “You always fixate on the most dreadful things. Why must you be so dispirited, Mon? There is so much more to do and enjoy here than at home.” She let the comment roll off of her like water, but she kept her further musings to herself, that she would rather visit the mid and lower levels of Republic City to better understand this place.
Her first days in the Galactic Senate blurred together in a flurry of expansive corridors, endless debates, and the low, patient tones of aides explaining the nuances of procedure she was meant to already know. She found herself staring too long at senior senators of various humanoid races with decades of experience, their robes heavy with insignia. She copied their gestures, measured the cadence of her voice to theirs, and prayed her nerves did not show.
Perhaps the most difficult task at hand was the ceaseless constituent meetings that she was expected to hold in her Senate office. There was always someone who sought an audience with her for any length of time they pleased, someone with a tragic case to plead, to beg for her advocacy, and she frequently found herself at a loss as to how best to involve herself. She yearned for her mother’s gravitas, the way she could put a devastated Chandrilan farmer at ease when their crop yield was not enough to feed their own family, let alone meet their export quotas.
She wanted to run. Back to the days when representing Chandrila in the Republic Senate was an abstract dream, when her mother’s voice carried authority enough for them both. But now she was the one in the robes and chains of office, the one behind the imposing desk. She could not shake the feeling that her people left her chambers more hopeless than when they had entered.
In the end, she decided that these were the matters of governance she must learn, and learn well, if she was to succeed here.
By night, she hurried from the Senate Rotunda to the city’s Fobosi District, exchanging her senatorial brocades and silks for a student’s robes, huddling over datapads in crowded lecture halls. She was determined to earn her education as properly as any student, not through private tutors arranged by the embassy, but alongside her peers at the University of Coruscant even if exhaustion pulled at her bones. This was the compromise reached with her parents when she gave up her fledgling career in academia for the family business of interplanetary politics.
Here, she was not Senator Mothma but a girl among hundreds, scribbling furiously to keep pace with lectures. She almost preferred it, at least anonymity offered a kind of relief.
Over time, however, she realized she was never fully anonymous after all. Professors lingered on her name when they called attendance. Students whispered when she passed. Chandrila was an ancient Core World, a founding member of the Republic, yet she found herself subject to idle gossip by others in her cohort about her supposed overly genteel mannerisms and style of dress, which was deemed unsophisticated and sorely lacking by the standards of Coruscanti fashion of the moment. She still wore her auburn hair long, save for the face-framing braids that had been cut to signify her marital status. Her dresses were heavy with layers of fine fabrics, always crafted with modest neck and hemlines, and dyed in the vibrant blues and soft golds that their home world so favored. Perrin teased her for it, but she did not find it amusing. She wanted to be judged for her mind, not her title, social class, or appearance.
In rare, quiet moments between Senate sessions, between courses, she would stand at the embassy balcony and look outward, searching for some trace of sky untouched by towers. There was none. Only a smog-colored glow, and the unceasing flow of lights that blurred like rivers across the night.
For the first time in her life, Mon wondered whether she belonged anywhere at all.
The lecture hall was vast and cold, its durasteel beams arching high above rows of tiered seating. Holo-projectors flickered to life along the walls, casting pale blue images of ancient battles into the air—Republic cruisers frozen mid-fire, soldiers charging into the haze of a forgotten war. Students shifted in their seats, datapads balanced on their knees, styluses poised for notes.
The doors opened with an abrupt hydraulic sigh.
Professor Lear Damrin entered with brisk steps, his pace purposeful and marked by the sound of his heavy boots on the floor. His brown-blonde hair was cropped close to his head, and a utilitarian jacket hung over his broad shoulders, giving him the look of a soldier more than a scholar. She was taken aback by his great height for a human male and surmised he came from a planet other than Coruscant, where gravity did not compress skeletal and muscle mass so unforgivingly. He dropped a thin satchel on the lectern, pressed a button on the control panel, and the holos came into focus.
He didn’t raise his voice, but it carried easily, a gravelly timbre that matched a face that would’ve been otherwise comely if not for his perpetual frown.
“History,” he said in opening, “is never neutral. It is not a record of what happened. It is the story of power—who holds it, who fears it, and who pretends it does not exist.”
The restless shuffle of styluses subsided. Mon straightened slightly in her seat, her datapad warming beneath her hand as she prepared to record, but she didn’t write. She listened.
The course syllabus would focus on the history of the Core Worlds and the impacts of Separatist ideology on each one, starting with Chandrila. Damrin moved as he spoke, slow strides across the platform, dissecting Chandrilan history with the same unflinching clarity he used on Republic military campaigns. He spoke without ornament, without rhetorical flare. His lessons were not meant to soothe; they were to provoke. At last, he paused, eyes sweeping the rows as if searching for someone specific.
“Before we convened, I was advised that we’ve been graced with the presence of the junior senator from Chandrila,” he declared.
With a bracing breath, Mon slowly raised her hand until Damrin’s eyes finally landed squarely on her, where she sat in a middle row. A ripple of curiosity moved through the other students as they followed his gaze.
Mon met it without blinking. “Yes, Professor?”
“Tell me—was your world’s pacifist tradition a noble conviction…or a convenient excuse to let others fight your battles for you?”
A flash of heat climbed into her cheeks, but she held his stare. “It is neither. It is a principle. Chandrila believes that power can be wielded without bloodshed.”
A low murmur moved through the class. Damrin’s mouth curved, not quite a smile. “Belief,” he said softly, “is the most dangerous weapon of all. The most fragile.”
Mon’s stylus finally touched her datapad, but instead of taking notes, she wrote one word: Fragile? The stylus trembled slightly in Mon’s hand—not from fear, but from a sudden clarity that this was no ordinary exchange. He was testing her, marking her out before the others.
She lifted her chin. “Fragile, Professor? Or resilient? A principle that survives centuries of galactic upheaval is hardly fragile.”
A few students smirked, waiting for the clash.
Damrin clasped his hands behind his back, pacing. “Survival is not resilience, Senator Mothma. Chandrila has survived because others have bled for it. Naboo during the Trade Blockade, for example. Or countless other Mid Rim colonies left to burn. Would you still call pacifism resilient when it is purchased with someone else’s war dead?”
The air in the hall prickled. The other students bent over their datapads in exaggerated focus, trying to vanish into their seats in case they were called upon next.
Mon’s pulse quickened, but she did not falter. “Perhaps you misunderstand the nature of power, Professor. It is not only weapons that alter the course of history. Diplomacy, negotiation, even restraint—these wield power too.”
Damrin stopped mid-stride. The pale holos reflected off his face, illuminating his grave features. “Restraint.” He said the word as if it were fragile glass. “Tell me, then, if mercenaries launched an incursion into Hanna City tomorrow, would Chandrila restrain itself into survival? Or would you finally ask the Republic to spill blood in your defense?”
The silence in the hall deepened.
Mon’s throat tightened, but she forced the words out. “If Hanna City fell, our response would still honor our principles. If we abandoned them in fear, then what would we have left?”
Something flickered in Damrin’s expression, not triumph, not mockery. Something closer to approval, hidden quickly behind the sternness that made him look older than his years.
He turned back to the holoprojector, sweeping his hand through the controls. The images shifted to show a star-map of reported incidents loosely linked to criminal activities; piracy and organized crime with regional defense forces. “History will decide if Chandrila’s restraint is wisdom…or cowardice.”
The lecture resumed but Mon hardly heard him. Her blood still thrummed from the exchange. She had not won, not entirely, but she had not been cowed, either.
When the class ended, datapads snapping shut and students filing out, she remained seated, stylus poised but unmoving. Damrin gathered his satchel, and for a moment, he looked at her again. Something about it compelled her to stand, as though she could better withstand whatever he might next throw at her if she were planted on her own two feet.
“Chandrilans never fail to propagate the myth of the Republic.” He stepped closer, his cold eyes utterly arresting at close range. “You enjoy clean air and rivers, orderly legislatures, progress by consensus. But out here—” he gestured vaguely toward the sprawl of Republic City outside the lecture hall’s windows, “—the Senate is rotting from the inside. Corporate interests buy votes and senators trade favors while frontier systems starve. You’ll need to unlearn your illusions if you want to survive this place.”
Mon had formulated her reply as soon as he was finished speaking. “Respectfully, sir, the Republic is not a myth. It is a living ideal. My people have flourished under its guidance for generations.”
“Your people,” Rael said dryly, “live on a Core World favored by trade lanes and agricultural surpluses. That’s not flourishing, Senator Mothma. That’s privilege.”
Her breath caught. “You presume much.”
“I presume nothing. I’ve seen what’s coming.” His gaze sharpened, suddenly fierce. “There are whispers of war, girl. Armies being raised in secret. The Republic doesn’t have the strength to stop what’s breaking loose. When it does break, all your Chandrilan ideals won’t hold the pieces together.”
The words hit her like a slap. Mon’s nails bit crescents into her palm as she fought to keep her voice steady. “Then it falls to us to make them hold. To strengthen what is good, not surrender to cynicism.”
He scoffed faintly, making her feel naive and foolish. “You think you can reform the Senate.”
“I know I can,” she said, despite the festering doubt in the back of her mind.
Damrin’s mouth curved into a condescending smile. “We’ll see if Coruscant makes a liar of you, yet.”
Mon Mothma did not forget easily.
Not words, not arguments, not the way Professor Damrin’s gaze had fixed on her as though the rest of the hall had ceased to exist.
For the next several months, his lectures continued as before—dense, incisive, threaded with provocations designed to unsettle complacent thought. But to Mon, it was different now. Each time his questions circled around the failures of Republic diplomacy, each time he invoked pacifism as a weakness, she heard them as if spoken directly to her. She answered when called upon, but never again did their exchanges quite reach the combative edge of that first encounter. Still, her notes grew longer, more meticulous. She read beyond the assigned texts, combing the university archives until late into the night, determined not to be caught unprepared.
She did not want to admit to herself that she had begun to notice certain things about Lear Damrin that had nothing to do with his teaching. Like how he stood as well as paced with his hands clasped loosely behind his back, shoulders square, movements precise. His voice was deep, frequently somber, and carried the weight of someone who had seen more than mere history on a datapad. He was not quite young, but there was vitality in him, a restless energy beneath his reserve. A man who had lived and wrestled with contradictions, not only studied them.
She began to wonder what had shaped him. She would never admit it aloud, but she began to wait for those moments when his gaze passed briefly over her, pausing just long enough to remind her that he had not forgotten, either.