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“Why do rich people have so many stairs..?”
Date groans a little as he steps up the stairs, Ryuki may be a twink but that doesn’t mean carrying the man up the stairs on his back is any easier.
“Thanks again for this Mr.Date..” Ryuki mumbles half heartedly.
“It’s not a big deal, it’s the least I can do. Considering you wouldn’t be in this state if it wasn’t for my blunder.” He laughs a little.
Ryuki groans. “If you need porn to get a boost in battle you should bring it yourself..”
“I usually do! I just don’t take mags around with me to most missions. And it’s not like I was expecting we would get jumped by a fuck ton of guys.” Date sighs.
“Me either…” Ryuki mumbles.
His entire body hurts like hell, and he knows numerous bruises are already forming on his body. Especially his back and stomach, he can’t remember how many hits and kicks to the stomach and back. He wasn’t faring much better when it came to his upper and lower body either.
“I’m just glad Mizuki was able to come help clean up the mess we couldn’t.” Date states, finally reaching the top of the seemingly endless stairs of Ryuki’s mansion.
Thankfully Tama was already in the bedroom, she had left the door open so Date could get in easier. She was already preparing ice, bandages and other such things to treat Ryuki’s wounds.
“..Are you mad at me?” Ryuki asks quietly.
Date pauses. “A little, considering how I threatened you last time you pulled a stunt like that. Y'know the whole ‘taking a hit for me and scaring the ever loving shit out of me’ thing.”
“Sorry..I just didn’t want you to get hurt badly. You’ve got people to take care of.” He mumbles.
Date audibly grumbles upon hearing that statement. Ryuki knows it’s because it’s the truth, he doesn’t worship Date like he used to or love him but he still cares for his superior. So of course he panicked when someone was rushing at him with a spiked metal bat Ryuki went to push Date away, he was facing away after all.
“We’ll talk about this later, I’m sure you’ll get an earful from Tama after she’s done treating your wounds.” Date goes into Ryuki’s room and sets the man on the bed.
“I don’t know why you carried me, I can walk on my own..” Ryuki mumbles.
Date shakes his head, the stubbornness of his junior will never cease to amaze him. “Ryuki, you got hit in the back of your leg with a hammer that could have easily broken your bone completely. I’m not letting you walk on your own.”
“Sorry..” Ryuki mutters quietly.
“Save it for later.” Date pats Ryuki on the head.
Ryuki would usually like being patted on the head but right now he can’t think about anything besides his own incompetence. If he had just noticed the group sooner none of this would have happened, and if it didn’t happen Date wouldn’t have gotten hurt and Mizuki wouldn’t have come to clean up their mess.
And even if they had gotten in the fight if he noticed sooner they would have been able to-
Ryuki suddenly feels colder, and snaps back to reality. Tama was right above him, taking off his clothes.
“Since you aren’t wasting any time getting him naked I’ll be going. I’ll come check on you tomorrow.” Date waves before ducking out of the room, walking with a clear limp.
Seeing that limp makes Ryuki’s overwhelming feelings of guilt worsen. And it was clearly painted all over his face considering Tama places a kiss on Ryuki’s forehead softly.
“As angry as I am with you, it’s not your fault. So please stop letting yourself drown in guilt.” She sighs.
“Sorry..” Ryuki whispers, it feels like that’s the only thing he’s been saying recently.
Tama grumbles a little and continues to strip the clothes off of Ryuki. She didn’t have to say anything for Ryuki to know how upset she was with him. He opens his mouth to say sorry but he knows it’ll only make Tama angrier.
“I’m glad I can at least do this for you, considering you refuse to go to the hospital.” Tama comes back over to the bed with a variety of medical supplies.
Ryuki closes his eyes, going to the hospital would only make him feel worse. “Thank you..for not making me go to the hospital.”
“It’s only because you don’t have any seriously pressing injuries right now, you were lucky that nothing fractured and only bruised. If not I would have dragged you to the hospital.” She states plainly as her gentle hands cup Ryuki’s face.
Her hands are so warm and soft, he can’t help but lean into her touch even if his pathetic self was only being held like this so she can examine his face closely.
Tama smiles a tiny bit and rubs part of Ryuki’s cheek with her thumb. “Yeah, I’m warm aren’t I? Don’t worry I’ll hug and cuddle you until you feel all better once I’m done treating you.”
Her words are so soft and sweet, they made him yearn for nothing more than to be gently embraced by her while she talks to him in that voice she reserves for moments like this. He knows he doesn’t deserve it but he yearns for it nonetheless.
Tama cups one of his cheeks in her hand while the other applies bandages to the scrapes and cuts on his face, there wasn’t much she could do for the forming black eye besides make sure it wasn’t bleeding.
When she’s done applying the bandages she retracts both of her hands and a small whine leaves Ryuki’s throat. He knows it’s extremely pathetic but he couldn’t stop it, and he knows Tama heard it.
“It’ll only be a little bit longer, try and endure it until then.” She says softly while applying thin ice to the bruised areas (which there were a lot of.)
Ryuki shivers, almost his entire body was covered in ice packs and the like. Sure it was the price to pay for his stupidity but that doesn’t mean he has to like it.
Tama sits on the edge of the bed and places her hand in Ryuki’s hair. He had taken a few hits to the head but thankfully none of them were too bad. She begins to massage his scalp gently while humming softly, it was genuinely helping with the pain but this gentle care only worsens his feelings of guilt.
Tama’s face saddens, she may not be able to read his mind but it’s clear to Ryuki that his expression shows how he feels clear as day. A sharp pang of guilt spreads through his chest, of course he deserves to feel the guilt considering how his actions led to Date getting injured when he has another important case to work on along with a family to take care of.
He turns his face to the side so he doesn’t have to look at Tama’s concerned and saddened expression.
“Kuruto…” Tama says quietly, her voice almost a whisper.
Ryuki stays silent, he doesn’t deserve the kindness and love she’s giving him right now. It was all his fault he ended up like this, so he should deal with it himself. But he’s such an attention whore that he can’t even bring himself to tell her no.
He closes his eyes hoping she’ll realize she shouldn’t waste her time on him right now and go help Date with something...But he also can’t stand the thought of being left alone right now, he knows it wouldn’t end well. But that’s not Tama’s fault, it’s his fault for being a complete and utter fuck up who’s first thought when he fails is to cut himself. He's working on it and has stayed clean for a few months but he’s such a fuck up lately that he might not even be able to keep that going.
Even before this he fumbled multiple things before it, his sobriety has been fluctuating something fierce, he hasn’t been able to open up to his therapist like Tama wants him to, and coming to terms with the fact his brain is extremely broken. He doesn’t want to die but if someone needed to get hurt and it’s a choice between the fuckup and the man who just reunited with his family, it’s logical to choose the fuckup.
Tama suddenly removes her hand from his head and gets up from the bed, making him snap out of his thoughts. She removes the ice packs from his body and puts them in a bucket before leaving the room with it.
”She’s finally leaving..” He thinks to himself.
He told himself that it makes sense she would, but now that she is he wants to chase after her and beg her not to leave. He was already scared of her leaving when she was just an Aiball but now that she can touch him and walk away it’s even worse. He feels so cold, he’s not even touching ice anymore, tears start to well up in his eyes and he starts to hyperventilate.
Then something soft envelops him.
“It’s ok baby, I’m right here. I was just getting some things.” Tama says softly.
“Ah..” he mutters.
He looks up at Tama with tear filled eyes before turning his head around and wiping them away before more could spill. But before he can apologize Tama gently grabs his face and cups it in her hands.
“Just give me a minute and I’ll help you get it all out.” She whispers sweetly before letting go of his face.
He reaches out to her but gets stopped by something else warm, it’s a long sleeved sweater that Tama puts on him. She smiles after putting it on him then pins him to the bed and lifts his legs up.
“I-I can dress myself-“ Ryuki manages to get out between stutters. His face was pretty red already.
Tama shakes her head. “Consider it punishment for what happened today. I’m going to take care of you all night, and in the morning I’m gonna take care of you too, and all day after that. And you're not gonna be able to do anything about it!”
Tama slowly slides the sweatpants up his legs as he avoids making eye contact with her. Once she was done she flops next to him and wraps her arms around his waist gently before pulling him close.
“…Warm..” Ryuki whispers as he immediately buries himself in her. He was in pain but her warmth filled his body, his legs wrapped around hers, his arms wrapped around her torso, and his face buried in her chest.
Tama rests her hand in his hair and starts gently petting his head while humming softly. Ryuki could feel Tama’s affection seeping into his body and head as the pain slowly melts away. She's so warm and soft, and now that he’s in her arms everything seems to be melting away..
Tears begin to roll down Ryuki’s cheeks before he can even register the fact he’s crying.
“A-ah sorry- I don’t know why I’m-“ he starts to speak but gets cut off.
“Shhh it’s ok Kuruto, let it all out. Tell me everything that weighs on your mind.” Tama tilts his head up so she’s looking her in the eyes.
Tama’s eyes stare into his own, they’re more beautiful than any gem on the planet and they’re staring down on him with pure affection, love and concern.
When Tama looks at him like that, any type of resistance to keep his emotions inside melts away.
“I-I’m sorry! I know you're mad I got hurt but- I didn’t want someone important to get hurt, he has a lot to take care of and I’m still struggling with stupid shit! I’m fucking pathetic, I can barely stay sober even though I promised I’d go clean but every time I fuck up the urge is so overpowering.” He sobs into her.
Tama pets his head softly as she listens.
“A-and even if I was forgiven by others I’ve barely been able to forgive myself for all the sins I committed. Everyone tells me not to worry about it but every time I think about it the hatred and guilt flows through me and I can stop it!” He sobs harder. “How can I forgive myself for everything after only a handful of months?? I messed people’s lives up for much longer, I just..” his arms wrap around Tama harder as he clings to her.
“I’m just so pathetic, I can't even do therapy right! I know you're upset. I'm not opening up like you want me to but I can’t stand the thought of burdening anyone else with how awful of a person and pathetic I am. I want to get better, I want to live, I want to forgive myself, I want to stay sober but I just- I can’t!” He shouts. “I’m not strong enough…and because I’m still as pathetic as always I didn’t notice the trap and we got ambushed. Mr.Date could have gotten seriously hurt and he hasn’t been back home for that long…I owe it to Mizuki, Hitomi, Iris, and everyone else.”
Everything spills out while Tama listens silently, holding him close and petting his head. He knows she’s going to be mad but he can’t stop, once he started there was no going back. He can’t stop sobbing into her and clinging onto her, there’s a mess all over her shirt but she doesn’t seem to care.
“Kuruto, it’s ok..” Tama cups Ryuki’s tear and snot ridden face in her hand gently. “It’s ok you're still struggling, it hasn’t been that long since everything ended. Nobody expected things to go smoothly, you spent 6 years falling into insanity and depression with nobody but me to help you. Of course it’s going to be hard to get sober, of course it's going to be hard to stop cutting, of course it’ll be hard to open up. You aren’t pathetic for struggling, you struggling means you're really trying, and everyone can see and appreciate the effort.”
Ryuki sniffles “Even if that’s true..everything today is still my fault, and Mr.Date got hurt because of it..”
Tama sighs, making Ryuki’s heart sink. He knows it’s his fault it will hurt even more than his wounds.
“It’s not your fault, none of us were expecting anyone to be there. And they were all wearing invisibility suits! So when we went to scan for people we got caught off guard, it’s the fault of the person who leaked the information!” She huffs.
“I’m sorry-“
“If you apologize one more time I’m calling Date and asking him if it’s your fault, to which he will say no and lecture you for an hour about it.” Tama states plainly.
“…Ok..” he mumbles softly. “Even if today isn’t my fault, everything else still stands..”
“No it doesn’t, you're struggling but you're trying. And because you’re even trying you aren’t pathetic, someone pathetic wouldn’t even try to better themselves. They also wouldn’t even want to get better either.” She states.
She kisses the top of his forehead gently. “You aren’t pathetic, and even if you do stumble and repeat old mistakes I know you're trying your hardest.”
Tama’s words slowly sink in and Ryuki begins to cry again, but he nods and accepts her words. He didn’t fully believe them but like she says he is trying to improve himself and that’s why he’s struggling so much.
“T-thank you I-I’m sorry…” Ryuki sniffles as his sobs start to subside a little.
Tama shakes her head. “You don’t have to apologize, just accept what I’m saying.”
“O-ok..” Ryuki whispers as he gets pulled closer by Tama. He’s still scared of failure and feels like he’s not deserving of the love and care Tama is giving him. But Tama’s words and actions have started to soothe his thoughts.
The two stay close like that for a little, Ryuki letting out the tears he has left to cry while Tama holds him gently and listens to anything he has to say.
After a while Ryuki stops crying and the two just stay like that, holding each other in silence. But Tama is the first one to break the silence.
“Hey Yuki, I’m gonna go change my shirt since it’s covered in tears and snot.” She lets go of Ryuki and sits up. “It’s getting late anyways I should change into a nightgown.”
Ryuki nods as he (sadly) lets her go, now that Tama wasn’t giving her warmth and love the pain he had been ignoring for the past hour shot through his body like lightning.
Ryuki groans and curls up into a ball, it was unbearable now that he didn’t have anything else to distract him from it. Tears well up in his eyes as he grips the bedsheets. Thankfully this doesn’t last long because Tama places a hand on his shoulder gently.
“What’s wrong?” She asks softly.
Ryuki looks up at her, she looks like an angel in the light. Her beautiful white hair cascades down her shoulders while she wears a beautiful slightly sheer white lace nightgown.
“It just hurts..a lot..” He mumbles, blushing slightly from how stupid it was that he only remembered he’s been hurt because Tama left.
“Ah I see, I should probably have given you these earlier..” Tama walks into the bathroom then comes back out with a glass of water and some medicine.
Ryuki groans as he sits up and shakily takes the pills. Swallowing was a little hard after getting strangled but he’ll deal with it, especially considering how hopefully he’ll feel better after taking these.
“There we go, that should make you feel better..” Tama takes the glass and puts it on the table before pulling Ryuki back into her arms.
Ryuki winces in pain at first but after a few seconds he’s clinging to her for dear life.
Tama chuckles a little as she pulls him onto her lap and places his face on her chest. “I’m not going anywhere, don't worry.”
He nods and closes his eyes, trying to focus on her warmth. But he can’t, even after telling Tama everything his thoughts they won’t stop tormenting him. He clings to Tama harder and begins to shake a little, he just wishes his brain would shut up and stop telling him that Tama is lying to him, and that he isn’t even close to atoning for his sins.
He grips onto Tama’s shoulders and begins to tremble harshly.
Tama sighs and holds him closer. “Still having bad thoughts? What am I going to do with you..”
“I’m sorry..” Ryuki mumbles.
“Don’t apologize, I’m not mad. I just want to make you feel better and empty your head.” She states.
Ryuki shakes his head. “It’ll go away on its own, you don’t have to worry-.”
He begins to move away from her a little, the last thing he wants to do after such an awful day is burden her even more than he already has.
Tama pulls him back into an embrace. “It won’t, you know it won’t. Just let me help you stupid.”
“Sorry-“
“And no more apologizing!” She flicks Ryuki’s forehead gently.
Ryuki nods. “Ok ok..I’ll stop and listen to you.”
“Good boy, now what should we do..you aren’t exactly in any shape for any rope stuff given your injuries, or anything strenuous with your body..and you're really exhausted so I doubt you’d want to do anything energy intensive like playing games…” Tama mumbles as she thinks about something to help Ryuki relax.
Ryuki stays silent and nuzzles himself into her body, as long as he can stay with her he won’t object to anything as long as it’s not painful.
Tama notices the nuzzling and smiles. “That’s it! We can do that!”
Ryuki looks up at her confused. “What do you mean?”
Tama grins. “Well, your whole body is hurt. So why don’t I use my body to help you relax? And I don’t mean sex. I think you know what I mean~.”
“Your body..? Aren’t we already cuddling?” He asks.
“We are, but that’s not what I mean. I’ll just spell it out for you since you're dense. You can stay close to me while I put your face in my chest, and you can do some sucking if you want. You like doing that a lot, and it makes you melt~.” She giggles and smiles down at him.
A large blush spreads across his face. “T-that’s..I mean..” Ryuki stutters and hides his face in a pillow. He’s not going to tell her that she’s wrong, or that it wouldn’t make him melt and relax. But it’s just embarrassing.
Tama sighs. “Cmon, it’s just us, it's not like anyone will know. You don’t need to do it, it’s just an idea. You can tell me if you don’t want to.”
Ryuki buries his face farther into the pillow, it’s a good idea that’ll work to take his mind off things. He just knows if anyone finds out he’d never be able to look anyone in the face if they find out he likes to suck on Tama’s boobs to feel comforted and relaxed.
“..Promise nobody will know?” He whispers.
“I promise.” Tama pats his head gently.
Ryuki lifts his head up from the pillow and looks at her. “Ok then..it’ll probably work but you already know that.” He mumbles, already blushing up to the tips of his ears.
Tama smiles sweetly. “I know Yuki, don’t worry I’ll make you feel better. Just relax.” She slips down the top of her nightgown.
Tama pulls him into a hug, he’s laying on her stomach while she’s propped up against a few pillows. Ryuki lays his face on her chest, her skin feels so warm and soft.
“Just relax..” Tama whispers while gently petting his hair.
Ryuki lays there for a little, just taking in her warmth. He already feels a little better being so close to her, nothing separating them. But eventually he does give into his desires and takes one of Tama’s boobs into his mouth, sucking softly while she pets his head.
He wraps his arms around her waist and she wraps her legs around his back. A small purr comes out of Ryuki's throat, much to Tama’s amusement.
The flesh is soft and warm in his mouth, the warmth spreads through his mouth and body. His thoughts start to disintegrate and his eyes flutter shut.
She rubs his cheek gently with one hand. “There we go…just like that, relax and let yourself forget about everything.”
He pulls away and pants a little, his entire face flushed and his eyes half lidded. He leans in and kisses Tama on the lips, he already feels his worries and thoughts leaving his head.
Tama smiles. “It’s working already isn’t it? I told you it’d work.”
Ryuki nods and flops back down onto Tama and begins to suck again which is enough of an answer for Tama.
Ryuki continues to suck as he presses himself more into her body, forgetting anything besides her warmth as she moans softly, pets his head and says honeyed words to him.
Time quickly passes by while he sucks and accepts Tama’s words and love. Eventually Ryuki stops and lays his head on her chest, panting softly with eyes closed.
“Mm..seems like you're finished, how are you feeling my love?” Tama quietly says as she cups his head in her hands.
Ryuki nuzzles his face into her hands. “I love you..”
Tama giggles. “That’s not what I asked but I love you too. It looks like it worked though, I can tell there’s not a thought in that head of yours~.”
He cuddles closer to her as she relaxes her position, freeing Ryuki from the leg trap she placed him in.
“Tama..” he whispers, his voice floaty and breathless. Tears in his eyes and a blush covering his entire face.
He looks adorable like this, and if it wasn’t for how injured he is Tama would have pounced on him and pinned him to the bed.
“Yes?” She asks, sitting up and fixing her nightgown.
Ryuki climbs into her lap and wraps his arms around her waist. “Can you help me?”
Tama puts two and two together after feeling a poke at her thigh. She honestly expected this to happen, it usually does when they do stuff like this.
“I said I’d take care of you, didn’t I?” She asks, sliding down his pants and boxers. “I’ll help you, just stay here in my arms and it’ll be ok.” She whispers into his ear.
Ryuki clings to her and rests his head on her shoulder. “I love you..”
“I love you too baby, just tell me what you want and you can have it.” She whispers.
“I want your warmth..” he mumbles.
Tama blushes a little, she didn’t expect him to ask for anything given his condition. But who is she to deny him what he wants after such an awful day?
Tama pulls down her panties and positions him on her lap correctly. “Alright, you can have my warmth. You’ve been through so much today, it’s only fair.” She kisses his cheek. “Just stay in my arms and move with me, and it’ll feel good I promise.”
Ryuki nuzzles closer, his body pressed right up against her. “I wanna stay in your arms..don’t let me go please..” he mumbles.
She chuckles a little, it’s clear as day to her that his head is empty and that any pain he has is being ignored in favor of need. “I won’t let go, don’t worry.” She smiles and kisses his forehead.
Tama slowly pushes him inside of her, her breath hitches as it does. The position is awkward but despite that Ryuki’s cock fills her as perfectly as ever.
Ryuki lets out a small whine from the feeling of entering. “Tamaaa,,”
“Is something wrong?” She asks softly.
Ryuki wraps his arms and legs around her tighter. “I love you..”
Tama chuckles a little, pretending like her face isn’t heating up. “I love you too Kuruto, so just relax and let me take care of you.”
He nods and nuzzles his head into the crook of her neck. “Please be gentle..”
“Don’t worry, I’ll be gentle. All you need to do is relax..” she whispers in his ear softly.
Tama places one hand on his head and begins to gently stroke his hair while supporting his body with the other. She moves his hips to meet hers, making sure that his cock is moving smoothly so as to not inflict any pain.
The soft sound of flesh meeting flesh begins to fill the room, along with Ryuki’s soft moans and mewls as Tama gently bounces on his cock. His voice is soon joined by hers, even if she’s focusing on him she’s getting plenty of pleasure from the act as well.
Ryuki’s size was nothing to scoff at, and Tama always jokes that it fits perfectly into her like it was made for her. And that statement holds true even during times like this where she’s not specifically trying to get off, his cock fits perfectly inside her and hits her spots very well.
The sounds of their moans combine and fill the room as Ryuki clings harder and harder onto Tama, begging her to go a little faster or to come closer (as if they weren’t literally inside each other). His body slumped over, and his head laying on her breast with his mouth agape as he pants and drools.
Tama hums as she fulfills his wishes and speeds up ever so slightly, to which she’s greeted with an adorable squeaky moan from Ryuki.
“So cute~ Yuki is the cutest~” Tama hums while stroking his hair.
“Mmg- ahh,, Tama~” Ryuki calls out her name between pants and moans. Looking her directly in the eyes.
Tama blushes a little, he looked absolutely adorable like this. She wants nothing more than to ravage him but he’s in no condition for that so she simply pulls him even closer as she bounces and moves his hips.
“Such a pretty voice~” she giggles as she rubs his cheek. “I know, you don’t have to say anything. I’m close too.”
Despite doing less than usual it was still almost time for the release, she could tell by the way Ryuki moans and squirms in her arms. And by the heat that’s built up in her core.
“I wanna,, together,,” Ryuki shakily takes Tama’s hand and entwines their fingers, before thrusting into one of Tama’s sweet spots by himself.
Tama lets out a surprised moan, her face has gone fully red by this point. Ryuki sits up and kisses her before thrusting a few more times, sending them both over the edge.
Ryuki’s cum spills into Tama as he flops down onto her, his chest heaving from his panting. “I wuv youu..” he manages to get the words he’s thinking out, even if they’re quite slurred.
Tama pets his head and lays down. “I love you too Kuruto, get some rest.”
Ryuki nods softly as his eyes flutter shut, it only takes a matter of moments for him to fall asleep peacefully.
Tama chuckles as she runs her hand through his hair. “So cute~”
She cuddles him closer, because she can wait a bit to clean him up as long as he keeps sleeping peacefully.