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It all started one day in December to be honest I don't know what my father was doing there but I only know that he wishes he had never been there but we are going slowly because it seems that I disconcerted them a little
I introduce myself, my name is Fuko Shindo, my name means misfortune in case you are interested or not, I am 19 years old at the moment I write this, I am a man and my hierarchy is Alpha. He could also add that I am the pride of my father Ainosuke and my other father Langa appreciates me a little.
I have a younger stepsister named Aki, 14 years old, a splendid alpha and focused on studies, we share Langa as a father, hers, another father of hers is called Reki, I have only seen him from afar but he seems like a great guy. Then there are my other twin half-brothers Fuyu and Natsu, both 10 years old and of still unknown hierarchy, they are also Reki's children, they are identical to that man.
I envy them a little, they have two parents present and they adore them, but I have both parents absent.
But they are not to blame and neither am I, nor do I blame our parents, just a little bit, Ainosuke, but only a little bit, sometimes I'm afraid of looking like him.
I explain to you, how I was born from the beginning even before I even remember that
Ainosuke, 26, met Langa, 17, at a skater place, one was young and beautiful and the other fell in love with it.
Outside that place on a cold winter night Ainosuke proclaimed the young man as his in a dark alley, a bite on the neck as well as a rape were enough for me to come to this world, I do not feel happy to be the result of a rape but my psychologist says that I am not to blame for that
It just happened that night, my father Langa cried too much, who wouldn't? He was just a young inexperienced skater unable to stop an alpha in heat and above all he was alone and very scared.
Ainosuke was satisfied that night and waited with great emotion for the fetus inside Langa, aborting me was never an option.
“If you plan to abort it, I will make you pregnant again and again until you give me the child I long for.” That was what Ainosuke told Langa when the pregnancy test came back positive three weeks after what happened that night.
It can be said that my father was obsessed with the beauty of the young man who wanted a descendant identical to him, unfortunately for him I am alpha and unfortunately for me I am identical to my father Langa
Well let's continue
Well, Langa became pregnant with me and he had to give birth to me, obviously I was a secret to everyone Langa knew.
I was born and my father Ainosuke was splendidly happy, he almost cried with happiness when they announced that he was a healthy boy and identical to my father Langa, that was my first mistake, looking like my dear father
I grew up in a big mansion, hidden from the world, oblivious to the problems
My father Langa ran away from the mansion when I was about 2 years old.
Later, when I was 5 years old, my father faced charges of pedophilia and child rape as well as minor crimes, he only paid a few dollars and was freed.
I saw my father Langa again when I was about 8 years old, it was my birthday present, as well as a playmate named Shiro Nanjo, the son of some of my dad's friends.
Shiro is an 18 year old omega, he is my destined one and he looks a lot like his father Kaoru, I am happy to know that I will spend the rest of my life with someone as nice as Shiro but it makes me sad to think that I will never be able to meet more people apart from those close to my father Ainosuke
Well, when I turned 15 it happened for the first time, my father Ainosuke kissed me and I clearly remember that he told me “It is not common for parents and children to kiss like this but I will make an exception for you since you are identical to the love of my life.”
Afterwards he just abused me in his room, it was a terrible experience but I don't remember it much since my mind blocked it as a defense.
The abuse was constant, until Shiro confessed to me that we were destined, then I freed myself from Ainosuke's abuse and escaped from the mansion, I went to my father Langa's house with Shiro, holding hands on the 17th and I on the 18th.
Reki opened the door for us but immediately frowned and growled, I guess he smelled Ainosuke's scent inside me.
"Is my father?" I asked scared and full of agitation, Shiro held my hand warmly.
“Yes, wait a moment.” He closed the door and then Langa opened it.
“Fuko…” I pronounce my name with displeasure as if I were the cause of his bad symptoms. “Shiro, what are you doing here?”
“We want help to report Ainosuke, again” Shiro spoke for me, I was scared
“Mmm… I'm sorry guys, I already closed that page, Shiro, you can ask Kaoru to help with that, I'm sure your father will help you” And without further ado he closed the door without even turning to say goodbye to me.
“It's useless Shiro, come back
“I'm going home” I let go of his hand and walked towards the street, Shiro sighed.
“Don't give up, love…”
"Leave it like that, don't call me that, I know you don't love me, I only give your destiny, go with Giro"
Silence flooded that part of my life, Shiro cried and hugged me from behind, I guess I was very bad with him.
“They are right, when you touch a puppy too much the mother stops loving them”
I said, my father would have accepted me and helped me if only I didn't smell like Ainosuke, even though I am alpha he bit me my own father bit me and proclaimed me as his, regardless of my hierarchy I managed to preserve his mark on my neck
Then I just went home, Shiro went to his house and I never spoke to him again.
I am sitting on an armchair writing while the corpse of my dear father Ainosuke remains next to me already inert.
I guess so much abuse made me like this
It doesn't matter I'll get through it, I hear the police sirens in the distance
My stupid grandmother, my father's aunt, she must have heard my father's screams of pain as she stabbed him.
I'm just a puppy who was touched too much so much that my father Langa stopped loving me.