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The fact that I arrived to my house from the OBGYN in one piece was nothing short of a miracle, considering how violently I was sobbing the entire way. I could see Natasha right behind me, AirPod in her left ear so my niece Violet, who ride in the back of her Jeep, could not hear me in my hysteria. Natasha’s soothing voice filled my car through the Bluetooth.
“It’s okay, hun. Let it out.”
She knew there was nothing she could say to make me feel better. I was almost home and I did not want my four-year-old to see me like this, but every time I sneaked a peak at the sonogram on my passenger seat, more tears started flowing.
“Ms. Laufeyson, you are three months pregnant”.
“Pregnant?”
Pregnant?
I saw Dr. Cho’s mouth move, but could not hear a single word over the sound of my own heart beating.
Before I came into the office for my yearly check-up, I was a broke single mother trying to piece my life together after the death of my wife a month ago. In fact, this was the first day I felt strong enough to leave the house after the burial. I had received a call to confirm the appointment and thought, why not? My best friend Natasha even offered to take care of Vi in the meantime.
So there I was. Three months pregnant. A little over a month ago, I would have been over the moon. Surprised, but incredibly happy. But now? I was devastated. Devastated and alone. Well, not alone. I had an army of friends and neighbors that had taken care of me and Vi for the past month. But I was without my life partner, the mother of my children, the person I could still not imagine my life without.