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"If your door is open tonight, I will come to you. If not, I will know you finally took my warning at last".
That was the last thing Anders said after Hawke got him to finally stop holding himself back and the two shared a passionate kiss in his clinic.
She waited anxiously in the bedroom of the estate. Standing next to the fireplace as she watched the sky got darker and darker, wondering exactly when Anders would show up.
The barking of Jake, her faithful mabari hound coming from downstairs alerted to her to someone coming through the door. She heard Anders' soft footsteps coming up the stairs, making her heart race more until he came through her bedroom door, clicking it closed behind him.
"You're here. I wasn't sure you would come", she smiled. "Justice does not approve of my obsession with you. He believes you're a distraction", Anders said, moving closer to her, "It is one of the few things on which he and I disagree" "If you hadn't come, I'd be out looking for you", Hawke smirked, the look in her eyes making it clear she wasn't kidding.
Anders' tone became a bit more somber then as he explained, "When I was in the Circle, love was only a game. It gave the templars too much power if there was something you couldn't stand to lose. It would kill me to lose you". He tried to turn away then, the idea of anything happening to Hawke more painful than anything else he'd endured.
Hawke stepped closer, "You aren't going to lose me". Anders turned his head back towards her, gently cupping her cheek with his hand, "No mage I know has ever dared to fall in love. This is the rule I will most cherish breaking". He kissed her then, not as intensely as he did back in the clinic but still with as much passion as he could muster.
Hawke took his hand, leading him towards her bed, her back hitting the mattress as Anders climbed on top of her, the two kissing over and over again, tongues tangling with each other, hands slowly discarding their clothes, tossing them to the floor until they were both fully bare to one another.
Anders took a moment to drink Hawke in, his brown eyes almost fully dark with desire for her as the candlelight softly illuminated each curve of her body. "You're beautiful", he whispered, earning a smile from the warrior beneath him, her hand running through the golden locks of his hair, loosening it from the tie that held it back, allowing it to fall down. "And you Anders, are the most amazing thing I've ever seen", she said in awe, kissing him deeply.
They let their hands run over each other slowly, exploring every inch of one another, fully relishing in this moment after spending the last few years pining, wondering what could be.
This was unlike anything either of them could possibly imagine though. Soft moans filling the bedroom as Anders began to worship her with kisses, travelling from Hawkes lips to her neck, nibbling a bit into the tender flesh there. Then going down to her collar bone, to her breasts, taking one into his mouth, lightly sucking on it as his hand busied itself with her other one, then switching sides.
His kisses then went lower and lower, over her thighs, getting closer to her center. He could see it was already wet, gaining a bit of satisfaction at the fact he'd gotten Hawke this riled up already. Anders ran a single finger along her wetness, making her let out a small, "Ah!", at the sensation. He then got to work, slowly moving his fingers around her folds, his thumb rubbing against her clit, gathering her slickness before slowly putting a finger inside of her.
He pumped his finger slow at first, relishing in the way her walls contracted around it, his mind already imagining just how it would feel around his cock. He shook the thought away, wanting to focus on Hawke's pleasure first. And by the sound of her breathing, he knew she was close. Focusing a bit of mana into his fingertips, he sent a small jolt of electricity into her body, causing Hawke to keen. "Oh f-fuck.. Anders. What was that?". He chuckled, "A little trick I invented. Do you like it?". Hawke could only nod in response, it giving him all the permission he needed to do it again, his fingers pumping at a faster rate as he brought her to her first orgasm.
The sound Hawke made was music to Anders' ears. It was one he knew he'd never be able to forget. He gave her a few moments to come down from the orgasm before he ducked his head between her legs, his tongue slowly lapping up her juices. He sealed his lips around her pussy, sucking lightly on her clit as his tongue got to work inside of her. The taste of her overwhelming his senses as his hands gripped her thighs to steady her as he ate her out. Hawke's hand found his hair, tugging at it as he enjoyed himself, his stubble rubbing against her in just the right way. She felt herself getting close again, hips bucking against Anders' face until she came for a second time.
He kept lapping at her for a few moments more, only letting up when Hawke whimpered from over-stimulation. Crawling back up the bed to kiss her, allowing Hawke to taste herself on his lips.
Anders' cock was throbbing at this point, him neglecting it this whole time. But seeing Hawke flushed and content like this made it impossible to hold back any longer. He lined himself up with her entrance, eyes making contact with hers, "Are you ready for me?". Hawke nodded, "Yes. I'm ready. Please fuck me Anders".
Not needing to be told twice, Anders pushed himself inside her, the couple groaning in bliss once his hips were fully flushed with hers. He took a moment to brace himself before his hands gripped Hawke's hip and he began thrusting.
Hawke had wondered, after the kiss in the clinic just how loud Anders would be during sex, and now she got her answer. The mages moans seeming to bounce off the walls of the bedroom, no doubt anyone in the house would hear it too. But Hawke did not care. She knew how careful Anders had to be during his time in the Circle, that any moments of intimacy he had stolen there was often hurried and quiet affairs. So to hear him be so passionate now showed that he felt safe with her.
Her hands found their way to Anders' shoulders, kissing him as his thrusts got faster, her choosing to match his tempo with thrusts of her own, causing him to grunt into her mouth. She knew she wouldn't last long like this, having already came twice already. "Anders.. Anders I'm so c-close fuck.. Could you.. Could you do your trick again?". Anders smirked at her, bringing his fingers to her delicate bundle of nerves, "As you wish".
He began sending little jolts of electricity to her clit again, and after a few more thrusts Hakwe came with a loud cry. The way her walls squeezed around Anders cock as she did brought him closer and closer to the edge, "I'm gonna cum.. Where.. W-where do you want it?" "Inside. Please Anders inside". He nodded his head, slamming over and over again until he spilled deep inside of Hawke, painting her insides with his spend.
The couple panted for a while, bodies coated in sweat as Anders brought his forehead to Hawke's. A part of him still could not believe she had left her door open for him, but he was so glad that she did.
He slowly pulled out, bringing Hawke into his arms as they laid on the bed. He idly ran his fingertips along Hawke's skin, his eyes looking over her. His thoughts soon drifted back to reality though, he was still an apostate after all, which could bring all kinds of danger to Hawke. Still, he could not stop himself from telling her the words he'd been longing to say for all these years. "I love you. I've been holding back from saying that. You should have a normal life, not be tied down to a fugitive with no future. But I don't ever want to leave you". Hawke ran her hand through his hair, cupping his cheek. "Don't ever leave". Anders smiled, "Do you mean that? Would you have me here, living with you? Would you tell the world, the knight commander, that you love an apostate and you will stand beside him?". Her hand went to his his own then, squeezing it softly, "I want you right here. Until the day we die".
Anders let out a small sigh of relief, a part of him was still convinced he'd only end up hurting her in the end, but right now, he wasn't going to listen, instead choosing to follow his heart, "For three years, I have lain awake every night, aching for you. I'm still terrified I'll wake up".
He kissed her once more, his arms moving more securely around Hawke so that she was laying against his chest. He gave her another kiss on the top of her head before allowing himself to fully relax, the couple falling into a peaceful slumber withing each others arms.