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It’s been almost a year. A year full of trying to forget, a year full of crying and feeling all kinds of wrong.
For a year Penelope has been asking herself a lot of questions, she has been hating what she had done. Just to Josie though, everyone else It’s just background people to her.
Of course it was all to prevent losing her one true love, well not to prevent losing her but to ensure she has a full life, not just breathing, but living, for Josie to wake up and realize that she can, indeed live her own life and not her sisters’, or her fathers’ or even the one Penelope was making her live. Josie had to build her own personality, her own path, And Penelope though she had to do it alone.
She thought that a break up could make her realize what she is losing by always following her sister like a puppy and doing everything she asked for without question, even if it meant going against everything she loved, even if it meant doing the oposite of what she wanted, leaving behind her own desires, even if it meant leaving Penelope behind every time Lizzie had the slightest inconvenient, like she had to beg to spend time with her, now, ex-girlfriend. It wasn’t fair. It’s true that Penelope It’s always the selfless when it comes to Josie but it really was too much to ask to spend a full day with her? To have a proper date, or being able to sleep besides her more that one night every two or three weeks? She just wanted to feel like she was actually worth it, that she was more than just an entertainment to Josie. For just one night, she wanted to be the first one in the priority list.
Clearly the break up didn’t help, it only bought hate to Josies’ heart and it made her more coodependent to her sister. She did lose Penelope and she was not going to lose her sister too so Josie thought that if she did everything the blonde wanted without question, she wouldn’t let her down and so Lizzie wouldn’t grow distant to her, they’d be a happy family. Penelope saw that and it only made her be a bigger bitch to everyone, Lizzie the first, she wanted to hurt her, to make her weak or at least to make her realize what she was doing to her own sister but that didn’t end well. With every try, every word she spoke or every little thing she did to pull Josie up, the only thing that came out was words of hate from the girl she loved the most, she could see how Josie wanted her far away, and even that she didn’t lose hope, she knew that Josie wasn’t going to forgive her. At least not soon, so when her mother told her that they had to move out, she was, of course, sad, but also relieved. She could try to move on, she could scape from the looks Josie throwed at her, and she could let behind the sad smiles she made every time she saw the brunette, knowing what would happen to her if she didn’t stand up for herself, knowing that she was now powerless, not being able to do much, but doing everything she could.
Even with all the nights she spend crying, with all the things she had to listen, she knew that it was all Lizzies’ fault, that the hate she had to Penelope was, most of the times, the reason why she always needed something from the brunette when they where together. Penelope knew Josie really loved her, well at least that’s what she wanted to believe since the only “I love you” ever listened from the couple was the goodbye one from the raven haired girl, but she knew for sure that Lizzie was the one responsable for the lack of attention Josie gave her.
Penelope spent every night crying when she moved out to Belgium, she leaved Josie behind when it seemed that things were getting better, when it seemed that they could start all over again, event if it meant building first the friendship they had lost along the way. And if she had to say it, she also missed the sweet boy MG, they really had a great and fun friendship, he was the one that helped her have the courage to write a letter to her loved one, they did spend a lot of time together since the twins birthday, and had quite a lot of adventures and bonding times, they really cared for each other, and having people caring for her was not normal in Penelopes’ life. Damn she really loved it there even with all the blindness that everyone had in the Salvatore school, deep down it was a nice place.
And now it’s been almost a year, a bad year but not a worthless year. Penelope is back at the Salvatore school for christmas, she doesn’t know why she agreed to go there again, when things weren’t fixed yet, but Caroline Forbes is not a person you can disagree with, and when she said that Penelope was coming with her, she couldn’t say no, she really tried but the vampire never takes “no” for an answer.