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Jun Wu placed his hand on Xie Lian's shoulder. For a moment nothing happened. Then there was a sensation like lukewarm water trickling all over Xie Lian's whole body, traveling outward from his shoulder into every part of him. When it faded, he felt exactly the same as before, but Jun Wu suddenly seemed to truly tower over him, and Xie Lian's robes hung loose and ill-fitting on his frame.
"How do you feel?" Jun Wu said.
"My lord," Xie Lian said. The voice that came out of his mouth was his own voice, except that it wasn't. It was higher pitched and clearer than his own voice: a woman's voice. "I feel… rather strange."
"It may take you some time to adjust to the change. Before that, however, I need to make sure the transformation worked correctly."
"My lord?"
"To check that nothing is amiss with Xianle's new form," Jun Wu explained.
Xie Lian supposed that made sense.
"Undress, Xianle, and I will examine you."
What exactly was Jun Wu planning to examine?! "I can check," Xie Lian said quickly. "My lord need not trouble himself!"
"Is Xianle well acquainted with the female form?" Jun Wu's voice held a note of amusement.
"...No, my lord."
"Undress."
Cheeks burning, Xie Lian reluctantly began to remove his clothes. He immediately ran into a very obvious change: this form had breasts. The idea of touching them at all felt inappropriate, so he carefully avoided touching them more than necessary, even through cloth, while he removed his clothes. Far sooner than he would have liked, he stood totally naked before the Heavenly Emperor.
Jun Wu walked around him in a slow circle, his appraising gaze traveling over him from head to toe and lingering on places that made Xie Lian's cheeks grow hotter. "This form suits Xianle well," he said.
Xie Lian wasn't sure what to say to that. "Thank you, my lord?"
Jun Wu stopped just behind him and rested his hands on Xie Lian's shoulders, guiding him to face the nearby wall. "Look."
For a moment Xie Lian wasn't sure what he was supposed to be looking at, but then he realized that the wall in front of them was shimmering and wavering as though shrouded in heat haze. As he watched, a water-like ripple ran across it, revealing Jun Wu standing behind a naked woman with his hands on her shoulders. Xie Lian averted his eyes out of modesty even as the realization dawned that this was his own reflection.
"You needn't be bashful," Jun Wu said, voice colored with amusement again. "It's not improper to look at one's own body."
Curiosity won out, and Xie Lian looked.
His face still looked like his own face, but just like his voice, it was uncannily different at the same time. The resemblance was stronger than a simple family resemblance. If Xie Lian had been born female, would he have looked like this?
He had never seen a real fully naked woman before, so he didn't know quite what to expect from the rest of his body. This form was slighter than his regular body, with narrower shoulders and a slightly different shape. But the main differences were his chest, which he couldn't quite manage to look at for more than the briefest of glances, and his groin.
Logically, he had known that women had different parts than men. But seeing it… it looked as though there was simply nothing there, only a sparse thatch of hair covering an odd little cleft. Compared to his breasts, this part of his new body didn't feel too terribly immodest to look at.
"Xianle's body is pleasing to the eye," Jun Wu said, pulling him out of his thoughts. "You may continue to look while I examine it."
And then, Jun Wu slid his hands down and lightly cupped Xie Lian's breasts.
Something cool and warm at the same time squirmed in Xie Lian's stomach at the feeling of it, of Jun Wu's large warm hands touching him here. His breasts were very sensitive, much more so than his chest normally was… or perhaps it was some quality of Jun Wu's touch that made it seem that way. But either way, his skin tingled and his breaths came a bit faster. And where moments before he hadn't been able to look at his breasts in the mirror, now his eyes were irresistibly drawn to the sight of Jun Wu's hands holding them, cupping the soft swell of them.
When Jun Wu's thumb brushed deliberately over a nipple, Xie Lian gasped at the jolt of sensation.
"How does it feel when I touch you here?" Jun Wu said, and did it again.
"Um," Xie Lian said. "It's… sensitive?"
"And how does it feel?"
Xie Lian's face was hot. "It feels… strange."
Jun Wu thumbed over both nipples at once. A not unpleasant feeling tickled in Xie Lian's belly in response. "What kind of strange?"
The pieces fell into place. "It feels good," Xie Lian said, wishing he could squirm.
Jun Wu made an approving noise. "Good. It should feel pleasurable. Look, your nipples have gotten erect from the stimulation."
Xie Lian cringed. "I'm sorry, my lord!"
"No, don't be sorry. It's normal and appropriate for your body to respond this way."
It was still embarrassing, though! But Xie Lian soon got distracted when Jun Wu gently squeezed his breasts, manipulating them. It was a bizarrely captivating sight, the way the soft flesh squished painlessly under Jun Wu's fingers.
"Is it uncomfortable when I do this?" Jun Wu asked, squeezing Xie Lian's breasts more firmly.
"N-no, my lord." It didn't hurt, but for some reason it took away Xie Lian's breath anyway.
"Xianle seems interested in his new body," Jun Wu remarked. "You're watching in the mirror."
Flustered, Xie Lian looked away. "I… that's…"
Jun Wu made a faint amused sound. "Have you ever seen a woman's body before?" he asked, still holding Xie Lian's breasts.
"No, my lord."
"Such a disciplined young man, as expected of Xianle. Surely you've been curious, though? An intellectual curiosity at the very least, if not a passionate one?"
It was true that he was curious. He'd never spent a great deal of time actively thinking about it or anything, but occasionally he did wonder what the female anatomy looked like in the flesh. He had seen illustrations, so he had a vague idea of what a naked woman might look like, but the illustrations had never shown in any detail what was between a woman's legs. "A bit," he admitted.
"Would you like to see more?"
Surely Jun Wu didn't mean what it sounded like he meant, right? But Xie Lian wasn't sure what else he could mean. "My lord?"
"Come, sit down." Jun Wu guided him to sit on the floor in front of the mirror and seated himself right behind him, a warm and solid presence at Xie Lian's back. "I'll show you your new body while I examine it."
A thrill ran through Xie Lian, and his heart rate picked up. That was…! "But-!"
"'But'?"
"It's nothing, my lord." If the Heavenly Emperor himself had suggested it, then it must be okay, even if it seemed so…!
"Are you worried about propriety? Xianle needn't be concerned with such things. It isn't shameful to be familiar with your own body, and neither is it shameful for your lord to see your nudity." Jun Wu rested his hand at Xie Lian's hip, rubbing his thumb lightly over Xie Lian's skin. "Did I not grant you this form myself? How could it be improper for me to see it?" His voice was low and coaxing in Xie Lian's ear. "I only wish to examine you, to ensure that there are no problems with this body. Will you let me do that?"
Heart racing, Xie Lian nodded hesitantly.
"Good." Jun Wu's pleased tone made the mounting heavy hot feeling inside Xie Lian twinge excitingly. "Open your legs for me, facing the mirror."
Xie Lian's face grew hotter, but obediently he shifted his position and parted his legs so that he was exposed in front of the mirror. The mirror was so close that even when looking away from it, he could still see his reflection in his peripheral vision, meaning there was no way to keep from seeing the flushed-looking folds that lay between his legs.
"Even more," Jun Wu said. "Show me properly."
It felt incredibly lewd to display his body like this, but Xie Lian obeyed, spreading his legs wide.
"Good." Jun Wu shifted even closer and slid his hand from its position at Xie Lian's hip to the newly exposed area. His fingertips brushed over sensitive skin that tingled at the light touch. "How does this feel?"
"It's… sensitive?" It was hard to put words to what he was expecting when the feelings were all so novel and distracting and he was struggling to ignore the sight in the mirror. He couldn't even try to ignore bodily sensations in order to focus, because the bodily sensations were one of the things he needed to focus on.
"Mm." Jun Wu traced the contours, finding places that were even more sensitive. It felt as though the whole area was flushing with blood in response to the Heavenly Emperor's touch, similar to the feeling of getting an erection. Xie Lian could feel his quickened heartbeat through his whole body and especially between his legs.
"How does your body feel right now?" Jun Wu said, as though reading Xie Lian's mind. Or could he perhaps tell that Xie Lian was aroused just by seeing and touching him? A shameful giddy thrill ran through Xie Lian from the pit of his belly outwards as he considered the possibility.
"Xianle?"
"M- my lord," Xie Lian said quickly. "I think I may be getting…" He stumbled and trailed off when he reached the word, too ashamed to say it.
"You think you may be getting…?" Jun Wu's voice held the slightest hint of amusement; he clearly knew what Xie Lian was too embarrassed to say aloud. For some reason, this realization made another wave of pleasurable heat swell between Xie Lian's legs, and his toes curled both from embarrassment and… something else.
"I think I'm getting aroused," Xie Lian blurted, cheeks burning.
"You're correct. In fact, you've been aroused since I examined your breasts."
"I'm sorry, my lord!" Horrified, Xie Lian tried to close his legs reflexively, but Jun Wu easily held them open with his large hands on the insides of Xie Lian's thighs.
"Be still, Xianle." The stern quality of Jun Wu's voice made Xie Lian obey immediately. "There's no need to be ashamed," he continued, more gently. "Your body is responding naturally to the situation. Your teachers and your cultivation path have given you great shame around your sexual desires, but in truth they're nothing to be ashamed of. Sexual abstinence goes against your very nature; you were taught to suppress your nature, but it's still there underneath the restraints."
Jun Wu's voice was steady and calming, almost soothing, and despite everything, Xie Lian began to relax. He was practically in Jun Wu's lap now, sitting between Jun Wu's legs with his back against the Heavenly Emperor's front. The intimate closeness should have made him more nervous, but instead it felt strangely grounding, like he had nothing to worry about. Like he really truly could just stop being ashamed and let Jun Wu do whatever he was going to do and everything would be okay.
"Arousal is not shameful." As Jun Wu spoke, he cupped his hand over Xie Lian's crotch so that it was covered from view but also so that his palm and fingers were resting lightly but firmly against it. For a reason that Xie Lian didn't understand, this gesture and the warmth of the Heavenly Emperor's palm pressed against his genitals made him go all loose and relaxed in Jun Wu's hold as a feeling akin to warm relief flooded him.
Jun Wu continued to speak. "The female body naturally responds to being touched in certain places by becoming aroused, and it's done exactly that. This is a sign that your body is working properly. Likewise, for the other things I need to check, it's important that you don't fight your body's responses. Do you understand?"
Xie Lian thought he did. "Yes, my lord."
"Good. I need to know what you're feeling. And don't worry about your cultivation; nothing I'll be doing should hurt it. Feeling pleasure as a necessary part of an examination is different from engaging in sexual acts. If your cultivation is affected, I will personally make up for any spiritual power you might lose." As he spoke, Jun Wu slid his hand up and spread the outer parts of Xie Lian's genitals, revealing more of the flushed, wet-looking folds that lay underneath. This time, Xie Lian found himself watching in the mirror, captivated by the sight.
Jun Wu's finger brushed lightly over the folds. The sensation was almost ticklish, but underneath the ticklish feeling, aching pleasure surged up. Then he touched a place that made a jolt of something shoot through Xie Lian. It wasn't pain, but it was almost too intense for Xie Lian's mind to interpret it as pleasure. His body twitched and his breath caught.
Jun Wu's hand stilled with the pad of his finger resting against this spot. "How does it feel when I touch you here?"
"I-I'm not sure, my lord." Now that Jun Wu's hand wasn't moving, the light touch was sending pulses of pleasure through Xie Lian's body. "It… um, it feels good?"
Jun Wu made a pleased sound. "Would you like to know what I'm touching that's so sensitive? Look in the mirror and I'll show you."
Xie Lian looked. At first he wasn't sure what he was supposed to be looking at, but when Jun Wu lifted his finger away, a small round bump was revealed. Jun Wu rested his fingertip against the side of it, sending another burst of pleasure through Xie Lian.
"Do you see this little nub?"
Xie Lian nodded.
"This is what's become of your manhood."
Xie Lian's thoughts ground to a halt. That tiny thing was…?!
Of course he knew he didn't have a cock in this form! But the way Jun Wu said it… it was less like his cock was just absent temporarily while he was in this other form, and more like… like Jun Wu had turned it into this tiny useless nub of flesh. Even though Xie Lian had never used his cock and was never going to use it, it was still… it was still part of his body, part of him, and the idea of it being rendered impotent and shrunk so small that just a single fingertip could cover it was…
A thrill of confused, heightened arousal shuddered through his body as he thought about it.
Jun Wu made an amused sound. "It looks quite different, doesn't it? But it still provides pleasure when stimulated… in fact, that's the only thing it can do now."
The confused arousal surged even higher, so powerful that a tiny sound like a whimper slipped out of Xie Lian's mouth before he could bite it back.
Jun Wu didn't comment, only moved the pad of his finger against the side of… of that thing, in a very slight motion. It made a sort of burning pleasure spread through Xie Lian's body. Then Jun Wu stilled his finger again, resting it in the same spot, and the feeling faded away. "How did that feel?"
A choked noise burst out of Xie Lian's throat as he struggled to gather himself to answer. "I-it felt, good?"
"Mm. Describe the feeling to me."
This task was so unlike anything Xie Lian had done before that he floundered with no idea what to say. Jun Wu seemed to realize what was going on, because he came to Xie Lian's rescue. "Where in your body is the good feeling? I will repeat what I just did. Let yourself experience it."
This time, Xie Lian was able to follow the spread of the feeling as it moved from that spot of contact outward in waves that tingled in his buttocks and thighs and even down his calves into the soles of his feet. Haltingly, voice shaky, he described it aloud.
"Very good," Jun Wu murmured. "You're doing well."
Despite Xie Lian's embarrassment, golden warmth bloomed inside him at the unexpected praise. Being praised by the Heavenly Emperor himself was heady like nothing else, and it was impossible not to bask in the feeling.
While Xie Lian was still giddy from the praise, Jun Wu took that thing between his thumb and forefinger. Xie Lian watched in the mirror, transfixed, struck through by a mixture of confused arousal and fluttery warm relief at having this vulnerable, sensitive part of his body held like this. It felt almost proprietary, the way that Jun Wu was holding him, and he was overcome with a powerful instinctive urge to submit and let go, secure in the knowledge that he would come to no harm in the Heavenly Emperor's care.
And then Jun Wu gently squeezed the thing, pinched it between his fingers. The feeling was so sharp and intense, so bright and unexpected and pleasure-painful that it shocked a cry from Xie Lian's mouth. The pinch lasted only an instant before the pressure released and Xie Lian was left reeling with his body ringing with echoes of the sensation.
"How did it feel when I did that?" Jun Wu asked. "Did it feel good or bad?"
Good and bad weren't words that could possibly capture the feeling of that pinch. But Jun Wu still hadn't released that thing entirely; he was still holding it between thumb and forefinger, and Xie Lian knew that he would pinch it again if Xie Lian's answer wasn't satisfactory. His stomach swooped with anticipation at the prospect of it. "I don't know," he said helplessly.
Jun Wu hummed in acknowledgement. "I'll ask a different way. If I said I was going to do it again, how would you feel?"
Xie Lian shuddered as heavy heat surged through him, and something between his legs pulsed involuntarily. "I don't know."
"I barely squeezed it," Jun Wu remarked, as though half to himself. "Xianle's body is very sensitive." And then, addressing Xie Lian, "Don't worry, I'll be gentler this time."
That was all the warning Xie Lian got before Jun Wu squeezed that thing again. It was a lighter squeeze, and this time, pure pleasure shot through Xie Lian.
"How was that?" Jun Wu asked after he'd released the pressure again.
Forming words was a struggle while Xie Lian was still reeling from the pleasure. "Felt good…"
"Good. You're doing well."
Jun Wu stroked that thing gently with the pad of his thumb as though soothing it after the pinch, and Xie Lian whined in his throat. He couldn't help it. This part of his body was too sensitive! Nothing Jun Wu had done so far had hurt, but his touches were so overwhelmingly intense that noises were straining to burst out of Xie Lian's mouth and his body was fighting against his own control. "I'm sorry," he managed.
"Why are you sorry?" Jun Wu continued to touch and stroke him, making it even harder for Xie Lian to think, let alone speak.
Another moan came out when Xie Lian tried to answer. His face burned. "For- the noises…"
"Don't worry about the noises, they're normal too. I told you not to fight your body's responses, remember? Let out your voice, Xianle." He was speaking in Xie Lian's ear, low and warmly coaxing. "Let me hear how you're feeling."
Xie Lian whined at the words and the touches together. Even though the sound was so embarrassing, it released a bit of the squirmy pressure inside him.
Jun Wu's other hand, the one that wasn't touching between Xie Lian's legs, cupped one of his breasts again. When his thumb rubbed over the nipple at the same time that he caressed Xie Lian's… that thing, the pleasure was magnified, and Xie Lian moaned. The embarrassment over making such a sound hadn't exactly faded, but now that Jun Wu had told him not to hold back the noises, there was a sense of freeing, exhilarating lightness entwined with Xie Lian's shame. He was starting to acclimate to the sensations of having that thing touched as well, and instead of being almost too intense to feel good, the feeling had transformed into swelling, mind-melting pleasure.
When Jun Wu stopped touching him there, instantly cutting off the pleasure, Xie Lian made a sound of protest before he could stop himself.
"Was Xianle enjoying that? Did it feel good?"
"Yes!" Xie Lian blurted. "I mean- yes."
"That's good. It seems that your little cock is in perfect working order. But there are still more things left to examine."
Xie Lian's hopeful anticipation was dashed when Jun Wu's fingers didn't go back to touching that thing but instead moved further down, to a new, unexplored area.
"How much do you know about coitus?" Jun Wu said.
"My lord?"
"How familiar are you with the mechanics of sexual intercourse? Explain to me everything that you know. Things that you've been taught, things that you've overheard, everything. Don't worry about being vulgar, I don't mind."
Xie Lian had understood the question the first time, it was just that it was unexpected and he was still dazed from being touched as well as from abruptly not being touched. "Um… a man and a woman lie together?" he stalled.
"What else?"
"The man penetrates the woman?"
"That's correct. Can you find on your own body the place that the man penetrates?" Jun Wu moved his hand aside.
Xie Lian looked in the mirror. He could see that thing, all flushed and glistening, and he could see the folds surrounding it, but he couldn't see anything resembling a hole. That must mean it was still hidden underneath more layers. "I don't see it, my lord."
"Use your hands to help you search. Go on, it's not inappropriate."
Hesitant, Xie Lian brought his hand up and reached down to gingerly touch the puffy flesh. It felt slick and sticky at the same time, and he jerked his hand away.
"Both hands," Jun Wu said. "It won't bite."
Feeling a bit chastened, Xie Lisn obeyed. Somehow, spreading himself open with his own hands like this felt almost even lewder than being touched. He was touching a woman's genitals, an act that went directly against his training, but also they were his own very aroused genitals, and he was displaying them not only for himself to see, but for the Heavenly Emperor to see as well. Because Jun Wu was still watching, was seeing Xie Lian's genitals all exposed, was seeing everything Xie Lian could see in the mirror. Something between Xie Lian's legs pulsed pleasurably in response to this thought, and pulsed again when Xie Lian realized he could see it move.
"Have you found it yet?" Jun Wu asked, reminding him what he was supposed to be paying attention to.
Between the folds or flaps of flesh that Xie Lian was holding to the sides was something like a shallow cavity, and in the middle of the cavity lay what must be the hole. It didn't look like what he had subconsciously expected, but it had an opening in the middle. "I think so?"
"Show me. Point to where it is."
The thing between his legs gave another involuntary squeeze, and now Xie Lian saw that the hole moved when this happened, that the hole itself was what was pulsing. His breath caught, and a thrill shuddered across his abdomen and through his arms. He pointed obediently to the still-twitching hole.
"Correct." Jun Wu's much larger hands joined Xie Lian's, manipulating the flesh even closer to the hole than Xie Lian had dared touch and stretching it so the shape of the hole changed and it was opened a bit more. "Does Xianle know about the maidenhead?"
Xie Lian wasn't entirely sure whether he did or not, so he shook his head.
"Before a woman is penetrated for the first time, her entrance is covered partway by a membrane, the maidenhead. When a man enters her, this membrane stretches and breaks. This is why a virgin bleeds on her wedding night."
Xie Lian nodded slowly. He'd never had the pieces laid out so clearly before him, but a few things he'd heard and overheard fit together in a way that made sense now.
"For this reason, it's possible to determine a young woman is a virgin in many cases simply by examining her maidenhead." He manipulated the hole a bit more and touched it, feeling it. It pulsed under his touch, and Xie Lian let out a little sound.
"Xianle's maidenhead is intact," Jun Wu said. "Of course, it's impossible for you to have lost your virginity in this form. But if you had lost your virginity in your male form, that would be reflected on this form, and your maidenhead wouldn't be intact. Therefore, it’s clear you have followed the rules of your cultivation path diligently, at least in this way. Not that I expected anything different of Xianle."
He was still resting his finger on the hole. Something inside Xie Lian's chest shivered exquisitely in response, filling him with warmth through his stomach and abdomen. Then, without warning, Jun Wu's fingertip sank in, meeting no resistance. There was no pain either, just the unfamiliar feeling of something entering Xie Lian's body, of something inside his body. Xie Lian's breath tightened, and he squeezed around the intrusion in pulses.
Jun Wu stopped with his finger inside Xie Lian up to the middle joint. "Don't worry, this won't damage the maidenhead. How does it feel? Is it painful?"
"No, my lord."
"Good." Jun Wu pushed his finger a bit further in, then drew it back out. There was a quiet wet sound as it came out. He held up his hand in front of Xie Lian. "You're very wet."
The finger that had been inside Xie Lian was glistening, dripping with wetness. Xie Lian's face grew hotter, and the place between his legs grew hotter in unison. He squirmed.
"Wetness like this is a sign that a woman is aroused," Jun Wu went on. "When her body anticipates being penetrated, it produces wetness to make penetration easier. Right now, Xianle's body anticipates being penetrated."
A tight, dizzy shiver chased through Xie Lian. He watched, captivated, as two of Jun Wu's fingers pushed inside him at once, swallowed by Xie Lian's body.
The feeling of having two fingers inside him still wasn’t painful, but it was much more intense than just one finger had been. Compared to Jun Wu, Xie Lian was quite small, especially in this form, and it felt like those large fingers were opening him up, not only at the entrance but also deeper inside.
Jun Wu pressed on a spot deep inside that made a twinge of pleasure sizzle outward through Xie Lian's belly and over his skin. Caught unprepared, Xie Lian let out a little cry.
"Does it feel good here?" Jun Wu prodded at the spot again, provoking another twinge of pleasure.
"Yes," Xie Lian said. It was almost easy to admit it now, he realized with a faint pang of shame. He hadn't imagined that despite all his training it would feel so natural and simple to fall into this state of openly experiencing sexual pleasure at the hands of another person. His own lack of reluctance alarmed him, but at the same time, how could he do anything but obey Jun Wu's directions? But it wasn't that he was doing this against his will… his body and mind alike craved the pleasure that Jun Wu was giving him.
Being in this female form must have done something to make him desire Jun Wu's touch. Wouldn't a girl his age melt under Jun Wu's hands and words in these circumstances? It seemed obvious now that Xie Lian thought about it. Of course he wouldn't be able to resist either when he had a female body! He had been taught to resist the allure of women as a man, not to resist the appeal of men as a woman!
Jun Wu's fingers pushed against a spot even deeper inside him, and Xie Lian gasped as his mind went all fuzzy and blank at the burst of pleasure. His head fell back against Jun Wu's chest.
"It seems that Xianle's body has a strong response to being penetrated," Jun Wu remarked. He dug his fingers into that spot more firmly, making Xie Lian's limbs go weak and useless. "You would receive great pleasure from intercourse in this form."
It took a few moments for Xie Lian to process what he meant. The realization came just as Jun Wu's fingers dug into the spot again, and Xie Lian couldn't help but wonder… having a man inside him, would it feel anything like this? A thrill coursed through him, and he didn't know whether it was from the stimulation or the thought or both.
And then Jun Wu withdrew his fingers, leaving Xie Lian dazed and empty with his hole pulsing around nothing. "Everything seems to be working properly here as well. You're free to go."
Unsure if he'd heard correctly, Xie Lian didn't move. Just like that, he was being dismissed? He struggled to gather himself in the haze of arousal fogging his mind.
"But you don't need to leave just yet," Jun Wu continued.
Oh, so Xie Lian wasn't being dismissed! He sagged against Jun Wu in relief.
"I've gotten you into quite a state," Jun Wu said. "It would be unfair of me to dismiss you like this. After all, with your cultivation, you can't simply relieve your own arousal."
Jun Wu was talking about self-pleasure. He meant… if not for Xie Lian's cultivation, would Jun Wu have expected him to go masturbate after this?
"It would be a simple matter for me to take care of you," Jun Wu went on. "Should your cultivation be negatively affected, it's simple to compensate for the lost spiritual power as well. No one would be able to tell anything ever happened. How does that sound, Xianle?"
Xie Lian knew he should politely decline the offer. He knew he shouldn't let his urges make decisions for him, knew he should recite sutras or even go jump in a cold lake somewhere as a last resort to calm his desires and bring himself back to his senses. But he didn't do any of those things. Instead, he nodded.
"Good," Jun Wu said, approving. He swept Xie Lian up in his arms and stood before Xie Lian could process what was happening, carrying him to the desk on the other side of the room and setting him down on top of it perched on the edge so that he had to clutch at Jun Wu for balance. The unexpected cool surface of the desk sent goosebumps up Xie Lian's back.
Jun Wu moved in between Xie Lian's thighs, pushing them apart with his hands, making Xie Lian grab onto him even tighter as his precarious balance was shifted. "You won't fall," Jun Wu said. Then he knelt and brought Xie Lian's legs up over his shoulders. His face was suddenly very close to Xie Lian's crotch. Xie Lian couldn't begin to guess what was going to happen; the part of his mind responsible for that kind of task wasn't working anymore. All he knew was that Jun Wu could see him directly, without a mirror in between, and that he was very, very close, so close that Xie Lian could feel his breath, cool air on hot wet flesh. Xie Lian's entrance pulsed. Jun Wu's face was getting even closer, his mouth was getting even closer, and then his lips touched Xie Lian.
It was like a kiss… no, it was a kiss, and it was there that Jun Wu was kissing. He met Xie Lian's eyes while he did it, and Xie Lian, stunned by what was happening, couldn't break the eye contact. And then, something hot and wet touched Xie Lian's skin, and Xie Lian realized that Jun Wu was licking him. And then the wet warmth laved over that thing, the little nub that was his cock.
A cry of shocked pleasure escaped Xie Lian's mouth. What Jun Wu was doing was so incredibly lewd, far beyond anything Xie Lian had ever imagined, and it felt so good. It felt like having an itch scratched that had been there for so long he'd grown accustomed to its presence. It was immense pleasure and relief at once, and the pleasure was relief, in a way the pleasure during the examination hadn't been.
Something touched his entrance and slipped inside him. Jun Wu's fingers again, some part of his mind supplied. They pressed into the spot deep inside him, sending pleasure spiking through him from that spot outwards even as Jun Wu's tongue continued to tease at the little nub with soft licks that seemed to cover every bit of it at once. Xie Lian was distantly aware his muscles were tensing and his body was doing things without his control and he was making all kinds of sounds, but the onslaught of overwhelming pleasure left no room for shame or embarrassment. The pleasure swelled even stronger until it spilled over the edge in a rush.
Xie Lian's body spasmed and pulsed, squeezing around the fingers inside him. His thighs were trembling and weakly trying to close, but Jun Wu held them open easily. The feeling of Jun Wu's tongue on the little nub abruptly became overwhelming in a new way. Xie Lian didn't know whether it felt good or bad, only that it was so much and he wanted it to stop and he wanted more of it at the same time. A tingly burning sensation washed through his lower body, and as Jun Wu continued to thrust his fingers into the pleasure-spot deep within Xie Lian's body at the same time, Xie Lian's pelvic muscles relaxed in response. There was a warm rushing feeling of release. But something wasn't quite right. It felt too wet. It felt like there was warm water running down. It felt like…
With a shock of cold horror, Xie Lian realized what was happening. He was urinating. While the Heavenly Emperor's mouth was still on him, he was wetting himself.
He tried to tighten his muscles to stem the flow, but it was no use. Even though the muscles burned with the feeling of holding back, the now-gushing stream of urine barely wavered. "I'm sorry," he said helplessly. "I'm sorry, I can't stop it, I'm trying, I-"
Jun Wu took his mouth off. "I don't mind. Let it happen, don't fight your body. Just relax and let go."
With a noise like a desperate sob, Xie Lian squeezed his eyes shut and obeyed.
"There you go," Jun Wu said. "That's it, let it all out. Don't worry about the mess, it's of no consequence." His other hand, the one that wasn't inside Xie Lian, came to touch the oversensitive little nub, rubbing and fondling it while the last spurts of urine were still flowing. Tears squeezed out of Xie Lian's eyes with how unbearably much it all was.
And then it was over, and Jun Wu scooped Xie Lian up in his arms again. He brought him to a room with a bed in the middle and laid him down on it, tucking him in under the covers as though Xie Lian was a small child who Jun Wu was putting to bed. For a moment Xie Lian feared Jun Wu was about to leave, and his heart sank in a kind of dazed panic. But instead, to his relief, Jun Wu sat down on the edge of the bed. He took Xie Lian's hair down, running his fingers through it and over his scalp. It felt so nice and comforting that Xie Lian couldn't help but nudge his head into the touch, eyelids fluttering shut.
"You did very well," Jun Wu said. "Xianle was so good and obedient for me."
The words washed over Xie Lian as blissful glowing warmth. He sank into the feeling and drifted like that until he fell asleep, with Jun Wu still stroking his hair.