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"Lololoshka... Lololoshka..." I can hear someone calling my name out from a distance, while everything else is a dark void.
"Lololoshka wake up.." I open my eyes ajar, everything is bright and I can see a blurry silhouette of Berengariy and Never in front of me.
"Lo, how are you feeling? Does your head hurt? Would you like to have some of my special mushroom soup to make you feel better?" The old alchemist bursts out with many questions. Concerned and worried for me, his eyebrows furrow and raise up in a empathetic way, he looked ready to do just about anything to help me out in my state right now. I simply nod and open my eyes fully open to see clearer, I deny his mushroom soup not wanting to even know what he makes them from or what it tastes like.
I was back in my dream island, lying down on the floor on top of a soft blanket in my house with a human and a crow in front of me, I turned my head to the left to stop my gaze at an alternate reality me - JDH. I sit up properly looking at his sleeping self, no matter how much he likes or dislikes me I still couldn't help but to feel worried for him. Me and him were, I guess, similar; we had the same black trainers with white trousers, white coats, and most importantly our faces which was impossible to find a difference in. And even with this many physical similarities there were still things that made us special, my glasses and scarf were the colour of the sky while his were an orange colour like a torch.
If he was the scientific and logical me, then I was the emotional and friendly one.
Berengariy makes a loud empathetic sigh, he steps up to me and pats my shoulder in a gentle and comforting way.
"It seems that the conjoining of you two hit him harder than you.. It might take half a skifos** for him to wake up finally.. he should be left alone and taken care of while in this state. Speaking of-" I know what he is going to ask me so I quickly cut him off.
"I will take care of him Berengariy don't worry, I'm not planning of going anywhere right now anyway." I reassure him that I won't leave his side and will be there for him. With that Berengariy leaves with a small nod while Never, not even saying a thing, simply follows his lead behind.
After Never and Berengariy leave I scooch myself closer to JDH to look at him properly and see how he is feeling. His breathing is completely normally but I could see how his eyebrows where slighter closer to eachother then usual and he had a small pout on his face. What was he dreaming about there? Who am I kidding - it's JDH - propably thinking about something scientific like he alwas does. It's like he never gives himself to rest. After thinking about how busy he is all the time I feel slightly bad like I haven't been helping everyone enough.
"Guess you are going to be the patient this time Mr John.." I say out loud even though I know he can't answer me or even hear me. Afterwards, I carry him like a heavy bag on my shoulder and plop him on to my bed to make him more comfortable. There is no way in hell am I carrying him all the way to his bed up the stairs in the stupid castle.
"Enjoy being in your new bed for now.." It was weird to talk with someone who will ignore you and I sounded slightly crazy to say the least. "What am I actually supposed to do when someone is not feeling well?" I ask myself outloud scratching my head but that didn't seem to work. I guess I will just have to improvise and do what feels right to me. I sit down on the floor next to him rethinking life choices and wondering why I actually agreed to his stupid request, after taking a deep breath to clear my mind I sit down on the edge of the bed and check his temperature. Putting the back of my hand on his forehead I could feel his body being obviously above the average temperature.
I leave my house, going to the center island and up the massive tree/nest to Never to ask him a little help. I just hope he isn't going to be complaining about anything right now and won't be moody when helping me get a bucket and a small towel. I never realised how untalkative crows were before getting here so I guess that's one reason why it wasn't as bad of an idea to get here.
"Hey Never, can you help me out here?" I ask him in a quiet unsure voice, although he grumbles and groans(well I guess cawed) he actually turned around and sat up on his bed to listen to me "Do you think you could make me a bucket of water and a small towel, please?".
Never didn't ask any questions and simply made it for me "caw- You will find it next to your bed. Now leave and help your sick foolish friend." I nod my head and thank him before coming back to JDH, the bucket of water and cloth is already next to him on the nightstand. How did he know where to exactly place it? I will never know what's going on inside that Crow's head. Nonetheless I sit down next to JDH and put the damp towel on his forehead gently pressing it down before leaving it on his forehead to cool him down. I stay by his side looking at him, there was a some sort of deja vu feeling with him being taken care of, as if I was in his place once..
"San-Fran.. wait I remember I had a problem with my Spark, yes, and I was in the same position as John right now.. Is this what he is feeling right now? Maybe the conjoining of us actually made us waste some of our energy but his clearly more than mine." I quickly pick up my journal from the back pocket of my trousers and write the idea down to talk about it later with John when he wakes up.
A soft sigh breaks the silence I see JDH murmur something but it's too quiet for me to even hear a single sound, I lean slightly closer to him to see if he was to do something else and this time I could maybe comprehend anything he is saying.
"John, you okay?" It was a clearly stupid question, and I realised that, for two reasons: One, he is obviously not okay after what happened and two, he is unconscious right now. Silently face palming myself I look at John when I see him turning onto his side so we are face to face now, I pick up the towel after it slips from his forehead and I place it gently on top of my nightstand. It's been silent for some time after my question so I knew he was 100% still sleeping. There isn't much I can do for him but nonetheless I try my best to be helpful, I cover him with my blanket and scootch him closer to the wall so I can sit down on the bed and just in case if he happens to roll down this way again.
After internally panicking about what I can do for a hot second, I move closer to the side of my bed to sit down properly and simply stay next to him. Berengariy said that in an hour he should be awake by now, all I'll have to do is just wait for the time to fly past. I was daydreaming before that being abruptly interrupted, JDH was rolling to my side again but now putting his arm on top of me. To say that I was surprised would be an understatement, I did not expect him to ever do something like this and it.. didn't actually feel that bad. I felt my chest warming up and it felt nice, this was a new side of him and I was fine with that. Trying to give the 'affection' back, I glide my fingers through his hair to move it out of his face. JDH seems to lean closer to my hand and murmur something like.
"That felt good." trying to snuggle my hand, attempting to stay closer to it and moving his hand from my stomach to place it on top of my hand. Out of nervousness I freeze trying not to move too abruptly for him. He is in obviously in deep sleep - and he should be after what happened to him - however, I couldn't help but still be as gentle as I can with all my actions. I take a deep breath to cool my cheeks.
I would be lying to myself if I was to say that this didn't make me feel special in some way, but there is no way I think about this and tell JDH about this. His most likely reaction would be of pure disgust and nothing else, it's sorted then, I will be ignoring any feelings that aren't connected to me hating him and will be planning to not open up to him about anything. Get back on track Lololoshka. I need to focus at what is at hands and happening in the present, not the future, because compared to what's happening now I don't think it will be that important.
Now, I either leave my hands where it is or I can continue moving my fingers through his fingers... never thought it would be this hard to choose something. Fuck it. I will be playing with his hair and cross fingers that he doesn't just wake up midway while I am doing it. Unsurely, I take his hand that's on mine and put it gently to his side before taking off his glasses and playing with his hair the same way I was before. His hair was an amazing brown colour which looked like it had strands of gold in it from the sun, it was like moving through butter, his hair was so smooth and honestly I wish my hair was as perfect as his. I went up and down doing the same motion on different parts of his head, the front, the crown, the back, his sides.
Clearly I wasn't the only one enjoying this as John was simply sighing and shifting closer, he looked like a cat just wanting some attention and it was kinda adorable. I couldn't help the light chuckle which left my mouth when I thought of him as a small cat, it was just so surprising to see him act this way it was kinda funny(and cute). I graze his skin with my knuckles from the nape of his neck back to his hair, it was quite therapeutic and I wish I could've stayed in this moment. This was the first time where me and him weren't arguing about simple disagreements and actually stayed in silence. It felt nice, being with him like this felt nice.
My eyes happened to start feeling to relaxed and slowly closing, it felt like time was slowing down now nothing else mattered but this. I could feel my cheeks going slightly pink while thinkinh about what I was actually doing to John - Don't get me wrong I wasn't trying to complain in anyway - our breathing was synchronised and we were both relaxed, I wasn't asleep though but I knew that I would be soon since my movement slowed down. My hand slided back to the front if his head moving any hair which was covering his eyes before going to sleep in whatever position I was at that point by only hearing our breathing and his sighs. I just hope when he wakes up he doesn't fight me.
** Skifos is equal to 2 hours and 3 minutes