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-“I don’t want you to try to save me, I’ve come a long way without any help, so just back off.”- The black haired man said. He stared with a cold pierce look to the taller man standing next to him.
-“Levi, I don’t want to disturb you, I am not proposing anything that would make you feel uncomfortable with, but I am your superior and it’s my duty to look after you,- he cleared his voice, “to look after all of you. All I want you is to trust this, the Survey Corps.” Levi raised his eyebrow with little trust, after all he had seen, after seeing his friends get killed was difficult to embrace the mission of the Survey Corps. He knew he wasn’t doing this for humanity, he could care less for a bunch of people who had turned their back on him several times, he was doing it because he was angry, he felt all the rage within his body, he felt he needed to kill…and it was better to kill a titan than a person. Was better to kill a titan rather than Erwin Smith.
The famous Erwin Smith, the one who took him and his friends from the Underground. He wanted him to suffer, Levi couldn’t see any glimpse of sadness or guilt on the blond man. He must have practiced a lot to get that cold and serious gesture when his own fellows got killed. The problem was that they didn’t just get killed, they were eaten alive, dismembered…the worst images of a human body that someone could look at. A gore show.
-“Levi? I promise you that by doing this you would offer humanity an opportunity, you will revenge your friends deaths and you will rise. You are going to become a man of hope…I’m kind of jealous, you just have the ability, the gift. I have practiced a lot with the 3DMG but still, I don’t own your grace. You are a…- Levi hushed the man.
-“Stop it, I really don’t want to hear your shit right know. The more you talk to me, the less you understand me, the less you get my trust. I need more than words to be convinced about you, I can get all the stupidity about saving humanity but that’s not getting through me. You have to convince me other way to stay here.” With a perplexed look Erwin looked at the smaller man, he didn’t have the words to answer him right know, he knew he needed to prove Levi wrong with actions. He got closer to Levi who was standing near the dorms preparing to go to its own, he touched Levi gently in his elbow and said, -“I’ll try my best Levi, just give me a little faith. If I fail you, you are free to go.”- Levi quickly stepped back and with an angry stare he said, “Don’t touch me.” Erwin froze, he thought this kind of actions will benefit Levi’s trust towards him, but Erwin understood Levi was like a stray cat, you couldn’t just expect it to be gentle with just the touch of someone, a stranger. Erwin made another mistake with Levi in just one day, he knew this wasn’t going to go smoothly. But Levi made a big impression on the blond man, he wanted him to be with alongside, to be his comrade.
Levi entered his dorm, he was tired and tomorrow was going to be a long day since early morning. The training got harder every day but he didn’t want to be titan’s food, so it was better to work his ass off instead of being devoured. Even though he relied on his abilities he knew that luck was also a factor of surviving the entire battle, he wasn’t very lucky but he knew how to take good chances in the right time.
-“I hate this place.”- He said while he looked at his bed. It looked filthy and old. How many soldiers had slept in it? Who knew…but that gave him chills. He hated to share his bed with phantoms. –“I also hate you Erwin Smith, also dislike your stupid bolo tie. You are not better than me so don’t go around touching me and giving me orders”. - He sighed, he was talking to the wall. He started to get undressed, the Survey Corps uniforms were complicated they had many layers...just had many things going on. He took away the light color shit the brown sash around his waist, the white pants and the straps around his thighs and the leather boots. When he was naked he felt with his thin fingers his sored body, he saw the bruises and the marks the straps were already doing to his body. He closed his eyes and could feel the blood rising to his crotch. –“What the fuck? I am not even…shit…horny.”- he said while he sat down on his bed, his erection was getting bigger, he scratched his groin leaving nail marks while making his way to his cock. He liked pain, controlled pain. He liked how his nails made him feel alive when he felt the ache.
He started to masturbate with desperation, his dick head was pink and already with pre cum. Someone knocked at his door, Levi got up with nervousness from the bed. –“Get the fuck away, it’s late!”- He yelled while he tried to put his pajamas on but his erection was very noticeable and already the liquid made a stain on it. –“It’s me Levi, I’ve got something for you…”- Levi easily identified the voice of the whispers coming from the other side of the door. –“Go away, Erwin. I don’t want anything. See you later, goodnight.”- He said without any kindness, he tried to convince the other man to leave. Levi saw how the door knob was twisting, he couldn’t remember if he locked it…he wasn’t sure. The door opened and Erwin entered. He looked with big eyes, with a startled gaze over the smaller man crotch. Levi knew that he was screwed. Erwin cleared his throat trying not to make a fuzz about Levi’s revealing body. –“I…well I’ve got you this.”- He left on the night desk a white button up shirt along with a white cravat. –“ I thought it would suit you…”- Erwin’s cheeks were pink and he felt the temperature over his body rising up.
Levi thanked the man without even trying to make eye contact with him. –“You, stupid man, you interrupted something going on in here, you know? Now I am in pain, mother fucker." - His erection didn’t seem to go away even in the presence of Erwin Smith, someone who Levi disliked. He approached the taller man and with an angry look he stared directly to the blue man’s eyes while he grabbed Erwin’s hand and put it inside the spring of his pants, he leaded the big hands to his cock and told him. –“Finish what you interrupted.”- Erwin was astonished, -“Levi, I don’t…”- -“Oh come on, you have never jerked off? I do not care if you are homo or not, whatever. Just fucking release me, you bastard.”- Levi took off his pants, being naked again but this time in front of his superior.