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My life had been one trauma after the other. This is my story. Hopefully, by sharing this, I can heal and move on. Anyways, I guess we should start with the backstory, yeah? My mom was raped by a friend when she was a senior in high school and thus, I was made and my trauma began. She kept me, resented me slightly but tried her best. When I was five she met my step-dad who adopted me and is my real dad now.
My mom had a temper on her. Renee was always the type to be hot-headed. We’re two strong personalities and never got along. She would scream at me and back me into a corner to yell in my face almost daily. She never hit me, but her words alone did enough damage. We moved around a lot before finally settling in Forks when I was fifteen, but as a result, I never really got the hang of how to make and keep friends. The ones I did manage to find would either ghost me or talk behind my back. I gave up on having friends or a life at all when we moved to Forks after Charlie got his dream job.
I managed to find one girl on my first day at Forks High. Her name was Angela. She quickly became my best friend. She was also super shy and alone. We only had each other and after we learned how to drive we both spent more time away than at home. We had so many adventures, but that’s a story for another time. She was reserved, but I was more than a little boy crazy. I was good-looking and I knew it. I started dating Mike Newton before winter break. It was just a casual thing, but he became a good friend and I really cared about him. But then he cheated on me with Jessica Stanley, so I dumped him. My first heartbreak. I had never felt more alone. The entire world was grey after that for almost a year.
I didn’t love Mike. I didn’t even really care that he cheated. We didn’t even have sex. I just cared that I got rejected and abandoned again. My bio-dad made it very clear he didn’t want me and I’ve never met him. That gave me abandonment issues up the ass. My only experience with guys was limited to abandonment or being awkward and quiet. I love Charlie, I really do, but we have no idea how to interact together. All of that changed one day when I was seventeen. And that, dear readers, is where our real story begins. The story of how Edward Cullen waltzed in and turned my entire life upside down forever.