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TW:derealization
I woke up in a cold sweat this morning. I had one of those dreams again. The ones that felt like reality. I saw him again too. The man who I feel like I know so well yet feels like a complete stranger. We have talks like friends. But he has a cold and chilling presence that I have never experienced. I get out of bed. I don't think I'll be getting any more sleep tonight.
The early morning is beautiful in the kingdom,D̶r̶e̶a̶m̶ the other members would really like it here in the morning. The sun starts to rise. I eat some bread while I watch the sunrise. It is really beautiful. I pinch myself to make sure this is not a dream. ¨Ow¨ i say out loud. This wasn't a dream. I walk every day not knowing if it's a dream or not. I can't tell what's real and what merely something my brain is making up around me. Sometimes I can tell when things are off and I just wake up. Other times it feels so real It feels like I'm standing right there. Like the man in my dreams. He feels so real. He reminds me of Dream. I do miss him. I know he's done horrible things. And he deserves to be in jail . But I can't help but want things to go back to normal. To have the normal Dream back.
Thats a stupid thing to want isnit it ¨Normal¨. Things will never be completely normal. At least not the normal I want to return to . I'm just grasping on to a feeling that I can never have back. I heard a sizzle behind me. Then an explosion. I let out a sherik. A creeper had snuck up on me while I was in my thoughts. The creeper had left a hole. Great now I gotta fill this in. I fill in the hole with dirt. I take a glance around. Kinoko kingdom is coming along quite well. It's the closest I've felt to normal in a while. I haven't left the kingdom in a while. I try to steer clear of the greater dream smp these days. It brings back bad memories. But I did go back the other day...I think. I wanted to visit Dream. I feel like maybe one last talk would help the dreams I've been having. It's like my conscious telling me I miss him. I almost made it in but Quackity interrupted me. Maybe it was for the better. Do I really want to see him? Maybe then my dreaming would go back to normal. There I am again. Wishing for normal. It's not going to happen George. Face it nothing will ever be the same.
The sun was now quite high in the sky. Despite it being the middle of the day I wanted to sleep so bad. I barely got any sleep last night. I lay in the grass to rest my eyes. But I make sure to not sleep. I don't want another dream. I could hear the birds tweeting and I felt the wind blowing past my face.
Then I hear a strange noise. It's the noise of clinking down next to me. I open my eyes and look down next to me. It's 5 netherite ingots. I look up there he is. He says in his chilling echoey voice ¨ Why Hello George¨. He gives me a smile. Just his presence alone makes a chill go down my spine. ¨Hello¨ I say back. ¨How is your day?¨ he said to me. ¨Fine¨ I say. ¨GEORGE¨ I hear someone yelling name. I stand up. ¨YEAH HELLO??¨. ¨UP HERE¨ the voice says. I look up. Quackity is flying in the clouds. ¨HOW DID YOU GET UP THERE?!?¨ I yell up to him. He flys down to right in front of me and says ¨Because you wanted me too¨. ¨What?¨ I said to him. The chilling man looks me right in the eyes and says ¨Wake up george, This isn't real.¨. My heart starts to beat faster. ¨What?¨. My heart felt like it was going to break out of my chest. The chilling man says again ¨Wake up, Wake up, Wake up¨ My head starts to spin. My heart kept beating all I head was that echoey voice saying ¨Wake up, Wake up, Wake up¨.
I jolt up in the grass. Sapnap was sitting over me. ¨George are you okay?¨ Sapnap says. ¨What?¨ whisper back out of breath. ¨You fell asleep on the grass, I was yelling for you to wake up¨ Sapnap said to me. I layed back on the grass, catching my breath. It was just a dream. Just a dream. Just a Dream.