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Dream hadn’t spoken to George in three whole days. He felt pathetic. His ears folding at just the thought. He’s ignoring his problems completely, and just pretending they’ll fix themselves all on their own. Even though he literally had to face them head on at a date quickly approaching. Dream felt sick to his stomach. It was the only thing on his mind yet he didn’t think twice about ignoring it. It was like he was back in High School all over again, procrastinating his worries away.
But unlike High School, he didn’t have his biggest escape: hanging out with George. He loved all his friends, but sometimes they can be a bit too serious and just over complicated simple problems. With George it was always so easy and natural, no forced empathy or confusion on what to do. He just did it, moved on, and then laughed it off while George smiled his big bright smile.
He missed him. He really did. Even though it had only been three days, those three days felt like hell. Heck, even before that he’s felt off. Not being honestly with one of his best friends felt like he was betraying them.
It had taken dream a while to realize his feelings, weeks, months, maybe even years. And now that he’s come to this huge realization he has to keep quiet about it?
With all of this running through Dream’s mind; he scrolls twitter, taking noticeably longer on fan art or quick summarizes of fanfics. Dream had always been open to reading and viewing that stuff, he felt like it was a love letter from his whole community. Them spending so much time and effect on something they cared about, which was him and his friends. But now with his feeling coming to light he viewed it a bit differently.
He still loved the works, obviously, but he no longer viewed it as a love letter from fans. Instead he almost thought of them as a manifestation of his subconscious feelings for George. Everyone else knew but him, how did he never realize what was right in front of him? He saw them as what could have been if he had just figured all this out sooner, and been able tell George. All that love depicted made him want to slap himself for not telling George his feelings, but also for just for feeling them at all to begin with.
He didn’t know how George would react to the truth. And that was the whole problem. He didn’t want to loose what he already had, but he also wanted so much and more.
He craved George’s body next his, combing through his hair as he wrapping his hands around George’s waist. His own tail softly thumbing in contentment. He wants to hold him close and never let go. Let themselves got lost in each’s eyes as he pulls him in, lips ever so slightly touching and then letting his tongue search George’s mouth in hopes of discovering every inch.
Dream sighed, ears flinching slightly, trying to forget the image he created of what George would look like if he told him how he felt face to face. George covering his bright smile in embarrassment as blood started to rush to his cheek causing a nice shade of pink. At least that’s how he hopes he’d react. How he wishes he would react.
He slowly scrolls past fanart of a oddly devastated looking george. It was obviously inspired by or maybe even traced from one of Sapnap and George’s sad-your-not-on-my-team moments before a MCC.
George could be repulsed by him, utterly disgusting by such a plea. Such a fantasy. Everyone says they’re not homophobic, but many people say that not understanding the meaning of their words. They say they aren't, meanwhile they’ll rush their children away from two women holding hands.
Even more so, many content creators lie about that kind of stuff. They don’t want to loose their audience or even RISK loosing their audience. It’s sad. Some of the dimmer content creators will be homophobic in private meanwhile preach equality to their fans. The not-as-dim ones just pretend to never be homophobic in any capacity because they know stuff like that gets leaked.
Dream knows George well, he’d like to think so after so many years of being in contact. But, “controversial” stuff or “sexual” stuff has never really been his forte. So it’s hard to tell how he really feels about it.
Dream won’t be telling George his feeling any time soon. He has to better understand George’s stance. He said he’s straight many times, so how does he even know there’s a POSSIBILITY for any type of romantic relationship? No, he couldn’t tell him. But how was he going to deal with all of these feeling and wants? He can’t even TALK to George! There has to be something he can do! Right?
Dream’s finger stops mid scroll. He slowly reads the words again. and again. Maybe that could work.
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