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Agape and Eros
Installment 1 Agape - Innocent Love
Chen Yu loves his job, always has, probably always will. However, there are downsides. For once he works in shifts, but that's bearable. The worst part is the danger.
Hunting down the bad guys means that there's no way Chen Yu doesn't get injured every now and then. So far he's been burned, stabbed and shot. Oh and beaten up. Several times. Just like tonight.
The mission has been a success, but the raid at the end got a little out of hand and resulted in more violence than planned for.
Of course Chen Yu could have gone to the hospital for treatment like his colleagues have, but he doesn't actually like hospitals. Not since his parents died in one many years ago.
Not even the fact that he's married to a doctor can change that.
But one of the perks is that he doesn't need to go to a hospital anymore to receive treatment, even though he knows his husband Gu Wei will scold him for getting injured in the first place.
Honestly, it's what bothers Chen Yu the most about getting hurt, that Gu Wei worries. His face always turns sad and his eyes dark whenever he has to treat cuts and bruises.
Sometimes Chen Yu even contemplates switching jobs. Or quit the narcotics bureau for something less dangerous with more desk work.
Gu Wei however, would never want him to do that. When they got married they'd agreed that they would both respect the career of the other, even if it meant long hours and potential danger.
Still, now that Chen Yu is dragging himself up the staircase in their apartment building, he can't fight his bad conscience.
His entire body aches and he knows he's bleeding from several cuts. If it wasn't for Gu Wei, his chief would have never let him go without seeing a paramedic first.
Sticking the key into the locker turns out to be a greater challenge than Chen Yu anticipated, but as he finally makes it and the door swings open. A sigh of relief escapes him.
Finally at home. Finally in a safe environment.
The lights are already on, which means Gu Wei is at home and waiting for him. But instead of cheering him up, Chen Yu is going to worry him again. It happens too often these days.
Of course the sound of the door closing attracts Gu Wei and makes him stick his head into the hallway with a bright smile stretched across his face. It’s the smile Chen Yu loves so much. The one that shows off Gu Wei’s pretty bunny teeth.
But his eyes darken and his face turns worried the moment he lays eyes on Chen Yu and notices the state he’s in. The cuts, the dirt, the bruises - many more of which are still hidden under his uniform -, the hunched posture and the way Chen Yu presses one hand against his painfully pulsing left ribs.
“A’Yu! What happened?”, he exclaims, crossing the distance between them with two strides of his long legs and immediately hooks Chen Yu’s arm over his shoulder to help him walk.
“Mission ended violently. Fight broke out. Shooting was too dangerous”, Chen Yu explains, his voice rough with pain. He’s not sure if he hasn’t cracked a rib. Breathing hurts like a bitch.
Gu Wei doesn’t say anything, his lips pressed into a thin line of worry and Chen Yu feels so bad for putting his husband through this again and again.
When they got together he promised to always be careful and he is! But oftentimes injuries can’t be avoided, no matter how careful he is. And protecting innocents must come first. Today was no exception.
It’s a miracle that Gu Wei hasn’t kicked Chen Yu out a long time ago. Not because he doesn’t love him, but because Chen Yu makes him worry again and again, unable to keep the promises he has made.
“Don’t be mad, baobao. I tried”, Chen Yu says, voice small and mood somber. He hates worrying his husband.
“I’m not mad. It’s okay. Let me put some antiseptic and waterproof band-aid on your wounds and then we’ll get you cleaned in the bathtub, alright?”
Chen Yu nods, sitting down on the edge of the bed while Gu Wei goes to fetch a chair and his first aid kit. The one he always keeps stocked in case his husband comes home all bloody and beaten, like tonight. He shouldn’t need to do that in the first place. He shouldn’t have to treat Chen Yu as much as he does. It’s unfair.
“Are you really okay with this?”, Chen Yu asks, as soon as Gu Wei returns and gets the antiseptic and a cotton pad ready.
His husband raises a pretty, black eyebrow at him. “Stop blaming yourself for this. I knew what I was getting myself into when I decided to marry a stubborn police officer. Now hold still, so I can treat you. And no whining.”
Chen Yu nods obediently and straightens his back. Gu Wei has always had this effect on him. He’s always been able to balance out the authority side of Chen Yu. In his job, he’s the one who’s in charge, the one who commands. But at home he can hand over a bit of that responsibility to the man he loves and trusts.
Gu Wei is like a safe place, a rock. Someone who accepts Chen Yu for who he is and spares him the effort to perform a role. It’s nice. They have always clicked like two puzzle pieces meant to be together.
Naturally, the antiseptic stings in the wounds on his cheek and above his right eyebrow. “Sorry for not looking sexy for you today”, he jokes in an attempt not to whine about the pain. He’s a big boy. Or so he tells himself.
“You’re always sexy, even if your face looks like you had an unfortunate encounter with a street cat”, Gu Wei teases, eyes focused on the task at hand.
The words make Chen Yu laugh, which again hurts in his chest and makes him hiss.
“Deserved”, Gu Wei comments, lowering the pad and grinning at his husband. A little bit of suffering will teach Chen Yu to take better care of himself. Maybe. Or not.
“So mean, Wei-ge”, Chen Yu pouts, pushing his bottom lip out and fake sulking. He knows Gu Wei would never want him to be in pain, but he’s a bit salty at times too.
“Yeah, yeah. I know. Now, don’t move your head, I’ll apply the band-aid.”
Chen Yu does as he’s told, waiting patiently for Gu Wei to finish treating his face.
“Okay, done. You take off your shirt and pants while I start the water in the tub. But don’t move, I have to make sure the rest of your body is treated as well before we get into the water”, Gu Wei orders as he rises from his chair and pads into the bathroom.
Soon the sound of running water floats into the bedroom while Chen Yu opens his shirt and slowly peels it off his sweaty and dirty body. His pants follow suit and he sits down on the bed again, staring down at the slowly forming bruises on his chest and abdomen.
“A work of art, I see!”, Gu Wei comments, smirking at Chen Yu’s discomfort.
“At least one of us is having fun”, Chen Yu retorts, but is actually glad that Gu Wei isn’t mad at him for breaking his promise again. The only time they did indeed fight over an injury was when Chen Yu got shot and still wanted to refuse treatment at a hospital.
Gu Wei shrugs and sits down in front of him again, eyes scanning the exposed skin. “It’s the best one can do in a situation like this, isn’t it? I’ll apply some salve that should help with the healing, but you’ll be sore for a few days. Can’t change that.”
“Thought so. Chief already told me to stay home for the rest of the week. I’m of no use to him in my current state.”
“The man is right”, Gu Wei agrees, while his hands rub salve into Chen Yu’s forming bruises. It’s painful again, but Chen Yu endures it, knowing that being a baby will only make Gu Wei taunt him some more, which doesn’t sit right with his ego.
As soon as the last bruise has been treated, Gu Wei turns off the water and helps Chen Yu into the bathroom.
“Will you get into the tub with me? I might need some assistance”, Chen Yu asks, turning his best puppy eyes on his husband. He would probably be able to clean himself of the grime and dirt but he really wants Gu Wei’s hands on him some more.
“Really? Can’t do that by yourself? Fine, fine. I’ll help you. Get inside, I’ll join”, he says, shaking his head fondly at the younger man. Their dynamics have always been like this. Chen Yu wants something and Gu Wei gives it to him, but teases him about it as if it meant a real sacrifice for him.
Chen Yu laughs and takes off his boxers before slowly climbing into the tub. It’s harder than expected since his ribs still hurt with every movement - and laugh - but he eventually makes it with a bit of groaning and huffing.
“And here I thought I was the old man in this relationship, but today you sound a lot more like that”, Gu Wei teases again as he enters the tub behind Chen Yu and pulls him against his chest. A soft kiss is pressed to his neck and the warmth of Gu Wei’s body bleeds through his skin.
“So funny, gege. I’m a poor injured man and you make fun of me”, Chen Yu mock-laments, but hands Gu Wei the wash cloth with a wink, which earns him another head shaking and eye rolling.
“Really, how do I even endure being with you?”, he says, voice fond as he slowly traces the wet cloth down Chen Yu’s back, spreading more warmth across his abused muscles.
“You love me.”
“Yeah, that’s the problem.”
“Aiyo!”, Chen Yu exclaims, turning half way around to face his husband. “You wound me!”
Gu Wei tilts his head and grins, using the new position to clean Chen Yu’s chest, which makes him hiss when the warm water hits his bruises. “You signed up for this, when you chose to marry me.”
“I guess I did”, Chen Yu agrees, now completely turning around and getting comfortable on Gu Wei’s lap. His body still aches, but that doesn’t mean it’s gonna stop him from being close to his husband. “And I don’t regret it, as strange as that may sound.”
The words earn him a slap against his upper arm and the washcloth slides across a particularly bad bruise. “Careful, gou zai zai. If you want to sleep in the bed tonight, I’d recommend you shut up now.”
Chen Yu laughs again, despite the pain caused by his injuries. “You’d miss me in bed…”
“Not enough to not punish you for being a little gremlin”, Gu Wei replies, raising his eyebrows in an act of defiance, which makes Chen Yu lean in and kiss him playfully. He loves this. The carefree way of their banter and the teasing that borders on foreplay.
The wash cloth falls from Gu Wei’s hands and he trails his fingers up Chen Yu’s warm back, tips digging into the hard muscles to massage the kinks away, while his husband moans into the kiss as his shoulders and back slowly relax.
It’s a sound more lewd than the action, but it reminds Gu Wei of the usual context of these moans, causing his cock to stir in interest, which doesn’t go unnoticed by Chen Yu of course. With the position they are in it would resemble a miracle if he missed a reaction like that.
“Ah, Wei-ge likes this, doesn’t he? Or at least Xiao Wei does”, Chen Yu teases, his lips close to Gu Wei’s ear, breath hot against his skin.
“Shut up, you menace! What did you expect with the sounds you’re making?”
Playful teeth nibble at Gu Wei’s earlobe and a large hand travels down his front until it reaches his soft cock. “I have no idea what you’re talking about…”
Gu Wei makes a huffing noise as he captures Chen Yu’s lips in a soft and slow kiss. It’s different to the way they usually kiss in moments like this. More tender and careful. Usually they are more on the rough side of fucking. But tonight they are both in need of comfort.
Comfort because they know sometimes there’s only them in this world to fully trust and that together they can pull through everything life throws at them. Even if it's Chen Yu getting hurt again.
The kiss remains unhurried and lazy, a slow dance of lips sliding against each other that extracts the most delicious sounds. Not quite moans yet, but small sounds of a different kind of pleasure. The ones you hear when arousal is just building in the form a slight tingle at the base of the spine.
It’s not a full flashed inferno yet, but a low simmering, a warmth that has nothing to do with the heat of the water around them. And when Chen Yu opens his mouth to lure Gu Wei’s tongue inside, he doesn’t want his mouth to get fucked, but wants to taste the man he’s loved for years.
Delicate hands travel down his back and leave a memory of warmth in their wake, while Chen Yu cups Gu Wei’s face gently. It’s been a while since they last kissed like this, almost coyly. Like the first time a few weeks after they met.
Chen Yu only moans into the kiss when those skilled hands start massaging his ass, kneading the round globes tenderly, which indeed helps relax. It’s of course arousing as well, but the warmth it creates is more than just the promise of sex.
The water moves in slow ripples around them, still hot but lacking any soap because Gu Wei didn’t want Chen Yu’s wounds to get in contact with chemicals. It feels natural in a way Chen Yu can’t describe and loves. The heat adds to the vulnerable state he’s in.
“I really want to feel you inside”, he whispers as the kiss breaks and Gu Wei peppers his face with small, quick pecks.
“You’ve been injured, baobei. Are you sure your body can take it?”
“I know you’ll always take good care of me”, Chen Yu replies, nosing along Gu Wei’s neck. One of the perks of the missing soap is that he gets to smell his husband’s personal scent instead of something artificial. Gu Wei smells a hundred times better than any exotic fruit scent in a bottle.
“Yes and that’s why I should give you time to recover and rest”, he says, sounding a bit scolding, but his fingers spread Chen Yu’s cheeks and dip into the crack in between.
“Do it slowly then”, Chen Yu argues, leaning closer until his chin rests on Gu Wei’s shoulder and his lips are close to his ear. It’s so easy to nip at the earlobe if he wants to. It’s one of Gu Wei's erogenous spots. Never fails to make him hot under the collar. “Make love to me, gege.”
Gu Wei inhales sharply, closing his eyes as the words register in his mind. “You know how to persuade me”, he says as the tip of one of his long fingers circles Chen Yu’s entrance playfully. “But water is not a satisfying lubricant.”
Chen Yu pushes himself off his husband and raises an eyebrow at him. “Do you really underestimate me this much, Gu yisheng ?”, he asks and shakes his head as he reaches for a small tube sitting innocently between shampoo, conditioner and soap.
“You planned this?”, Gu Wei asks, not really bothered but rather amused.
“Well, not exactly this”, Chen Yu replies, gesturing down his injured body. “But bath tub sex, oh yeah, you bet.” He fishes the tube from among the other utensils and hands it to Gu Wei. “Now, you still don’t wanna make me feel good?”
Gu Wei huffs again but admits defeat by taking the tube and placing it on the edge of the tub next to his shoulders. “You win, you win. Insatiable as always. Even after being beaten into a pulp.”
For a moment longer Chen Yu wonders why the lube has been set aside again but he gets his answer as Gu Wei leans in and flicks his tongue across a sensitive nipple, while his free hand plays with the other one.
Chen Yu tosses his head back, enjoying the attention he’s receiving. A playful tongue and hand teasing his chest, while the other hand still circles his rim with a promise of what’s to come. Even with the pain he’s still in, his body reacts to the pleasure and his cock starts filling out.
Trust his husband to know all the right places to touch and play with.
Sharp teeth replace the tongue and nibble at the now red and hard nub, causing a delicious spike of pain. His other nipple meanwhile gets pinched and tugged at until Chen Yu moans and shivers, not knowing if he wants Gu Wei to stop or do more.
“Look how hard you already are, baobei. Does it feel good, having your chest played with?”
Chen Yu wants to answer, he really wants it. But only a shaky rasp escapes his lips as he rubs his cock - now hard and standing proudly between his legs - against Gu Wei’s erection. Two can play that game.
“Yeah, it feels amazing for me to have such a handsome husband in my arms. And the sounds he makes. So sinful”, Gu Wei purrs, face satisfied like a smug cat.
“More please…”, Chen Yu finally moans, his chest now sufficiently red and abused.
“Anything my baobei wants”, Gu Wei agrees, placing both his hands on Chen Yu’s hips to raise his ass out of the water. It’s a bit of a tricky position, but Chen Yu finds leverage on the edge of the tub and waits for Gu Wei to squeeze a generous amount of lube onto his fingers.
He warms it briefly before using his unsoiled hand to spread Chen Yu's cheeks again. A lubed, wet finger soon teases the rim that has already been massaged earlier and is therefore more relaxed than usual.
Chen Yu bucks his hips as the finger first breaches his muscle, just one knuckle being slowly inserted. It feels amazing but is not nearly enough. It would have been earth shattering years ago, when Chen Yu had still been a single guy dreaming of finding a boyfriend who would take him apart in bed. Although… probably not even then.
“Shhhh, not so fast. Patience. We’ll get there”, Gu Wei coos, slowly feeding Chen Yu more of his finger until it’s completely inside. The lube and massage make sure there isn’t any pain yet and patience has never been Chen Yu’s strong point, which makes it even harder to stay still.
“That’s it. Just like this. I’ll give you more soon. Be a good boy for me, yes?”, he praises, moving the finger in and out of Chen Yu’s tight channel in a slow, steady rhythm that relaxes the muscles.
Being a sucker for praise, Chen Yu of course does his best to make his husband proud. He digs his fingers into the hard edge of the tub, but otherwise remains unmoving. Only small moans drop from his lips as Gu Wei inserts a second digit and starts scissoring him open.
There’s a slight burn not, but it’s still nothing compared to what they usually do, if both of them are too frantic and too impatient for proper prep and just want to fuck as quickly as possible. Still, this is nice too. It has a kind of luxury to it that makes Chen Yu’s head spin. He feels spoiled.
“Talk to me, baobei. How does that feel?”, Gu Wei wants to know, crooking his fingers inside Chen Yu brushing against his sweet spot.
Stars explode in front of his vision and a mewling sound escapes his throat. “So good, gege. So good”, he moans and feels his dick twitch. He’s nowhere near coming yet, but his cock is certainly leaking precome already.
“You’re doing so well for me. Turn around, yeah? I want to see my fingers in your pretty ass”, Gu Wei prompts, taking his fingers out and leaving Chen Yu to clench around nothing, suddenly feeling too empty.
He hisses at the loss first, but turns around with Gu Wei’s help, one slow movement at a time so he doesn’t hurt himself, until his back faces his husband. Both fingers soon return, opening him up some more, before a third is added to make sure he’s sufficiently stretched to take Gu Wei’s cock soon.
“Wei-ge…”, Chen Yu moans, wiggling his butt a little. Three fingers feel nice but they are nothing compared to the real deal and that’s what he craves.
“Are you sure you’re ready? Your body took a lot today. I don’t want to hurt you”, Gu Wei says, one hand rubbing soothing circles into Chen Yu’s lower back, spreading warmth against his skin.
“Yes, I’m ready. I can take it. If we’re slow, it shouldn’t be a problem”, he says, basking in the soft attention he’s getting. His entire body feels pliant already and they haven’t even fucked yet.
Gu Wei makes an affirmative sound as he pulls back his fingers and spreads Chen Yu’s cheeks once more, taking a look at his work. The pink, little hole is loose and open, ready to be filled with something bigger than three of Gu Wei’s long, thin fingers.
“I can’t lube myself up very well in the water, so I’ll add some more to you, okay?”, he announces, followed by the sound of the tube being opened.
Soon after, more lube is being spread inside of Chen Yu, coating his walls and making him ready to take what his husband is going to serve him.
“Okay, come on, sit back on my lap, baobei”, Gu Wei says, pulling Chen Yu towards him with one hand and taking his own dick into the other. He positions both of them at the right angle and raises his hips until the cockhead nudges against Chen Yu’s entrance.
It’s a feeling that sparks excitement within him every time it happens. Mostly because it is - just like now - followed by the amazing sensation of Gu Wei pushing into his body.
Today it is again slow and unhurried, one inch at a time, which leaves Chen Yu enough time to get used to the stretch and the fullness until after what feels like forever, Gu Wei is completely sheathed inside and makes a relieved sound as well.
“Fuck, you feel good. You’re so warm and tight around me. Amazing”, he praises, making Chen Yu’s ears burn and his abdomen clench in arousal.
“Please move, Wei-ge. Make me feel more”, he pleads, wiggling his toned ass, which has Gu Wei laugh softly.
“As you wish”, Gu Wei says, slowly starting to thrust up, shallow and soft, while his hands hold Chen Yu in a tender grip to move him up and down as well.
Every slide against his inner walls feels delicious, never being enough but keeping him filled with pleasure that simmers at a low temperature and slowly warms up his entire being. His skin tingles and he moans openly and loudly, because why should he hold back when his husband is making him feel so good?
“That’s it. Such a good boy. Taking me so well”, Gu Wei praises again, catering to Chen Yu’s every need tonight.
“Does it feel good inside, gege?”, he asks, although he’s been told earlier. There’s just something in his chest that really wants to hear it again. Nothing turns him on like knowing that he can give pleasure to the man he loves with his body.
Gu Wei chuckles behind him, one hand traveling down Chen Yu’s abdomen to close around his cock and stroke it in tandem with his thrusts. “Of course it does. You always feel amazing. No one could ever take me so well.”
Chen Yu preens at the words and sobs wetly when Gu Wei squeezes his hard and leaking cock. “Do you want to come, baobei?”
“You come first. Come inside…”, he demands, tightening his walls around the cock that keeps opening him up again and again. Gu Wei coming inside him and filling him up never fails to make him come, especially not if his dick is being stroked as well.
The water splashes around him when Gu Wei finally picks up the pace and starts thrusting harder and faster. It’s still not rough, but just a bit more urgent than before, with both of them riled up by their slow rhythm before.
“Baobei. I’ll fill you up. Do you want that?”, Gu Wei rasps, bracing his forehead against Chen Yu's shoulders as he bounces him on his lap, hard cock sliding almost all the way out only to be pushed back inside with one long thrust.
Each time it happens, sparks explode in Chen Yu’s abdomen and he adds his own hand to Gu Wei’s to tug at his leaking, red cock. “Yes, please. I want it. I want you to fill me up”, he mumbles, his brain now turning into mush as the amount of pleasure rises with every thrust.
Gu Wei groans at the words, his teeth sinking into the muscle of Chen Yu’s shoulder. He changes his angle and pushes his cock in deep and hard, aiming for Chen Yu’s sweet spot again, which in the end drives them both over the edge.
Hot, sticky come spills into Chen Yu, while his own cock twitches at the assault of pleasure as well, coming in thick ribbons into the water. Gu Wei, although riding his own orgasm keeps milking Chen Yu’s cock at the same time as he empties himself inside him.
They are both panting hard, their bodies flushed and covered in sweat as they come down from the peak and sink against each other in the still warm water.
Chen Yu turns around and curls up against Gu Wei’s chest, ignoring his protesting body as he moves so much at once. A delicate, wet hand runs through his hair. Hair which is always short and fluffy. And even though Gu Wei can’t hold onto it, he is still very fond of touching it.
“Are you alright?”, he asks, his voice still heavy but also warm and caring.
“Yes. Don’t worry. That was amazing”, Chen Yu replies, rubbing his cheek against Gu Wei’s skin. He knows he’s probably acting needy right now, but he also doesn’t care. Gu Wei has always accepted this side of him and he sure wouldn’t stop now.
“Mhm. But we should get you cleaned up and into bed, baobei. You’re hurt”, he reasons, massaging Chen Yu’s scalp tenderly.
“One more minute…”
“Okay, okay. I’ll set the temperature in the meanwhile, so we can wash your hair”, Gu Wei announces, reaching for the shower head to turn the water back on.
Chen Yu listens to the sounds of the shower head, closing his eyes while basking in his husband's proximity. Gu Wei's body is strong and reliable against his own, a constant presence radiating comfort. Falling asleep would be so easy now.
But a wet, gentle hand cards through his hair again and keeps him awake. "Hey don't fall asleep on me now. I know you're exhausted but I need you to last a little longer", Gu Wei says as he starts washing the grime out of Chen Yu's hair as much as possible without shampoo.
The water feels nice too and Chen Yu does his best to stay alert and not get too sleepy. He can't expect Gu Wei to carry him to bed.
"I'll have to clean you inside as well. Relax for me baobei, okay?", Gu Wei says, his fingers slowly probing at Chen Yu's puffy, abused rim.
It pulls a hiss from his throat at first, but the touch turns almost pleasurable soon. Gu Wei is gentle in his ministrations, one finger sliding into Chen Yu and carefully cleaning him out while avoiding the spots that would excite him.
Not that they haven't had more than one round of sex in their lifes. Most days, things end with several orgasms for both of them, but most days Chen Yu isn't injured and needs rest.
As soon as Gu Wei deems his husband clean enough, he helps him out of the tub and towels them both dry.
Chen Yu chuckles a little. "I can do that myself, gege."
"Can you? I'm not so sure", Gu Wei replies, tossing Chen Yu the towel before watching him engage in a no-win fight with the impudent piece of terry cloth.
It takes all but two minutes before Chen Yu yields and let's Gu Wei do the work, especially with his hair. Thank heavens he's on sick leave for a while.
"Why does it get worse?", he laments, looking like a drenched puppy.
"Because the adrenaline is leaving your system. It gets worse before it gets better", Gu Wei explains, placing both hands on Chen Yu's hips and pushing him towards the bedroom.
"Just cuddling! No funny business!", Gu Wei orders in his best doctor-voice, pulling back the covers for Chen Yu to crawl under.
"I can't do any funny business anyway anymore", he grumbles, sounding pouty.
But as soon as they are both in bed, with the blankets wrapped around them like a large human burrito, Chen Yu relaxes into Gu Wei's hold and snuggles against his skin.
"Sleep, baobei. That will help you recover soon", Gu Wei whispers, kissing his husband's forehead.
Some days are hard, but with the person you love and trust, they are always bearable.